Listen to "Willow" by Taylor swift.

I've come to discover new things about James that I'd never really seen in him before. A more consistent side of him, a more passionate, more patient version of him.

Sometimes I feel like I'm falling in love with him all over again.

We have come so far from those broken scared little kids with dark pasts. I never thought a day would come where I could finally say that I'm content, healed and at peace. It's been a year now since we moved to England. Life here is treating us kindly.

I have my peace, my lover and my son.

And I have me.

In the course of time, I opened up to James about alot of my fears and doubts. My insecurities and my life before I met him.

I remember him holding me tightly as I revealed to him the most heartbreaking truths about me and my life. He already new about my family history in crime. But he hadn't known about how I was mistreated by people around me. How I was assaulted nor how I couldn't fight the trauma until it came hunting me in my dreams and into my imagination. I spoke about what happened in prison. It was hard for me but he never let me go. James cried with me. He mourned and grieved with me. And James loved me the same despite everything. Despite my humiliation and my weaknesses and my misfortunes.

There's only one thing I didn't tell James. And I'll probably take that secret to the grave with me. It wasn't something James could possibly let slide, knowing James, he'd go to any extreme if he knew. I told Enos I forgave him for it, and that includes nobody ever finding out about what happened in that bathroom. But we are all living with the outcome. The only reason I forgave Enos in the first place is because that day, he gave me my son, and also because Enos regrets it and has been living with that guilt ever since."

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