xx48.11.14 / 06:43 / Monday

Just woke up, I pretty much slept through Saturday. I think running after C2 was a mistake because I have been WIPED all weekend. I'm not unfit, am I? I'm SURE I'm not. But actually I was thinking, where does super-strength come from? All powers are a kind of 'aura', that's a basic fact, but when I lost my powers I lost my strength with it—and even before that I could turn it on and off, I wasn't super-strong all the time. I never really questioned it, but now I really wonder, shouldn't my muscles and bones still be just as strong as before? But they're not, they're CLEARLY not. Probably Daniel could explain it, or Mum, or even Dad. Maybe it's a kind of energy—related to the whole aura business—that surrounds your body and gives you a boost when you hit something or lift something. Like an invisible, skin-tight power-armour suit that augments your natural ability. I mean, Dad isn't some huge hulking bodybuilder type, he's just a normal-looking guy, kind of maybe a bit taller than average and it's obvious he works out, but you'd never expect him to be able to lift a couch with one hand.

All these questions I should've asked when I had the chance. Although, actually, I shouldn't beat myself up about it TOO much. It's not like I DIDN'T ask questions, when I was little Mum and Dad actually tried to hide from me and my questions. Probably even Daniel isn't as well-versed in superhero mythology and culture as me, and if you want someone to name every superhero OR supervillain who was even SLIGHTLY famous, right down to the Z-tiers, well, I'm your girl.

Still, why did I never ask where super-strength COMES from? Or super-agility for that matter, although now that I think about it a kind of hazy memory about unconscious manipulation of airflow and friction comes to me. Is it an alteration, at a basic level, of physics itself? Breaking the rules of nature in order to accomplish these superhuman feats? Is it not the punch that is harder and faster and stronger, but simply the effect of the punch?

Ugh. I just read back this entry, it doesn't even SOUND like me, where did all this come from? My headache's coming back too, I'm going back to bed. Come get me when I've woken up from this nightmare.