At the beginning of July, the pianist cultivation course that Yu had agreed with Chen Tianyun finally officially started. The latest one is scheduled for August 7th, but since Chen Tianyun is currently sixth and a half months pregnant, she can no longer focus on this after November, that is to say, after 4 months, if Yu Ruoling still wants to improve her piano, then she is afraid that Yu have to learn and improve by herself.

It's just that she wasn't too worried about this point. If Father God meant to put Yu in the position of pianist, then He would definitely help her open the way in the future.

The weather today is fine, with a few white clouds against the blue sky, and the subtropical high pressure is pressing heavily in the northern hemisphere north of latitude 23.5 degrees. Although there are occasional summer southwest monsoons, it is not strong.

Yu was standing on the periphery of the lawn outside the youth education activity hall in the community, just at the wind cut. A wall behind the activity hall blocked the steel foundry in another block, and the huge chimney with five adults holding each other's arms spit out white smoke one by one.

She turned her head to look at those gases, and understood that they were all the biggest culprits of the increasingly purple air index and lung cancer.

How tragic, she thought, the vacuum cleaners of the residents of this community are not vacuum cleaners but lungs, and she wishes the dioxins in those things were cleaned up.

Yu Ruoling had been waiting for Shao Xu'an for nearly 10 minutes. When he asked her out, said it well, he wanted to chat and get to know her personality, but said it badly, he just wanted to find out a bunch of her secrets.

Shao has always felt that the both of them are very similar, no matter in terms of encounters, personalities, attitudes, or whatever, but she herself doesn't think so.

Maybe it was because he really wanted to dig out her secrets so said that.

Yu Ruoling felt that her mood today was very strange, and she always felt weak. Uncontrollably wanting to be in a daze, and suddenly seeming not to value life so much...generally speaking, it is "nothing".

There is no emotion, a state of complete emptiness, oh yes, it is "empty", everything is empty.

"My deputy, dear Fong Xuan, you who claim to be the bodyguard is actually a second, is there any reason to explain the current situation of me？"

Seeing no one around - and there should be no one around when the high temperature is 32 degrees Celsius - she simply spoke out.

'Please change the name, my ears are getting calluses.'

"Okok, good friend, can you answer my doubts, good friend？"

'..., 'Fong Xuan choked speechlessly, before reacting immediately, 'remember those white mist in shar...mind world？'

Yu nodded her head, even though she knew Fong couldn't see it at all, "I remember, does it matter？"

'Something, my chains are broken.'

Fong Xuan said lightly, as if the link had been broken hundreds or thousands of times. Just listen carefully, there is actually a touch of anger hidden between the words, "she" is rarely - basically not - angry, but what did "her" prime-p do, the second chain, which even perfectly copying the strength and toughness of first chain, was also destroyed by a seemingly weak but extremely domineering force.

What's worse, Fong Xuan still can't find out what that lump is, where it came from, and where it was born.

"Then it's troublesome."Yu also said lightly.

Forget it, it doesn’t matter, in short, whether the chain should be broken or not, God the Father has His own will.

She doesn't believe that God doesn't know Fong Xuan's existence. Who in this world can escape to avoid God's eyes？

God is everywhere.

Just let it develop like this, she has nothing to intervene other than praying, repenting and co-working with Father God. That being the case, there is no need to investigate the sources of those things in detail.

'Have you really thought about it？'“She” asked.

"I've thought about it."

"Who are you talking to？"

Shao Xu'an had been standing behind her for a long time, and Yu Ruoling was always vigilant and defensive, but for nearly six minutes...he even deliberately amplified the sound of his footsteps.

But the person in front kept talking to herself as if he was cut off from reality, what if it wasn't him who walked over today？It's so hot in here that one can't even see a bird, some deranged idiot loves this perfect moment. Didn't she realize it？

"Talk to myself."Yu's heart skipped a beat, forcing herself to suppress the fear and embarrassment of being almost exposed.

Lying, Shao immediately judged, and approached without changing his face, successfully and clearly saw her dark pupils contract violently in an instant.

Although one may not feel guilty when tell a lie, the reflex of the brainstem controlling the dilation of the pupils is not up to her.

