I'm exhausted

My pride is exhausted

I spent an entire week acting like I care about a piece of shit

For a week,we had to stay in the villa with each other and I had to act like I care about him

I would always accompany him while eating and I had to entertain him by listening to his stories about when he and my Empress were still children

It's almost hurtful to see him so stuck in the past

Even if I knew it was gonna be the most effective,I couldn't bare being physically affectionate to him so I just chose to do small things like grabbing onto his arm when we walk together and smile at him even when he was being a cringe

We would take walks on the garden,have some tea sometimes and eat together

The whole time I was with him,he would always do the talking and I would just listen with a small smile.I would only respond by little to keep him going and for time to pass by fast.I did my best to stay quiet and not to reveal much

I made the impression of my company being peacefully pleasing

Ofcourse I still kept a certain distance between us by rejecting some of his requests to do more things together and instead made excuses so we could just do smaller things to show him he's still got a long way to go and so he would appreciate the smallest things from me

Thankfully he never asked to sleep in the same room but ofcourse I made that possible by acting exhausted at the end of the day and retreating to my room as fast as possible

It would have been nice if he had therapy but that would be too good to be true

I stuck by his side through his whole recovery and everyone around us marveled at the sight of us together

The doctor ofcourse was pleased as it did help improve his condition

Apparently my efforts on uplifting the Emperor's mood was very helpful on improving his health

I had to keep smiling the entire time while I boil on the inside

The only thing I'm holding on to keep going is that I'll have him where I want to

Which thankfully he is

I'm confident enough to tell that he's very much attached to me now

I can see that he wants more from me but ofcourse, that's all he's gonna get as it is the end of the line

That's all I'm gonna give him and it was enough to keep him hooked

This is going to be my last day in the villa so I'm going to need to prepare for my final performance for tomorrow

Tomorrow,on the day we will finally leave this place,I will act affectionate and tender to him to make him feel happy so the following days will be .

I'll give him a taste of happiness from my affection so when he expects and wants more of it,I won't give it to him anymore.

When he knows what's it like having it but see's that he can't get it anymore,he'll be miserable.He would be so desperate for that sense of satisfaction.The lesser chances he has to get what he wants,the more he will crave for it and that craving will be .

But ofcourse as we all know,he'd just go running to Rashta to have someone give him everything he wants easily but ofcourse since he's had a taste of my attention,Rashta's attention would feel different to him

Then he'd come running to me and I can do whatever I want with him.Stringing him up like a toy and play with him as much as I want

He'd have no choice but to entertain me

I'm looking forward to all the chaos I'm brewing