There are only two days left until the last semester of the first year of junior high school, but all kinds of annoying academic shits seem to be unable to change the more shitty mood at the moment. Maybe it is an illusion caused by hormonal disorders due to too many things recently.

After a four-day English winter camp short-term mission during the winter vacation, she clearly felt that she liked children very much, and even enjoyed the pleasure of being ordered by them like a slave, even though she was tired to death.

...Perhaps she may...maybe she is really a bit of a masochist, always fantasizing about running into some plot for fun, and in the end she was arranged to be very bleak by the director or blabla.

The recently released legendary costume drama seems to be called an "epic-level masterpiece". Although it is indeed very good-looking, the plot is so intertwined that if one is not careful, one has to watch it again from the beginning.

It consumes a lot of energy, but the story is indeed worse than tragic and more painful than sad. It can almost be said that the audience loves the protagonist so much that they dare not watch it a second time.

It's a pity that the combination of the above can't offset the fact that she is in a shit mood now, not to mention that she has been shit since the day she came back from the short mission.

How could a bleak costume drama be able to save her？So she had no choice but to lie on the sofa and pretend to be the dead body in grief and indignation.

...After all, Shao Xu'an's cockroach-like greeting still shook the side of her that had always been indifferent and could almost be ignored. No, not completely, she thought for a while, and felt that she was just being reminded of that kind of knowledge...or concept - anyway - in terms of emotion.

But it's far from the stage of enlightenment. After three days, she still doesn't know - and isn't sure - whether there is... Oh well, she feels ashamed to even say that word. It really is just a psychological error. Amen.

"..."Yu Ruoling unconsciously recalled the happy scene of playing water polo with the children on the last day. However, he reached out and touched her hair in the corridor - it could even be said that he ravaged her hair. This scene was out of control, jumping out of the head frequently.

In an instant, the heartbeat beat rapidly.

For a moment, she was calmed down to a loss of vigilance.

But when she looked at Shao Xu'an, she didn't have such a sense of this horror. Yu Ruoling leaned back against the sofa and slid down like a lump of mud without bones. She still felt that she didn't like him - oh, she said it - didn't like him, yap.

Basically, only the short time of less than 5 seconds could not confirm this matter, everything happened so fast and everything was weird, she thought. Maybe she just not familiar with the time of getting along with the opposite sex, of course it doesn't mean that once she realizes it, she will love to deal with the opposite sex.

She is not that…hentai.

"...It's so fucking shameful..."Yu Ruoling hugged the quilt and buried herself in it, completely unwilling to admit that she actually missed the feeling of Yu Xiaoyang's usual warm palms rubbing the top of her head.

Yu's face was expressionless, and she reiterated that she felt she might really have a masochistic physique. Of course, it doesn't rule out that she just likes to be touched on the head though.

……Damn, Yu sighed, why she's so weirdo.

*

In the children's Sunday small room of Erling Gospel Church, the standing electric fan is swinging slightly, and the wind power adjustment knob stops at the "1" scale.

Even though the weather is still cool, one can feel a little heat in the room without ventilation. At the beginning of September 2016, Yu, who has always been decisive, finally decided to be baptized after much deliberation.

Her parents all agreed, especially Yu Xiaoyang. When he heard that his daughter was about to step into the promise of God, he was very happy, and almost fell off the electric bed from laughing.

...It's really means "laughed" to the point of falling off the bed.

「Why be baptized？」

Sitting in a folding chair, Yu confronted this problem head-on - before being baptized, there are also lessons to prepare the mind - thinking of the last event of last year's Christmas dinner.

Yu Ruoling couldn't remember exactly what the situation was. But at that time, when the host stood on the stage again, picked up the microphone, and asked them if there was anyone who wanted to be baptized, these words were like a blue-purple thunderbolt splitting in the dark night, stirring up in her mind. Loud noise. Also like a tsunami or a flood - big unimaginable sound.

And when the "Consent to Baptism" was handed to her, she obeyed the sound and signed her name. The three characters "Yu Ruoling" were engraved on the paper in a firm and soft way.

