Waking up with my mate in my arms was the absolute best thing ever!

I thought it was so damn cute that he crawled on me in the middle of the night.

He kept trying to snuggle closer and closer until he was right on top of me. I chuckled it was so adorable!

I'm pretty sure he wasn't even awake. Once he was on me he never moved again, like he was finally comfortable and content. My cheeks hurt from smiling so big thinking about it.

Then as if it wasn't bad enough, I was hoping not to scare him with my morning wood, but he had to go and start wiggling around which of course made things harder.... Literally!

But to my surprise he started getting hard too, then I smelled the delicious scent of his arousal. After I tried to warn him, this little mink smirks and grinds against me again...Fuck!

Yeah he thought I didn't see that smirk.

The way he got excited like a kid on Christmas as he yanked our clothes off... I mean his face was lit up with so much excitement. He had the biggest smile on his face, and so much excitement in his eyes.

Then like the flick of a switch he turned completely innocent again as he sat there trailing his fingers over my tattoos with so much wonder, so much innocence like a little kid experiencing something for the first time.... Then again that switch flicked and he turned into a little minks again. As he lean forward and lick the tip of my dick. But then again the way he did it was more like curiosity. I actually think he was curious, like his body was doing it on his own.

When he wrapped his lips around my dick and I felt his tongue run along it I almost died. His mouth was so warm and wet. And the smell of his arousal, I thought I was going to explode so I quickly yanked him up.

His soft little moans was music to my ears. Feelings his body tremble and the beautiful expression on his face as he reached his orgasm was incredible.

I wasn't surprised he fell asleep so fast. Poor little thing exhausted himself. I carefully climbed out from underneath him and put my pillow next to him since it had my scent on it.

I quietly slipped into my chair and went into the bathroom to grab a warm rag then came back and cleaned him up. After tucking him back in I slipped into the shower then got dressed.

I wanted to go to the office and take care of a few things before we went to the training field.

I sat next to the bed staring at him for a few moments taking in his breathtaking face. I wrote a quick little note and set it on the table beside the bed. I look back at him once more with a smile then headed down to the office.

I woke up and realized I was hugging thaddeus's pillow. I reached over and his side of the bed was cold indicating he had not been there for a while.

I sat up quickly looking around the room and didn't see him anywhere. I listened closely to see if I could hear him in the bathroom and nothing. My stomach dropped, why did he leave?

I quickly got out of bed and went into the bathroom to double check and he wasn't in there. I checked the closet and he wasn't in there. I came back out and looked around again and he wasn't in the room. I ran to the door wall and threw it open, stepping out onto the deck looking around and he wasn't out there either. I slowly walked back in with my head down.

I walked back over to the bed and plopped down. Why did he leave me?

What did I do wrong? I felt cold and empty as I laid down on the bed and curled up into a ball. I felt tears rolling down my face as I started crying. I don't understand, I don't remember making him mad, what did I do wrong?

I was in my office having a meeting with Xander, Abigail, Marcus and Zendaya. I was in there for about half an hour when I suddenly started feeling extremely sad.

I was in the middle of talking and I slowly trailed off and zoned out trying to figure out what this feeling was and where it was coming from.

I felt sad, alone, empty, abandoned. My heart hurts so bad.

I snapped out of it finally as Xander was roughly shaking my shoulders. I shook my head and snapped my eyes to him. "Man what's wrong with you?" he asked me? "I've never seen you cry, what's wrong?" He said.

"Cry? What are you talking about I'm not crying." I said as I touched my face and realized I was. I looked at my hands not really believing what I felt.

I looked around the room at everyone confused. "I don't know where this feelings coming from." I said.

"SHIT! It's not me it's Aiden!" I said frantically. I shifted into my wolf because I would be too slow in my chair. I told Xander to follow me so he could open the doors and we both took off up the stairs to my room. Xander opened my bedroom door and I ran in, jumping on the bed and shifted back. He turned around fast, surprised by my abrupt entrance.

I quickly grabbed him pulling him into my chest and wrapping my arms around him as tight as I could. His head going into the crook of my neck.

"What's wrong baby?" I asked him.

I could feel the tears on my neck so I knew he was crying. I pulled his face back with my hands on his cheeks wiping the tears off with my thumbs.

"Baby please tell me what's wrong so I can fix it." I said to him.

"Nothing it's silly." He said.

"No it's not silly, not if it made you feel like this. Please tell me." I said.

"It's just... When I woke up you weren't here. You were just... gone I didn't know where you were, you didn't even say anything." He said.

I took him back into my arms.

"Shit hun I'm sorry. I wanted to go to the office to get a few things done before we went to training this afternoon. I left you a note on the nightstand see."

I said as I pulled him away and leaned over grabbing the note and handing it to him. He slowly took it from my hands and looked at it for a few moments before he turned away from me.

What just happened I thought?

I put my hand on his shoulder to turn him around. "Hey what's wrong?"

He looked back at the paper and a tear slid down his cheek. He handed it back and said "this wouldn't have mattered."

I took it from him confused, "I don't understand? What do you mean?" I asked him.

"I.... I can't read." he whispered.

SHIT!!! Goddess I fucked up! I thought to myself.

'Shit, I'm so sorry Aiden I totally wasn't thinking." I went to reach for him but he got up before my hand was able to reach him.

"It's okay." He said quietly. "I'm going to head down to my room to take a shower and change." He pulled his sweatpants on and started walking toward the door with his head down.

Before he reached the door I called out to him "WAIT!"

He turned around, and I scooted to the edge of the bed. I extended my arm out and held my hands out to him. He looked at my hand, then back at me.

"Come here Aiden....Please!"

He let out a shaky breath as he walked towards me. As soon as his hand was in mind I jerked him toward me as his chest collided to mine.

I wrapped my arms around him with one hand going to the back of his head and into his hair.

"Aiden babe, please don't shut me out.

I'm sorry, I'm idiot for not thinking about that. Please forgive me."

He pulled back and cupped my cheek with one of his little hands. "I don't need to forgive you." He said in his soft voice and my stomach dropped.

"There's nothing to forgive. You didn't do anything wrong. I'm sorry I overreacted he said." I let out a deep breath relieved, I thought he was still upset.

I smashed my lips to his. I poured my heart out into that kiss.

He rested his forehead against mine with his eyes closed after the kiss. His arms around my neck.

"I love you Thaddeus!" He whispered.

I swear my heart stopped as did my breath.

I grabbed his face and pulled him back a little to look into his eyes. I searched his eyes and all I saw was sincerity. He really felt this way. I felt the sting of tears behind my eyes.

"I love you too!" I rushed out in a shaky breathless tone as I crashed my lips back into his. I squeezed him tight in my arms as he held on for dear life.

This wasn't a kiss of lust but a kiss of love. We said I love you with this kiss, and I'll never let go!