I've been afraid to admit this,

I suppose I just wanted bliss.

The memory amiss.

The gate unlocked now,

Sweat streaming from my brow,

But all I could do was bow.

No!

The word I was unable to utter,

My heart still a flutter.

Shaking my head of clutter.

No!

My body silently crying out in fear,

Obviously no one could hear.

His intentions remain unclear.

No!

I didn't think it would happen to me.

But I was young and carefree,

Before I even got my first degree.

The last relationship in high school.

How could life be so cruel?

I felt so miniscule.

I didn't tell anyone for a long time,

Sparing him from his crime,

Running from the uphill climb.

No!

Waking from the nap,

I'm not ready for the recap.

But I need to expose the mishap.

No!

Awake, but staying very still,

Feeling his fingers upon thigh until,

He pushed them into my daffodil.

No!

I'm ashamed that I did not stop him.

That sounds really grim.

My mind filled to the brim.

No!

Why did you do that, Joe?