"i threw my shoes in here and ended up reminiscing." i point to the drawer. she looks then hugs me. "why do you look sad? it's homecoming night! we're supposed to party." i hug her back. "i know i just feel bad. we used to be so close and now everything went to shit." i explain and she frowns.

riley walks me over to her bed and i sit again. "you have nothing to feel bad for... well..." she says making me laugh. "no seriously. this was a wake up call for me. i didn't realize that i started to prioritize boys and a stupid high school reputation. i cared about how i looked and what people thought about me but ended up forgetting about the people that mean the most to me and for that i am a bitch and i'm sorry. yes i am apologizing for the thousandth time."

we actually have apologize a thousand times but i really think she meant it this time. i smile for a quick second before looking at the floor. out of nowhere i get a weird feeling in my stomach. my mouth waters and i know what's coming. "oh my god." i run to riley's bathroom and throw up in her toilet. "ew! that's what happens when you drink on an empty stomach." my head is down in the toilet bowl but i hear riley's voice loud and clear. when i'm done throwing up, i wipe my mouth with tissue and flush the toilet.

i feel hot. super hot. "i need a fan, it's hot in here." i say still recovering from what just happened out of the blue. "here, you still have your blue toothbrush," riley puts my toothbrush and some toothpaste on the bathroom counter. "i'm going to get that juice. want me to bring parker?" she asks.

"if he's dancing and having fun, no." i stand up. i barely drank and i'm already throwing up, never again. "but he's your boyfriend. shouldn't he be up here comforting you?" i shake my head. she shrugs and tells me she's coming back.

i waste no time and brush my teeth. after, i leave the bathroom and i lay in riley's bed not so sure if that was a good idea. she comes back and hands me a glass of apple juice as promised. "he's dancing and having fun. i still think i should call him."

"i'm fine, let him have fun and if he asks, tell him i don't feel good and i want to be alone." i drink the juice and put it on her nightstand. "now go have fun, i'm taking a nap." i order riley and she nods and leaves.

she locks the door in case anyone tries to come in. i lied, i wasn't taking a nap. i watched a movie instead.

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parker tried to come in a few times but i told him to go away. i wondered what time it was but my phone was on the nightstand and i didn't feel like moving. i ended up actually falling asleep.

when i woke up i really wondered what time it was. i felt better in a way, except for the fact that i was cramping. i grabbed my phone, got up, and unlocked the door. parker was sleep on the floor by the door which scared the hell out of me. i felt bad, i should've let him in.

i struggle to carry him to the bed. he mumbles in his sleep and it's so adorable. parker helps by getting into bed. he pats next to him but i shake my head. "i have to go home. you sleep though." i kiss his cheek and tuck him in. he falls back asleep and i watch him. as i look at him i realize how much i love him.

"i love you parker." i move his hair out of his face then i get up and leave.

i laugh as i see my friends sleep on the couch. i decide not to bother them. wow this place was a mess that i definitely am not helping clean. i sneak out of riley's house and i call my mom to come and pick me up.

damn these cramps are brutal.

it takes her no longer than ten minutes to pull up. i rush to get in the car. "how was homecoming?" my mom asks as i put my seatbelt on. i turn the other way and pull my seat all the way back. "fun." i hold my stomach as if it would take the cramps away. "you don't look like you had fun." she says. i feel like crying. i want to lay in my bed all day. "i think my period is going to start again." i ignore her.

"didn't you just get off of it?" she asks making me think. "yeah like three weeks ago or something." i start to wonder. i pull out my phone and open my period app. "it says i have twenty-two days left." i tell my mom. she tells me that sometimes she gets two periods a month. my period is regular, maybe natalie threw me off. she just started hers.

"a lot of things can give you cramps, maybe watch what you're eating." i just nod.

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