“ hmmm was this how it was supposed to go?”

I never really paid much attention to this. Hmmm but from what I can understand.

Before I could question if kidnaping women and sacrificing them to my love was a good idea for our relationship it all turn black. I felt a weight to my body a sluggishness to my movements. There was no up or down just an endless depth. No light or sound. But it was familiar to me. Tell me do you know whats its like to drown. Did you know that the instinct to not breathe underwater is stronger than the agony of simply running out of air. No matter how desperate the drowning person is he won’t inhale until the very end. Its at this point that the act of drowning begins in earnest. This is often known as their break point.

Once the first involuntary breath occurs most people are still conscious. This is unfortunate because the experience has only begun. Breathing in air and breathing in water are too of the most different experiences that can occur. At this point the breathing goes from voluntary to involuntary breathing. While the mind comprehend the lack of oxygen it send singles to breath without deep experience. These singles can’t be denied. And they say one thing breath. At the same time a few things can happen. But in my case a part of the body known as the windpipe has a immediate contraction in the surrounding mussels. Once in effect a part of the brain will judge that this invasive substance you are drowning in to be more of a threat then the lack of oxygen. Once this is so the body will act accordingly. Most of the time this simply means your death is going to be more painful and you get to achieve an amazing experience of drowning without water ever making it to your lungs.

To some extreme people like me who can go for quite a long time without air you sometimes notice some things. Like the direction your carbon oxide raise to. Or as your eyes and mind have more time to adapt to the situation you can now sense light between informing you of which way to the surface and how far away it is. You might come to know that if you hurry now you probably be fine. But this is not something I need to know right now. The point of this richural is to test you, the reward you based on how well you do. But that too is not why I have come.

I run my fingers along my open wounds and release some blood. The blood seems to glow as it drifts further from my body until it vanishes. Then before me an eye opens. Its larger than I expected. It probably has a diameter of 30 meters. it shakes. As we make eyes contact. The eye lid bends and turns as if confused. Then that confusion break and a see inside it a thousand different emotions all calling out to me. Some are hate others love but the majority are a simple joy.

Yes that good i’m glad. A voice ancient and powerful yet old and frail calls out to me. It shock me to my core. I can tell im crying and it's not for some stupid fucking arrow.

“ You have finally returned to me. After so long. I had given up hope.”

I’m sorry it took so long. I’m sorry.

“ You told me you have developed a method of recantation. I had started to doubt. It has been so long. Come save me my love. Come to me gray!”

Ahh to think. Even after all this time. Even after all my failures. She still remembers that of all things. My fucking nickname. She too good for me. I will answer her.

“ I’m back”

The eye paused no Red paused. Even I paused shit my voice sounds weak. I’m supposed to be big and strong here. To show her it would be ok. But I need not worry. Because. It was a frail voice. A weak voice but I could feel it. Just like in me. The desperation to have me back. Just like how I want her. And she said

“ Welcome back. You fuck you ‘sniff’ took to fucking long. I was so scared. So fucking scared that I never see you again. I've counted the fucking seconds you fuck. Its been 610915392000 seconds since I last fucking saw you and not once did I stop fucking thinking of you. You fuck if only you were more of an ass hole so I could get over you but you had to just go and be the love of my fucking life and and, and it’s been hard. So fucking hard to keep going just on the fucking hope you would return one fucking day return to me but no matter how much I tried to fucking hate you I couldn’t forget you. And I couldn’t forget my love for you. As the years tick past it only got harder. Then you fuck you just show up out of FUCKING NOWHERE and think i’m going to forgive you with a simply i’m back and fuck your goddamn right. GET THE FUCK OVER HERE AND LET ME PUNCH YOU.”

She said all that in a single breath. And not long after the waters swelled and turn like I was stuck in a tornado. I was pull towards the eye. But the eye itself was gone and in its place was the peak of beauty. A elf with bright red hair. She was completely naked. I was able to see all her glory in full. Before I knew it the water was gone and I could breathe again. It was impossible for us to hide our tears now. She was biting her lower lip. I seem to fly closer until she drew her hand back and I was shown the proper form of a haymaker punch. I wasn’t knock out. I stare up at her. Ok im not into violence but I’ll accept that one. She was holding a list that seem to stretch off into the distance.

“Ok the number one on the list of things I wanted to do to him has been completed. It time for number too”

“ It's not kick me is it”

I was shown the proper form of a roundhouse kick.

“ Ok it's time for number three”

“ What number three”

“ Number 3 to number 582 is. Hmmm let me see.”

She held the list very close to her face. Her red eyes burned with extreme intensity.

Shit what could it be. If her eyes show that much intensity then it must be some horrible torture but it's ok. If it means we can be like how we used to be i'm ok with it. Hmmm she’s blushing. Ohhh is it that.

“Number 3 to Number 582 are all different sex positions”

Its ok if that's what it will take to fix this relationship then trust me. I will do it. Ha ha ha life is truly beautiful.