Yu knew where the noise came from, so she obeyed without any distractions, not to mention that the three of her family were still at the church of beginning, she already had the idea of ​​being baptized when her parents had had.

She stared at the topic and thought for a while, maybe it was just that her time had come, and God's time had also come.

"I know God enough to acknowledge His place in my life, Jesus is the Christ, and we are all the people of God. He's Supreme."

"Okay~ Then let's look at the last question. "He Wanying turned a beige booklet on the table to a new page, "Do you believe that Jesus is the Christ？...Ah, you answered, haha."

"It's finally over. "Yu leaned back and collapsed into something like a piece of biscuit. These eight classes took a full month and a half, "Cool."

He Wanying laughed again, and said, "It feels like you've accomplished it, right？I helped other people to achieve before, and they probably all reacted like you."

Consultant He's eyes are warm and directly reflected in Yu's eyes, Yu who can usually look directly into people's eyes easily, sometimes can't bear the meaning behind this kind of concern.

Wanying is an adult, there is no doubt about it, she understands that she will not be upset by adults, but she dare not guess, she dare not hope, either. Yu didn't want to test how their - the fellowship - feelings.

She's afraid.

Now that she has received many courses before baptism, she really knows that it is not shameful to admit that people are weak, not to mention that she does not need to hide anything from God.

Her God is absolutely faithful and she is absolutely convinced. Yu Ruoling has long let go of the fact that she still yearns for companions.

After that person gave her a taste of friends and took them away abruptly, only He Xiyun gave her a feeling similar to "community" again. Like the same person in the mirror and outside the mirror, also like a sister who has no blood relationship. It's a pity that Yu didn't realize how close the word "friend" was to her at that time, and she indulged in the "biological classification" and struggled wishfully.

Until the day she graduated from elementary school, she still didn't say "we are friends" to He Xiyun.

Judging from He Xiyun's performance when she met her for the first time, she must have had a disgraceful experience, but she probably didn't completely give up hope like her, Yu thought. Looking back now, she owed He Xiyun a apology after all.

Yu Ruoling said goodbye to He Wanying with a faint smile, carried a girl's ocher red schoolbag on the side, stepped into the elevator and went straight down. She watched the digital floor display go down bit by bit in a daze, and finally figured out where the vague rejection she faced Huang Yinke during the short mission came from.

There is no other reason.

It's just that Huang Yinke's intentional care and greetings sometimes are...too obvious. Like it's purposely that was so wary that it was as if Huang was here to test her. Yu looked up a little melancholy, and the clear sky was covered by the smog in the air following the weakened northeast monsoon in the last wave of winter.

The gloomy color is like the shadow that never dissipates and lingers in her heart.

Huang Yinke was afraid of her, Yu Ruoling thought with a sigh, even though she didn't know what Huang was afraid of.

*

"Yu Ruoling！！！"Not long after the history class ended, Wu Hengmeng yelled in a strange tone while sitting in his seat.

...Jesus took pity on her, and the beautiful mist sprayed out of her mouth like this, and every drop died on the floor. Yu coughed hard.

"Do you want me to die, didn't you？"

"I'm going to compete with you for the first exam, "Wu tapped the pen in his hand, "Daddy I'm going to drag you down from the third place in the class ahahahahhh！！！……"Then he lay down with his head on his seatback, his back and his seat and the back of the chair present a perfect 90, 60, 30 degree right triangle.

Yu Ruoling twitched the corners of her mouth, doubting that this guy on the right rear probably had some kind of madness.

Regardless of the third place or other rankings, the phrase "Daddy I" was enough for her to laugh for seven days, and it didn't have any deterrent effect from his mouth.

Daddy You heck. Yu smile.

If he is "Daddy I", then she is "Mother of Daddy".

"Want to compete with me？"She asked with raised an eyebrow.

"Triangle" Wu nodded.

"Don't wrestle yourself, Mr. Wu Hengmeng."

"Triangle" Wu uttered a strange particle and rolled from the chair to the ground as a dead body.