Inspired by the song "The Loneliest by Maneskin"

Listen to it it's a great song..

"You'll be the saddest part of me

A part of me that will never be mine

It's obvious

Tonight is gonna be the loneliest

You're still the oxygen I breathe

I see your face when I close my eyes

It's torturous

Tonight is gonna be the loneliest"

Vega's eyes fluttered he was stirred awake by the warm body beside him with his back turned on him, he was spooning the person beside him and snuggled more comfortably to him kissing his shoulder and pressing his forehead on his nape. Kimhan grunted pulled the sheets up that covered them shuffling and then fell asleep again as he heard soft snores from him and his breathing evens out.

He nuzzled inhaling the scent of Kim a familiar smell, woodsy and fresh like the smell of the forest after the rain with a hint of the sea breeze that has a freeing feeling and it's overwhelmingly comforting. I would drown at this moment so peaceful it's the home I never had. I caressed his arms tracing all the muscles and lines visible. The scars that had grown into his skin carved a place for painful memories that he had experienced and the fresh ones on his back due to his previous works. I tried to memorize that honeyed-toned back that I'd held and held me a couple of times savoring the little time we had left.

We are never the peaceful bunch, wishing this moment never ends.

I can hear the birds chirping from a distance it was still dark but dawn has come to take away the little happiness I've gathered in my arms, It's slowly trying to slip away.

A few seconds more is all I ask, as I felt him stir in my arms. I didn't how I ended up spooning him the night and we ended up in this position all I know is how passionate he was and how his eyes burn on every inch of my skin as if I was melting in his stares. How his touch made waves of heat searing it made me want to feel more. He never uttered a word but his grunts and moans tell me otherwise that he was here, with me right beside me basking in the throes of passion we've placed ourselves into. We let ourselves delude in each other's embrace we constantly chase love thinking was heading straight into the right path but waking up to the reality that we were headed in pain and misery from the start.

I was used to pain, thinking nothing would hurt me more. But I was not used to this if this is what you call Love then Love is a different kind of torture that you can't bear, with or without it. It's not pain it's an endless torture of feelings that I have yet to learn and discover. I was not given the luxury of knowing sooner, Love was late and slipping away in a couple more minutes.

"mmmmmm..." - Kim

"Morning.."- Vegas

He stirred awake his body facing the ceiling as he broke from my embrace. Seemingly in a deep thought his brows furrowed and he sighed.

"I had a dream"- Kim

"mmmm..."- Vegas

I scooted closer to lay on his chest as he welcomed me in his arms feeling the beat of his heart slow and steady and his hot breath that blew on the top of my hair, I've made myself comfortable. His arms were over my shoulder slowly massaging them and the other over his eyes as if trying to cover them to reminisce the vivid dream he had.

"You were there, your eyes twinkle as you looked at me. But you were not holding a knife instead you had a pruner and you were in the middle of the rose garden in fool bloom. You looked so happy Vegas. I've never seen you smile that wide before"- Kim

He chuckled finding that dream to be weird and funny. Then his hand reached out to the as if trying to hold onto something. I kept quiet just listening for the rest of the dream that I find amusing hiding that faint smile on my face by then he knows I was because my cheeks lifted against his chest then he sighed again.

"I was holding a couple of roses too, they felt surreal as if I am holding onto them prickly and soft. I was giving it out to you.... but then ... "- Kim

"But then?"- Vegas

"But they began to wither so fast they turned to ash in my hands, when I looked at you. Your tears in your eyes and the roses all disappeared."- Kim

I reached out for his hand kissing its back and tucking it on my chest. Kim was never the emotional type and he never share his share anything like this."I'm still here though as of now, we are still together... Kim.."- Vegas

"Not for very long.."- Kim

"I know... "- Vegas

Silence engulfs both, I closed my eyes feeling the quiet moment with him.

"Say my name, Vegas"- Kim

My eyes opened and I saw him staring at me, eyes wavering with emotions swimming in them.

"Kim.."- Vegas

"Say it again.."- Kim

"Kimhan..."- Vegas

"I will always remember you, My Vegas"- Kim

Holding me tightly he kissed my forehead and smiled, remembering the feeling of his sweet kiss on my skin. It was the loneliest dawn I had with the man I could never have.