《Addiction》Day 1: Harder than it looks
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-=-----------------------7:12 AM-----------------------=-
I am currently eating breakfast, I was just writing this down on notepad so I don't forget.
Then again, there was not much to forget. I was legit just eating breakfast.
Oh, and about my addiction-
I'm kind of a weeb you see, so there's this gacha game called Genshin Impact and I'm not addicted due to the tiddies and waifu material, but rather the lore and overall story. The design is amazing and although the execution wasn't the best. It was still a pretty great game to keep me into. I always spend my time just walking around, discovering easter eggs and having fun talking to people about it.
KInd of went to the point where I just ditched my previous work, AI Dungeon.
It wasn't much since it only had two bad chapters and a very vague prologue but I still regret stopping that as I want to at least do something and not just play video games and read manga all day, so there. That's my story, there's not much to it really.
-=-----------------------9:38 AM-----------------------=-
So I tried doing pixel art. I'm not planning to be an artist or game developer or something but I'm looking for a new hobby so, why not?
Well, I did not know where to start on making pixel arts so I just drew a slime from terraria and called it a day.
Afterwards, I started talking to my friends, they're also in the Genshin Impact phase, and are showing trinkets of visions* online.
*Note: Visions are the tools used to harness the power of elements in Genshin Impact
Dang, that's pretty cheap
That's what was in my head. So I made a half-hearted joke saying I could buy all of them the trinket since I had saved up a bit of money.
Something like, "Wow, that's pretty cheap, I can actually buy all of us a trinket, My wallet has money itching to be burnt"
Then one of them became all, "Holy shit CaJo*! You're an archon :000 giving away visions and stuff"
*Note: They don't actually call me CaJo but for privacy purposes, this is close enough
Then they all started agreeing.
I was feeling rather uncomfortable since I'm technically trying to avoid the game and here I am being persuaded to buy them those trinkets as a Christmas Gift.
Don't get me wrong. I actually don't mind buying them that as a Christmas gift but I am contemplating if I should since, like previously stated. The game itself is one of the main addictions I'm trying to delete from my memory.
That's my debate right now, and so in my imaginations, I imagined seven different CaJos and we started debating whether we should buy them that or not.
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On one side, it was pro for gifting. It will boost bond and give some sort of satisfaction when you're giving it to them and they enjoyed it.
On the other end, it is a con as it is a waste of money and it could give me an insight to play the game again which I'm forcing myself not to.
After back and forth arguments with my selves. I decided to not buy them gifts because it is a hassle to go to their place during pandemic.
They all understand, I mean. Not really that big of a deal but yeah.
-=-----------------------10:19 AM-----------------------=-
Alright, took a bath and talked to my friends and two of them who don't have a PC is finally getting a PC. Granted my PC is abysmally garbage. We can finally hang out together without the limitations of four of us. Granted there's only five of us and since I'm stopping Genshin Impact mostly, that issue is technically solved but hey, we can play together now.
So we were looking for a game all of us could have fun in and then I convinced them to play a game called- Minecraft.
Alright, I'm technically already over Minecraft, played that game for seven or eight years and I stopped mostly because I've experienced most of it's vanilla powers. Same goes with my friends, but I convinced them to play RLCraft.
I'm sure you've heard of Minecraft, surely if you're reading this, you must have.
Anyways, if you haven't already. It's a block game, you mine and craft, kill stuff, build stuff and yeah.
RLCraft is basically that but ten times worse. We talked about how funny it would be to just make a bucket list and see who could get killed differently the most. It was a fun conversation.
After that, I went to the internet and typed Tecto*
Note: I was trying to search Tectone in YouTube, Tectone is a gacha YouTuber and is currently showcasing mostly Genshin Impact content.
AND I IMMEDIATELY STOPPED
Alright, this might a bit more difficult to get rid off than I thought.
-=-----------------------12:34 AM-----------------------=-
So I finished lunch and don't know what to do.
Normally, I would be talking to my friends, doing some banter- but it might incite me to play Genshin again, so I guess I'll do that later.
Actually, I haven't even fully abandoned that account, I asked my friends to do the daily routine for me as I'll be temporarily away until I am sure I lost the thrill in the game. So until then, I'll just do random things.
Anyways, I was just practicing pixel art. No harm in that, right? You know OCs right? Original Characters. Well, we all have at least one at some point and CaJo is obviously one of those.
