Chapter 32

Mush .

The god of suffering and penance .

He had never actually met Mush before . But he had felt his existence . When he first came into the mountain and cursed Mush, Mush muttered in his mind a few times .

Eria . There are Gods in this area . There are places where the Gods are honored . A place exists for every god . A priest uses the power of the God . The penalties that he had right now were from Mush’s power .

A haze that appeared in front of him was combining . It turned into a small girl’s figure . A girl . Yes, Mush turned into a small girl . Her black hair was long enough that it could touch the floor . Rags were worn as a robe, and there were bandages all over her body . Her two eyes were silver .

“Human .

Mush called . Her face was calm for a god of suffering . She came towards Sungmin and asked .

“Why are you crying . Do you want to give up this suffering from this mountain . ”

That wasn’t it . Sungmin chewed on his lower lip . Blood flowed from it . He didn’t want to give up .

Just that his end would be useless . That made him fearful . Plam made Sungmin fall in despair . He felt inferior .

Why couldn’t I be a genius .

“Human . ”

Mush called Sungmin . Sungmin lifted his hand and rubbed his eyes . He couldn’t cry forever . Crying . . . didn’t change anything .

Inferiority . He ignored it . He lived and went like that in his past life . Even if he was reborn again, his 13 years of experience was actually a bad thing for him . If he did not meet WIjihoyun, Sungmin

Wouldn’t have changed at all .

“ . . . I want to add a penalty . ”

Sungmin lifted himself up .

His body was heavy .

“Ohhh . ”

Mush’s eyes brightened . Her face had emotion in it . Mush was looking at Sungmin with curious eyes .

“You want to add a penalty?”

“Yes . ”

He thought that maybe it was impolite to be like this to a God, but Mush didn’t seem to care . Instead, Mush seemed to like Sungmin's attitude and answer . She laughed .

“You want to add the suffering . There is no way that I wouldn’t let you do that . ”

Mush added, however . Her eyes narrowed .

“But could you withstand it?”

Mush asked . She came closer . His body was a 15 year old, and was just over 160 cm . Mush was a head shorter than that Sungmin .

“You can’t even hold the 2 penalties that you have right now . But, you want to do more . You are very foolish . ”

Mush laughed . Sungmin made a fist . She was right . Taste and Weight . Sungmin wasn’t even used to those two yet . The weight felt worse every time he thought about it, and it was the same for the water and food as well .

“ . . . I can do it . ”

No, I had to . Sungmin looked Mush and answered . Mush laughed .

“Is it because you came back from the dead?”

Sungmin’s face froze .

“ . . . How…?”

“I can see it . ”

Mush answered .

“Everything lives and dies . That is the law . Yes, Existence has living and dying . That is the principle of cause and effect .

Mush pointed at Sungmin .

“But not all existence follows the law . Overloading the law exists . If you overload the law of existence, you become immortal . But you’re different . ”

Sungmin couldn’t understand . Laws and overloading and immortality was all strange things to Sungmin .

“You aren’t an immortal or an overloader, but the principle has been broken . Not everyone can see that, but as a God, I can see it . ”

“ . . . The principle was broken… so is that a bad thing for me?”

“All existence has stacks . ”

Mush answered .

“But you died and somehow defied death . That’s very strange . Your soul stacked hugely while defying the principle . It wouldn’t do anything to you when you’re living, but when you die… . Haha! You’re going to suffer for ages . ”

Even if he lived 13 years of life, it didn’t mean that he had 13 years of stacks . Because he had defied death, Sungmin’s stacks were incomparable to a regular humans . It didn’t mean that he had surpassed the principle, but only went against . That was a crime to existence .

“ . . . If it’s after my death, it doesn’t matter . ”

He answered . His mind wasn’t fine . After death… he would suffer for ages .

It was after death .

“My death doesn’t matter… . I want another penalty . ”

“I said that you can’t do it, you arrogant human . ”

Mush shook her head .

“You overrate yourself . No, you’re limit isn’t that big . ”

“Aren’t you the god of suffering?”

Sungmin spit out . He put his hands and tapped his chest .

“I want suffering . Why are you trying to stop me . ”

“You aren’t listening . ”

Mush shook her head again .

“What do you want?”

“ . . . I want to ask you first . ”

“You want to question a god without any compensation . ”

“ . . . There’s nothing I can give you…”

“You’re lying . ”

Mush laughed .

“How about your soul . ”

“ . . . What?”

“Your soul . The soul that defied the principle… it seems useful . ”

“You want me to die?”

Sungmin dumbfoundedly asked . Mush laughed at that .

“No, that’s not it . Your soul isn’t mature yet . Yes . . . if you die . Then you can give up your soul to me . ”

“ . . . I’ll reject that . ”

Sungmin swallowed and answered . To give away the soul . Mush seemed like the devil instead of a god .

“Well, you don’t have to say it now . Just think about it . I’ll answer you . What do you want to know?”

“ . . . The reward grows every time a penalty is added . I want to know about the reward . ”

“The suffering in this mountain is a reward . ”

Mush answered .

“You should have felt it . Or did you not?”

He knew . From the 3 months here, Sungmin’s technique grew quickly . His ‘skill’ went up . Like Mush said, the mountain was a reward .

“Penalties increase the reward . Your growth had gone up a lot because of your penalties . If you get more, you will grow quicker . A more painful penalty has more rewards than a smaller one . ”

“ . . . I see . ”

Sungmin nodded his head . Mush knew what he was thinking . She added .

“Yu want to cover your lack of talent with penalties . Why do you want to do such a thing? What do you want . ”

“ . . . I made a promise . ”

With WIjihoyun . 10 years, no 9 now . 9 years later .

“Voice . ”

Sungmin pointed to his neck .

“Dreams . ”

He wanted to get the penalty that Scarlet had . But listening to Mush, it didn’t feel like there would be much a difference if he added those skills . And Scarlet and Sungmin were in different situations . If Sungmin who had to move around a lot couldn’t wash or change clothes, there would be solution if he got a disease or something .

“4 . ”

Mush smiled .

“I’ll say this first . Penalties get harsher as they are added . You’re the first human that said they would get 4 penalties… how long will you survive?”

Mush muttered and pointed to Sungmin .

His voice disappeared first . Sungmin tried to say something . But his voice didn’t come out . The other one was a dream . It was an awkward penalty, but Sungmin knew how awkward penalties worked very harshly .

“You will fear falling asleep every day . ”

Mush whispered

Sungmin thought that too .

Mush disappeared after saying that . It felt very awkward that his voice didn’t come out . He tried to say something, but nothing came out . He sighed and then took a branch near him .

He was going to have to write like Sogo tomorrow . Sungmin went towards the corpse of the deer that Sogo gave him . Eating was terrifying, but he couldn’t not eat .

He had to eat to live .

Sungmin silently tried to knife the corpse . Dismantling the deer wasn’t hard . The hard part was the eating . But he knew how hard the eating would be, so Sungmin’s hands couldn’t help but shiver .

The blood smelled terrible .

But he didn’t stop . Sungmin dismantled the corpse and put up a fire . It was almost night . He would have to eat… and then when the night came, he would have to sleep .

‘What would I dream about . ’

Sungmin held in his fear .