******

Three mouths past and my love for her has returned in full. Fuck I love her. And you know it like the non object love. Ahh fuck that sounds off. I love the person more than the body. It's not just the sex. Although sex is great. Arrr I mean its was a great and holy battle Red. Truly there is no purer form of combat. I have gained many insights into your form yes Red. Holy war. Great.

Well in truth it was more like two months of sex than a month of talking and playing around. Well I made it to the 96 position on the list. Even if we are in a hurry we still want to saver the good moments. But all good things must come to an end.

“ So we are to part again.” Reds voice was sad. There was a longing in. I know red well. She does not like this. But is ok im here now.

“ I will return” what else can I say. I’m sorry i’m not good enough with words to simply remove the pain she feels. “ Only with my actions can I be worthy of you”

“Ha hahahahaha you're gonna need to do great to make up for how long it took you to get back” Her words despite their playful nature we’re empty. “ you know that the hole sacrifice thing only works once yeah. I can only give one blessings per person.”

“ Yes I know” I started the truth.

“ Then how can you say you'll be back” her words were sharp. I would have probably broken if I have not know an answer at this time. In the novel im described as being far more syncytial. I now know why. But see I also now other things. I don’t know what this strange realm called earth is. Or how they record the future in strange books called phones honestly my memory’s of that plane of existence are getting worse as time goes on. But see my knowledge of the events written inside the book seem to only grow sharper. Which is way I know. “ I know that you cage has been split in two and where one key is and how to make the other” her eyes lighted up. Shock.

In the novel its states two things that destroyed me. See in my personal opinion I was dead long before I confronted the hero. The first was the extent of the damage she is repairing herself from. The second that my return was most likely god's doing. That slut called god worship as the true goddess holes part of her soul that's been brainwashed to believe itself an angle. Second there's a part that's sealed away and third there's a part that trap inside the holy sword. The part i’m talking to is the part that's sealed away.

I also know of the price that god paid to do this. Gods sitting at death's door where its at the point extreme measures must be taken. And thus this hole story has been thrown in motion. And thus god made a plan.

She would have Red kill herself. The part of her thats in the sword and the archangel are in truth one and the same. Red was split into two pieces. One contains her strength that is the one that was sealed away. It's why she counted the seconds. That's all she could do. In truth her original is the one sealed away and it’s currently sleeping or it was but i’m sure reds awake now.

Trying to heal itself. And yet

“ Is that why I haven’t made any progress on fixing myself back together. I’m trying to make four things with the materials to make three.”

Of course Red is a genius so even without me. She probably figure this out at some point but she wouldn’t be able to do so if she was asleep. The main reason I fail in the novel. She stays asleep because I have no way to contact her until I use the soul key. But in the novel some cult will use this shine and one will receive her blessings.

It isn't the overpowered hero who kills her despite her being at full strength no. Its god’s scam that does it. But there's a problem with this. It honestly was a very risky move. See if Red tried to wake up at the same time she returned to the world she would be unable to stabilize herself and in her weaken state god would have a easier time to kill her. But this also means if she finds out about this a cuts off these two parts Red will be weak sure but right now so is god it becomes a 50% chance of victory on god's part. However if I get my hands on the holy sword and get the soul part inside it I can improve her odd up to 90% .But see even if Red discoveries this on her own the Red will attempt to take the angle. But the angle is its own entry meaning Red will mostly die during the process of putting herself back together. So i’m sure your wonder what this means. Let me dun it down for you. If I kill the hero after he obtains the holy sword it's my win. And if the hero or anything else kills me than its gods win. But the after he obtains the holy sword is important.

“ I only need to acquire two soul keys. I can make one and I know where the other is. It’s inside something called a holy sword.”

“ Holy sword? That thing. A hero is needed to get that.” red seem to know of it. Then this is great. But it looked like she wasn’t convinced. “ you realise that to get the holy sword you need a hero. To get a hero the world must be threatened. You would need strength to do that and right now as you are. I’m not sure.”

Well ok even in the novel the hero kills me. And right now i'm just a normal human. But after step 2 i’ll be able at the sword king level than its only a matter of time before I get my old strength back. No until I surpass myself. Who knows I might even be able to kill god myself.

“Remember that I once said If I knew all that I new now then even you couldn’t best me”

Reds still disapproving but at the same time. I can see it in the back of her eyes. Honestly I don’t get why she can’t show it.

I can see hope in her eyes. I’m glad. So long as she hopes. As for how i’m supposed to kill the hero after ait for him to become strong enough to get the holy sword.In truth I don’t have a fucking clue. But that's not what i’m supposed to say right now. It might be a long time before I can say this to her again.

“ I love you Red”

Tears spilled from my eyes again. Shit it was supposed to be epic departure. Fuck I look lame.

“Me too. I love you. Ha I always wanted to brand you as mine now I can do that with my blessings.” Was her reply but it told me two things. She going to wait just a little longer. And most importantly Red is still Red.

And like that I woke up.