It wasn't my first time seeing this.

It was not unusual for the fans to give an event to the singer at the concert. I had seen it three or four times when I was asked to gather the data. I never felt any particular excitement. I was just amazed that so many people were able to do it at the right timing without getting paid.

But this... it was a completely different experience to be the subject myself.

Was it possible to feel that those countless lights that swayed were each and every one of a person's heart?

I didn't know, I didn't know what to say...

...about this overwhelming sense of unity that I felt for being at the center of this and not as an outsider.

"..."

Meanwhile, the singing continued.

It was my part.

A thrill I could never have imagined ran all the way to my toes as if hot water had been poured over the top of my head.

"...Mmph."

I hurriedly lowered my head. I felt better when I didn't look.

But at the same time, I raised my head and wanted to see more.

'...What a mess.'

It was absurd.

I could still hear the incessant singing in my ears.

In addition, now the other guys were singing along.

First was Keun Sejin.

"...If it's you everything will be fine~"

It must have been quite moving as I could hear the trembling voice of each person singing their part.

"Li, life is strange, lightly..."

Kim Raebin's sniffling rap part continued.

And soon my part came.

'...I'm going crazy.'

I picked up the mic for now.

"...If you meet me-"

I blew up a single verse. Even the words that came in late did not lead properly.

'Damn it.'

I gritted my teeth.

As the silence lengthened the gazes finally fell on me as if thinking that something was strange.

"...Moondae?"

"M-moondae-ya?"

"Are you crying?"

Suddenly, several hands shook my shoulders and patted me on the nape and back. Bewildered exclamations were mixed among the voices of the fans who were singing.

'Oh god.'

I pressed the area around my eyes with one hand. Then I raised my head and looked around as calmly as possible. Most of the members were in tears.

However, although there were some who were on the verge of crying or sniffling, none of them shed tears.

Even Bae Sejin didn't cry like this.

'Ah fuck.'

Right now was I... was I the only one who became a weirdo?

"Aigoo, my goodness."

"Moondae is like this."

The gathered guys laughed a few times and then fortunately began to cry genuinely. It was clear that these guys were also holding back.

"...Let's do well."

Absorbed with the atmosphere, the guys hugged me relentlessly from the top of my head and from my shoulders. It was hot.

I didn't know if the hugging was suffocating me or if the situation itself was suffocating.

Oh no.

Don't cry.

It's okay.

While the interlude was playing, all sorts of shouts came into my ears instead of singing.

"Phew."

The hug was released, And Keun Sejin, who ran somewhere and returned, put a cloth in front of my face.

I grabbed it without thinking and pressed it on my face.

I saw indigo letters on a light purple background.

...It was the slogan.

Someone threw it onto the stage.

'This is driving me crazy.'

I just buried my face. I would have just, looked very ridiculous.

Someone roughly petted my hair.

"Well done."

Before the interlude was over, the members walked out to the front of the stage. Then, while holding hands side by side, we bowed our heads in greeting.

Instead of singing, cheers rang over our heads.

I stumbled and picked up the microphone.

"...Yes, the magic is you."

Fortunately, I managed to sing the last verse.

After the fans' event with the talking as a mask, I barely said a few words before coming down the stage.

Only then did I stop crying.

'...It should have been like this five minutes ago.'

It was absurd.

I could have never imagined that the situation in which I cried for the first time in nearly 7 years would be live in front of a camera with 13,000 people.

'...I shouldn't have avoided social media monitoring.'

It would have been better if I had known in advance, but since the concert was right around the corner, we all agreed to not look at the Internet for about a week so as not to be influenced.

We didn't do activities that required special monitoring, so I thought it would be okay.

'In the meantime, I didn't expect this was happening under the surface.'

From now on, there would never be such a useless internet detox in my life.

I almost crumpled the slogan in my hand, but I managed to hold it in and folded it up, and put it on a nearby chair.

"Wow, you really didn't expect this. He didn't even cry for the first-place win."

"..."

"As expected, he was born to become an idol. Crying only in front of the fans' love...kya."

"Stop."

When he came down to the subject of crying, he only moved his mouth well.

"A-are you okay?"

"...I'm all right."

This one seemed genuinely worried about this so I couldn't even get angry. Seon Ahyun seemed to be very moved, but he didn't cry much, and his face was fine, saving the staff's trouble.

Conversely, Bae Sejin started shedding tears after coming down, which made the staff bewildered.

"...How are you, hyung?"

"I'm, I'm fine."

Bae Sejin barely stopped sniffling and finished his makeup.

"Our time is running out. We have to move."