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The name came from, if you checked my profile picture, "Ca" from "Ca"ctus and Jo from a part of my real name. My story for him is that he's from a planet called Cactacea-
Well, if you guys are interested about it, let me know.
So I decided to draw CaJo. Due to screw science and physics. He has adapted on Earth and took on the most humane form he could which gave him green hair with a pink strand on the front, and light red eyes with his pupil glistening pink from time to time. He also digs a tuxedo suit and tie although he wears them rather losely.
Drawing him in pixel art was indeed a challenge, I'm trying to limit myself to only 64x64 and oh God, this is going to take a while.
Which is a good thing because I need something better to do for a while.
-=-----------------------2:34 PM-----------------------=-
Alright, I finished, not really that good, kinda gives that retro-aesthetic feel.
I am mostlikely going to practice it later again in the day but for now, I want to do something else, got a bit bored not gonna lie. I should say I want to read manga, but at the same time, it's either too deep or too stupid, can't find any new ones really and I don't plan to.
Should I watch a movie? I don't know what's good to watch though.
Even tried finding a work at home job that shouldn't interfere too much with my online classes.
Found a few except there's one issue, I need to be a highschool graduate-
ughhhhhhh
Well, that plan backfired quickly.
Yeah, I shouldn't give up just yet. I'll keep looking for part time jobs for now.
-=-----------------------2:34 PM-----------------------=-
Well, not much was done during the past hour, I ate more food. Thought to myself what to do and I still got no clue what to do. I started chatting to my friends again, talking about random stuff.
They want to start their vtuber channel and stream and stuff. I like watching vtubers because they are actually funny but I don't want to be a vtuber myself. Plus I'm a guy, so less popularity points there.
They're pretty convinced they would get off with that, I mean, I support them, you have to do what you have to do. But don't drag me into it. I don't even know what I'll stream if I try being a vtuber.
Well for now, it's not my taste, maybe in summer, I'll consider it.
As for the job hunt, I could write in the newspaper.
I think I'll do more thinking about it. I don't see myself enjoy writing an article. Not on the newspaper at least.
Shame most of the jobs I can see myself enjoying are either full-time or requires highschool degree minimum. I also want to choose a job where I can work at home. The newspaper job might actually be nice but still slightly skeptical about it. Don't know why.
I think I'll just sleep for now.
I'll be right back at night.
-=-----------------------7:15 PM-----------------------=-
That was a great sleep, and I did NOTHING productive today!
Hmmm, maybe I should try write the new story I had lying aroound, it's not AI Dungeon, which I have tried previously writing. If I have come to that point in time, I'll rewrite AI Dungeon. I still feel like I need to share that story of mine to the public.
So the story I feel like doing alongside with this diary of mine is not really that creative plotwise. The world enters it's apocalyptic period via some sort of virus. Civilization around the world fled to avoid the virus, through planes, boats and BIGGER BOATS-
In the end, there were seven islands that were found to be free from the infected and only 12000 people were distributed to that island. Sadly, our protagonist isn't one of those and has to survive in the godforsaken world.
You know, typical apocalypse shit :0
Anyways, been rambling on and on the whole day. Did nothing productive really. I thought I could actually do something but-
Sighhhh
Now that I think about it, ridding of an addiction really isn't the easiest thing to do.
-=-----------------------9:46 PM-----------------------=-
Well, there's not much to say around this time aside from going to sleep.
Then suddenly- an old underclassmen I used to ride the same bus with asked me to join the school e-sports event for CoD: Mobile*. Let's be frank here, we never really talked after the normal school life ended and we all became stuck in online classes but judging by the fact their last contact with me is February 6. Pretty sure they're just desperate at that point.
Note: Call of Duty is a popular and CoD: Mobile is the mobile port of it.
Well, granted I also don't talk to them for convenience sake, quite anti-social myself as well. To be honest, that's not the point. I just don't want to play in the e-sports my school is hosting. Wasn't trying to be petty or a jerk or anything, I don't even play CoD: Mobile-
I DON'T EVEN HAVE A PHONE- it broke
Well, that ends this day.
-=-----------------------10:04 PM-----------------------=-
End
Results
Independency on Addiction(DOA): 3/10
Productivity Results(PR): 1/10
Enjoyment Rate(ER): 4/10
Side Note: Look for a new hobby dumbass-
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