"which one?" riley poses. "riley they're the same style dress. just a different color." i hold up the olive colored one. "yeah but i want to pop out. i want to look good." she blows herself a kiss in the mirror. oh lord. "you literally look good in anything and you know it. just pick a color!" i hold up the baby pink dress.

"natalie what do you think?" i ask her. nat takes the two dresses out of my hands and holds it up to herself. "i want the baby pink one." she hands me the olive colored dress. "oh my goodness. fine. problem solved, riley wears the white one, i wear the olive one and nat wears the baby pink one." i start to grab my things.

"someone's cranky." riley goes back into the dressing room. "sorry. i'm on my period, i just want to go home, put on sweats and make parker play with my hair."

natalie hands me a pretzel. i'm not even going to ask how she got that. "got any dip?" i frown ripping a piece off. "yeah here." she holds out cheese dip and i dunk my pretzel in it. "plug it up, pop a pill, and let's go. we still have to find heels and accessories." riley comes back and we all get our stuff and go.

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"so what are we watching today?" parker asks as i lay on him. "i'm feeling disney. what about you?" i hold his hand. "disney's cool." he says. i laugh as he puts on lilo and stitch.

"wait. i wanted to talk about something." i move my head onto his lap so i can see his face when i look up. "what's up?" he pauses the movie and looks down at me.

"parker why were you happy and not scared when i told you i had a pregnancy scare?" i ask. i feel him take a deep breath. "happy wouldn't be the right word. i didn't want to freak you out even more. even though i was freaking out." he starts to play with my hair. "would you stay with me, seriously."

there's a moment of silence. "of course i would stay. i would never leave you to deal with a whole baby by yourself." i nod although not believing him fully. "why are you asking me this?" he traces my lips with his finger. "just thinking." i grab the remote from him and press play.

i fall asleep not even twenty minutes into the movie. i blame it on him playing with my hair.

when i wake up he's still here. sleeping upright, and looks totally uncomfortable. i move him to where he's laying down normally and pull the covers over him. "bri?" he mumbles. "yes." i move his hair out of his face. "i love you." his eyes open up a little. "i love you too." i kiss his forehead before grabbing a hoodie and leaving my bedroom.

i slip the hoodie on and i stand there in the hallway. not knowing what to do. something's changed in me and i didn't know what it was but it left me feeling empty. i could throw myself down these stairs and i'd just lay there at the bottom with no emotion.

"you okay?" my moms voice makes me jump. "no." i see her on the couch downstairs. "talk to me love." she pats the seat next to her. i nod then walk downstairs. i sit next to my mom. we haven't talked as much since the whole divorce thing. ever since i stopped worrying about it, i had no idea where my parents stood together.

"what's going on? something's up. i can feel it." my mom tucks my hair behind my ear. "i don't know mom. i just feel weird. i feel numb." i try my best to tell her how i feel. "would this have anything to do with being pregnant?" she makes my heart drop all the way down to my ass. "how did you know about that?"

"brianna, i'm your mother. i know when something's wrong. also i found one of your sticks in the trash in your bathroom. i wasn't snooping! i was cleaning." one of them? i have another one? "yeah well i haven't been able to stop thinking about that. i feel like i really messed up but i've been more cautious lately. i have this horrible feeling that parker's going to leave me one day and it terrifies me. he told me he loved me mom... that was scary. being in a relationship is scary."

my mom pulls me into her and hugs me. "that's the fun part about it. this is your second relationship. you're seventeen, it's going to be a new experience." she says but i slightly disagree. "i don't like this feeling. i don't want anything happening to him...to us."

"it'll pass. i wish you came and talked to me." i sigh. how do you talk to your mother about something like this? she'd think i'm a disappointment if i actually was pregnant. "i'm not pregnant so it didn't really matter." i lay my head on her shoulder. "that's the thing, what if you were? you need to know that i'm here to talk to you. i want you to feel safe and comfortable talking to me."

"i am comfortable talking to you. i was just... figuring stuff out for myself." my mom puts her arm around me. "good. now let's figure something out together. birth control."

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