Yu Ruoling knew something was wrong when he suddenly approached. Mr. Shao in front of her was very scheming, so don't try to deceive her that he was not a lie detector. ...Oh look at it, sure enough, Shao Xu'an, your triumphant smile is an eyesore, she thought blankly, it really is an eyesore.

"Who is Fong Xuan？"

"..."

"Huh？"

"How long have you been here？"

"Six minutes."

She silently resisted the urge to kick Shao Xu'an to death, and said helplessly, "Did you hear that all？"

"What do you think？"

For some reason, Shao Xu'an suddenly felt that sometimes, Yu, this ice cube is quite... well, cute...ah, no, it should be described as a loli, and a little weapon in the palm of hand, or the kind that unilaterally killed him.

Oh boy... Yu Ruoling stopped talking. To explain, and to explain, is it to explain who Fong Xuan is, or to explain why there is Fong Xuan？Motherfucker, this is simply a waste of words, not only hard cutting and unreasoning.

"Come on, seriously."Shao said.

She looked at Shao with a wooden face, and finally broke the jar, "That's my..."

"Girlfriend？！"Shao Xu'an was shocked.

"No！"Yu Ruoling's cold face quickly darkened, "I am not gay and Fong Xuan nor my girlfriend, she is my guar...second me."

It is much more difficult than telling it to a real person in imaginary.

She can finally understand why there is such a group of people who would rather suffocate than go to the doctor, even she this dual personality thinks she is not sick, let alone.

Sick people never want to admit that they are sick. But whom are called monsters or aliens by human beings, it is very convenient for them to admit "yes, I am the big devil who kills without batting an eye as you said”.

Strange, she thought, perhaps because there was still a subtle behavioral and psychological difference between the two. This generation is still somewhat reserved, who wants to be what the world calls a psychopath？Or something wrong with their brain？

Let’s just say goodbye, she is not comfortable hearing it as a bystander.

Shao Xu'an was taken aback for a moment, as if he didn't expect to get such an answer.

Although it wasn't very unexpected - after all, he had seen Yu Ruoling go crazy - but the impact of Yu that admitting it herself was far heavier than he thought.

"...Why did you tell me？"He asked dryly.

"You've heard it all, is there any point in lying？"Yu Liang gave him a cool look.

...That's right. He choked for a moment, feeling a little...helpless towards the girl in front of him who seemed to care nothing and didn't care about anything.

He couldn't do anything to her. Nor did he force her to see a psychologist. Forget it, he even doesn't have that qualification.

"Ruoling, "Shao Xu'an called her by her name for the first time, "hey, are we friends？"

She looked up at his face, and wondered in her heart, what does that "I'll beat you if you dare say it's not" mean on your face？

"Maybe？"

"…Maybe？Maybe？！How dare you say 'maybe'？！！"

"Uh, my bad？"

Shao Xu'an："...(ノ｀⊿´)ノ（Why is her thinking logic so weird！）"

Yu looked at the man who was two heads taller than her in extreme confusion, and Shao's expression looked strange. But how could she dare not say "maybe"？He never admitted that "he is her friend", who knows if this question today has any other meaning of temptation？

Or did he run back to church one day yelling "Look！She says I'm her friend！", and wait for the sarcasm to make her take it all？

Don't be silly, brother, those faces gradually appeared in her mind, Yu's thinking, those people don't take her as a part of them at all. She knows how fragile the trust between people is. It is so fragile that even if it is a very close family member, once an irrelevant person or thing gets in the middle of it and touches it lightly, she will know with her knees that it will fall down all over the floor.

Like blood and stench.

In this case, unless he or she promises first, or don't even think about that Yu would take the initiative to make a promise.

Don't even think about it.

"Maybe you can try to trust me, "Perhaps seeing the sarcasm in her dark eyes, Shao couldn't help but say such a sentence, "even if it's the first person you trust."

"No."But when he heard her say that, the wayward girl turned her head paranoidly.

For a split second, Shao Xu'an almost thought that his heart had been forcibly cut open and buried in the cold and dark deep sea, with countless chills suddenly rising from his neck and back.

"I've been killed a long, long ago."She said calmly.