I have been at work for about three hours after Alaska told me to go back to work.

To be honest I'm worried for her. I hate seeing her like this. I wanted to stay with her. But I know that she needed space and I gave it too her.

Suddenly in the middle of my meeting I get this gut wrenching feeling about Alaska. "I got to go," cutting the man off. I grab my jacket and head out of my office.

When I get to our room I don't see Alaska anywhere. I walk out of the bedroom and I went to Aces room where Kat his. "Have any of you seen Alaska?" I say looking at both of them on the bed. "No." Kat say looking down as she continues to draw on her pad. I look up at Ace and he shook his head. I sigh and close the door.

I check all of the room in the house and the garage and I still can't find her.

Then I remember that I did not check the bathroom.

I go back to our bedroom and open the door.

And what I saw was the moment I lost everything.

I say Alaska lying on the floor, blood all over the floor. I see blood coming from her wrist. And I knew what she have done.

"No." I get on my knees. Not caring that blood was getting on me. "Alaska please no," I sob as I hold her tightly. I move her hair to the side and I press my fingers to her neck.

I sigh in relief when I feel her heart beat. But it was slow and I could barely feel it. I feel tears down my face. "Alaska stay with me please." I lay her down and I take off my tie and wrap one arm around it to stop the bleeding for now.

"Ok come on, Damon." I close my eyes and lift her up. I see her eyes open up a bit and she sees me. I see her chest rise up and down. "Alaska, shh," I se her try to open her mouth but she does not have the energy to talk. "Alaska please stay with me," I say through uneasy voices. When I see her eyes roll in the back of her head.

When I get her in the car I waste no time to go to the hospital.

"I need help," I yell as I run into the entrance of the hospital. I see a nurse run to me. "Help please," I please he on the hospital bed. "Sir I need you to take a seat I will take care of her." She says as the other nurse takes Alaska down the hall.

I set down and I rub my hand up and down my face. I feel tears go down my face.

I can't lose Alaska she is the only one I have anymore. I can't lose the only one I love.

It always happens to me and I just want my family back again. I just want what I had in the past.

Where Alaska was happy. When My brother was alive. When I was even happy. I miss every part of that. And I always will.

But I just need too Alaska to be alive.

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