i wake up slowly. my nightstand is the first thing i see. i instantly feel a hand around my stomach and a whole person behind me. i stay still trying to wake my brain up.

"bri wake up." my mothers voice is close.

oh fuck! my moms voice is close!

"bri you're going to be late g-" i sit up and my eyes widen as i watch my door swing open and my mother lock eyes with me. "oh shit!" i hold my covers up to my chest.

my mom looks around my room and at the sleeping boy right next to me. "brianna marie flores! what the fuck!" she yells.

parker jumps up and looks around. "get dressed and come downstairs now!" she leaves and makes sure to slam my door.

holy fuck i'm in so much trouble.

"what's going on?" i watch him rub his eyes.

after grabbing my glasses off my nightstand, i move the covers off of me and make my way into my bathroom. with clear vision, i pee and when i wash my hands i look in the mirror. first of all i look like a complete mess. second of all i'm fucked! and third of all... i feel so hot.

i dry my hands and start to look at myself in the mirror. i pose and start inspecting myself. i am sexy.

i had sex.

i didn't remember sex being so... intimate.

the events of last night replay in my mind. last night was amazing.

last night.

parker and i fucked.

parker and i...

i start to break down what happened in the last twenty-four hours and my smile fades.

my bathroom door opens and parker comes in. "there you are, i'm guessing we got caught." he kisses me on the cheek then walks to my toilet to pee.

the harsh reality slaps me in the face as i look in the mirror again. "parker." i say about to flip out. "parker!" i turn to him. "what? i'm right here." he finishes, i back away from the sink and he washes his hands. i just fucked my best friends boyfriend.

i'm on the verge of crying. "we had sex." i look at him drying his hands. "yeah, we did." he smiles and tries to touch me but i move away.

"you have to get out of here. now!" i grab his hand and bring him out to my room where i frantically look for everything that's his. "what's wrong?" he sits on my bed calmly like nothing is wrong. i stare at him panicking. "what's wrong? how do you not see what's wrong? my moms going to kill me and you cheated on riley, we..." my heart drops.

"riley..."

i quickly throw on a big t-shirt and drag parker out of my room and downstairs.

"brianna!" my mothers voice stops us dead in our tracks. we both slowly turn towards the kitchen. she empties her wine glass into the sink. her facial expression scares me. i look at parker to make sure he put his clothes on. he did and he's covering little parker. or should i say big parker.

oh my god.

"good morning mom." i say in the fakest voice ever. "living room now! both of you!" she snaps and i start freaking the fuck out.

we slowly follow my mom into the living room.

"i can't believe you marie," she rubs her temples. my fight or flight senses kick in. i don't know whether to run for it or wait for my mom to kick my ass. i watch my mom cross her arms and take turns looking at us both. "i can't believe you. how could you do this to your best friend? i raised you better than this."

she must've been talking to liz because i sure didn't tell her anything about riley and parker dating.

her words were like a slap to the face. tears immediately feel from my face. i turned around, ashamed. "it wasn't her fault. we made a mistake." parker tries to defend me. "yeah a big mistake. do you know how riley's going to feel after she knows?"

"mom don't tell her! please don't tell her!" i beg my mother. "of course i'm not going to tell her. you are. today," my mom walks away. "today?" parker asks. "yes today and from now on parker is not allowed here anymore and brianna you're grounded."

"what?" i question her. "you heard me." she starts to go towards the door. "grounded for having sex or for having sex with parker?"

"both." she opens the door. i scoff. "especially for losing your virginity in my house. parker please get your things and leave." i look over to him. he goes upstairs to my room and i start to follow him. "don't you dare." my mother warns me. i keep walking anyways and go in my room.

"i can't believe we did that. " i pace around the room trying not to cry.

"did i really take your virginity last night?" i look at him in disbelief. "sorry to burst your ego but no you didn't. i can't believe that's what you're thinking about right now."

"i know. i'm sorry. i thought we talked about this, riley and i's relationship is complicated." he raises his voice. "i don't fucking care! she thinks you're her boyfriend!" i raise mine.

fuck i have no idea how we're going to tell her. "i can't believe i let my stupid feelings get in the way. why did you come over last night? did you plan this?" i put my hands on my head. he tries to approach me. "no! hurry up and get your things and leave." i walk out of the room.

i'm back in the living room with my mother staring at me. i think i got myself in even more trouble by following him. "bye parker. brianna go get ready for school." she barks.

"it's sunday." i bark back. "maybe it was sunday last night when you were having sex in my house but today it's monday." my mom snaps. woah. i really pissed her off. i don't even know what to say now. i run upstairs to try to escape my mother but then i turn around. "by the way, i lost my virginity a long time ago!" i yell.

my mom stares at me with that one death glare she does. parker quickly leaves the house.

run your ass to your room and lock the door before she kills you.

i do what my conscience tells me to. once i'm in my room i'm pacing all over the place trying to figure out what to do first. how am i supposed to go to school? how am i supposed to face riley or natalie?

i throw the thought in the back of my mind so i wouldn't start crying. crying. i hear crying.

i unlock my door and go downstairs to see my mom yelling on the couch with a full glass of wine in her hand. "mom?" i drop my bag. she turns to me and hangs up the phone. i walk over to her, take the glass from her and sit it on the coffee table. "mom please don't hate me!" i beg. i'm a horrible daughter.

"i just don't understand why you would do this. i raised you better. you don't sleep with your best friends boyfriend. that's not like you, picking a boy over your friend? i thought i told you to tell her that you liked him."

"i'm sorry mom i-i didn't mean to. i wasn't thinking!" i start to cry again. "everything just happened so fast."

"oh riley. she's not going to be happy about this, you know how she is." i sigh. "i know but don't worry. parker and i are going to tell her today. i promise." a thousand scenarios of me telling her play in my head and none of them end nicely. "do it. don't wait, it will get worse."

i nod. "now get to school. you're already a period late?" my mom pushes me off the couch. i groan and grab my bag. "i'm sorry mom." i go back and hug her. "you're a teenager. apparently sex is normal these days." i let go. "you literally had me at twenty." i walk towards the door. "wanna be grounded for two weeks instead of one?"

"bye." i rush out the door.

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i pull into the parking lot and start to park in my normal spot. i hit the brakes when i see parker standing in it. he moves to the sidewalk and i continue to park. "why were you just standing there like a weirdo?" i get out of my car. "i wasn't standing there like a weirdo, i was waiting for you." he smiles at me.

the fact that he could still act normal scares me. i walk up to him. "why are you acting like nothing happened?" i bite my lip. "i'm not. something did happened and i'm just choosing to not be weird over it," he shrugs. "even though there was nothing weird about it."

"are you insane? you cheated." my voice gets louder. parkers eyes widened and he looked down.

"look we have to tell riley." i say. "tell me what?"