Ryu Chungwoo, who cried quickly and came to his senses quickly, promptly took control of the situation. Cha Yujin, who didn't cry and was excited next to him, had already changed his clothes.

"Let's go, let's go!"

...That's right. It was time to go.

The long-awaited title song performance was waiting.

"50 seconds left on the VCR!"

We ran to the standby location and moved.

Perhaps the set was already up on the center stage with the lights off.

I remembered the scene from the script.

An antique old mansion. Dusty chandeliers, butterfly specimens, and rusty cages.

And the spring on the back.

"Going up!"

The stage setting began to move.

The moment the floor opened and the heads were exposed on the stage, lights and cheers began to roar.

Waaahhh-

But it was not time to be overwhelmed. It was time to put all the sentiments aside and refocus.

Blue lights were put on the stage.

TeStar took formation.

* * *

"Huuu..."

The weekend night on the 31st, when TeStar's concert ended for both days.

Park Moondae's homepage master staggered forward, holding onto her bag. In the bag was a unique camera that completed its filming mission in the standing area.

She ran to the concert for two days, cried for two days, took pictures, and even stood and watched the stage today, so her stamina was exhausted.

But she had no regrets. Not a little bit, not even a speck!!

'It was so good...'

From start to finish, there wasn't a single element that was disappointing.

Not only was it good because they were doing their best, but the performance itself was so fun and good.

It felt as if she had briefly entered another world.

'It's such a pity to end it in two days...!'

She wished they could do it just for two more days. And even though she was on her way from just seeing the concert, she wanted to see TeStar moving around in real life so much again.

Unable to control her boiling heart, she opened her phone and accessed social media.

And she quickly uploaded the picture from the camera, which was taken with her smartphone again, albeit with poor quality.

The homepage master's heart ached every time she saw the attached pictures, especially her first one.

It was Park Moondae holding the paper tightly in his hands and holding back tears with his head slightly lowered.

The homepage master pounded her chest inwardly.

'My child truly is an angel...'

Park Moondae also cried on the second day of the concert.

Fans prepared an event different from the first day. When TeStar was singing the fan song at the encore, paper airplanes were thrown in the air.

Naturally, TeStar was again overwhelmed by the tremendous sight of 10,000 colorful paper airplanes floating together in the concert hall.

And TeStar, who grabbed some planes that had luckily landed on the stage, were able to see for themselves what was inside them.

Fans wrote down what they wanted to say inside each piece of paper folded in an airplane.

It was a brutally moving event.

In the process, some members were brought to tears, and among them, Park Moondae's image was the first preview photo of the homepage master.

And Park Moondae... who had the image of being least likely to cry, was the member who cried the most.

Even when he won 1st place in IdolCo, had the first win on a public TV show since their debut, and at any awards ceremony, let alone a drop of tear, the tears of a person, who cried like a waterfall, had tremendous destructive power.

On the first day, not only fans but also various communities were turned upside down.

For reference, SyeomByul was a search prevention name for TeStar that had been modified to the limit.

//TN: Syeom = exam/test, Byul = Star

In any case, TeStar's progress at this concert was quickly shared in various places, from a community where people gossip without filtering to fan accounts with courtesy and common sense.

There were all kinds of stories to talk about, including the new unit stages, an unconventional new song performance, and crying, so maybe it was only natural.

One proof was that the preview sharing figure of Park Moondae's homepage master easily broke the thousandth mark in less than 5 minutes after it was posted.

The reactions of acquaintances and followers were also excellent.

Gradually, foreign fans started appearing as well, and foreign aggros were also appearing.

'They're picking a fight with every homepage master.'

Since this was something she had seen before, the homepage master easily ignored it. Then she quickly boarded the subway that just arrived.

'Ugh, there are so many people...'

On the first day, she could go back comfortably thanks to riding in a friend's car who came from somewhere else, but today, such a fluke was impossible.

'I should have taken a taxi or a hotel!'

The moment she was about to regret it, fortunately, there was a seat right in front of her and she was able to sit down.

'Thank god.'

The homepage master took out the camera as soon as she sat down and began to flick through the footage.

It was because the new song performance did not leave the corner of her mind.

'It was really crazy.'

She did not expect something like that to come out. But she was so thankful that it did!

Since the first impact was important, she implicitly did not upload the photos or fancams of the new song performance until midnight, but honestly, she really wanted to brag.

'Let's at least replay it.'

As soon as the homepage master was about to check the fancam she filmed today, her knee suddenly vibrated.

It was her smartphone.

And in the notification box... there was unexpected news.

It was a W Live notification!