bro should i go

bc he lowk fucked me over so bad and i lost my close friends bc of miscommunication on his end lol

i mean

id go to see what he'd want to say

you obviously don't have to forgive him right away, that's completely your choice

what would you do in my situation though

id go to see what he wants to say but i won't forgive him

not right away at least

id take things slow w him if i forgive him

okay thank you 🙏

im scared omfg

when we last saw each other it didn't go so well

hahdjajd im gonna get ready now

bye diluc love u

love you too stay safe y/n

"um hi, pantalone," you awkwardly say while digging your nails into the palm of your hands.

he greeted you with an awkward smile. "hey,"

he stared at you while your eyes diverted to the ground. you were not good at this type of stuff. you'd rather do this over messages but pantalone persisted it was fine.

he suddenly broke the silence between you.

"i'm sorry,"

"i know you are,"

"oh,"

"i don't know," you started, "i want to forgive you but i'm not over what i went through."

"that's understandable—"

"but you don't understand, pantalone," you sighed. "i felt like shit and i had no one. everyone left me because of a misunderstanding you had. everyone left me because you failed to communicate."

he looked at you with an apologetic look, unable to find the right words to say. "i'm sorry."

"i know commutating can be hard but it's better to do so than to... you know... do that."

"you're right— you're completely right. i was being immature and i was always jumping to conclusions," he said, his eyes looking down at you. "i have problems with trusting people and i guess it got to my head."

"i know it did. i just wished you could've told me what was wrong instead of pushing me away,"

"i'm so sorry."

"you don't have to keep saying that— i know you are and it won't change anything."

he gently grabbed your arm, "if you have anything to tell me, you can tell me. tell me everything you've been bottling up,"

you look at the grass behind him, refusing to look at him. "you're a fucking ass. you refused to tell me what was wrong and you just up and left me. it caused childe to leave me. i guess it indirectly caused lumine and aether to leave but that's just their own problem. zhongli left but he only follows everyone else."

his grip on your arm tightened. it didn't hurt— no. you were stronger than that. his silence only gestured you to continue.

"i lost everyone because you couldn't believe me. you never trusted me at all, pantalone. it just— you know, it hurts i guess."

you took a deep breath, "you couldn't believe me just that one time? when i told you not to worry about ayato? we were never dating. maybe in the past but he's not... my type."

it was silent for a minute. you were terrified for his response. you were scared he was going to get mad at you. you were scared he was going to invalidate your feelings.

"i'm sorry. i only realized how i made you feel after i left you." he released his grip on you and started to stare at the grass behind you. "but you have to take into consideration hes your ex, you know."

you proceeded to sit on the grass besides the tree. it was midnight— the moon was the only source of light. "i know that's where it could get iffy but how many people told you we were strictly just friends? scaramouche told you that, no?"

"i guess he did."

"why couldn't you trust me?"

"i don't know. i wasn't thinking straight at the time. i'm sorry, y/n. i really am."

"i understand we all have our doubts," you started, plucking the grass near you, "but i just cant forgive you yet. not right now."

pantalone pursed his lips. he knew you were going to say that, but he certainly did not know what to say back.

"i just want to take things slow again," you immediately added. "i feel like we took things too fast last time."

he sat down beside you, making sure to leave some space between you. "i understand and i completely agree; we took things too fast and that's where i went ahead of myself."

he sighed. "we can take things slow. i'm okay with that as long as you are too."

you weakly smiled, "yeah."

it was quiet again, but you had to make one thing clear. "i'm still mad at you, by the way."

no words were exchanged and the both of you were too busy looking at your surroundings. you reached into your pocket and felt a box.

you coughed, "um, i have your ring."

"my ring?"

"the one i promised you months ago,"

"oh. thank you, y/n,"

"yeah,"

"it's really pretty,"

"i know, you chose it. it costed me a million mora, jackass. it better be pretty." you scoffed.

pantalone admired the ring in his hand. the moonlight made the gems shine— it was beautiful. slipping it onto his hand, he grinned. "you liked me that much you bought me a million mora ring?"

bitch.

"and your brother liked me that much he spent over a million mora on me."

he gagged. "don't even bring him up."

you could assume you were on okay-ish terms now. of course, you didn't forgive him yet. later you will— but not now. taking things slow with him was probably the best choice.

you two were less awkward now. you could joke around, but it was fairly obvious there was some sort of tension. you were happy. you 'reconciled' with a 'friend' and now you're taking things slow with him.

all you needed to do was to talk to a ginger, twins, and zhongli.

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