The next morning Y/n got up before Charles and Arthur and packed to leave for Japan and then Milan. As she packed she got a message from Claudia.

Hope you're well Miss Summers, just reminding you that the offer only stands for another two weeks...

She had completely forgotten about the timer on the offer since arriving in Monaco. This sudden reminder brought so much more confusion on top of her worry for this weekend and her worry that Pierre was upset about something that she couldn't quite figure out. She never thought she'd be able to do what she was about to do but she knew the only place where she'd feel able to face it all.

After leaving a short note to let the brothers know where she was going, she grabbed her keys and left.

As she walked, it felt as if her body was moving without her even thinking about it. Her feet knew where to take her and that's what kept them moving. She got to the small gate and opened it, still in a daze of bravery she moved forward and proceeded to sit. It was a cooler day with the winter sun now shining high in the sky. It's gentle rays caught each letter, illuminating his name.

Y/n: Hey Jules, can you believe I'm back here? I can't... I'm here with purpose this time. I don't quite know what to do right now. In a few hours I leave for Suzuka with Charles and I honestly can't tell anyone how I feel about it. That day still feels like a blur, as if something is missing from the echoes that remind me of it. I then move in with Pierre, temporarily of course, which is exciting. All this is news but it's not why I'm here... Jules I'm scared. I have an amazing job opportunity in Seattle but I'd have to leave the world of F1. I'm scared because if I take it I have to leave everyone and I know they say they'll understand but I know they'll be hurt that I chose a job over them... I'll also be leaving a world I swore to you I wouldn't... On the other hand if I don't take it I'm scared I won't ever get such an opportunity again...

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Charles' POV

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I woke up and the house was unusually still. I went to check if Y/n was awake yet but when I got to her room all I found were her packed bags. Strange.

I walked to the kitchen and saw a note on the counter:

Gone to Jules. I'm ok. I'll be back soon. xx

I knew not to worry but I couldn't help it. She's never gone there alone. I woke Arthur and we headed to the cemetery just to make sure Y/n was safe. Once we made it to the gate we stopped at the site of her. Careful not to alert her we were here, we sat and waited quietly.

Y/n: ...Jules I'm scared. I have an amazing job opportunity in Seattle but I'd have to leave the world of F1. I'm scared because if I take it I have to leave everyone and I know they say they'll understand but I know they'll be hurt that I chose a job over them... I'll also be leaving a world I swore to you I wouldn't... On the other hand if I don't take it I'm scared I won't ever get such an opportunity again...

Her words went straight to my heart. It pained me to think she was going to shape her future around us because she feared hurting us. Sure if she left it would suck but knowing she gave up a dream for us is worse.

I wanted to go to her and tell her to not worry about us but as I got up I felt a hand hold me back.

Arthur: Don't. I think we should leave her. Come on. We'll talk at home.

Agreeing with him I took one last look at Y/n who was typing something on her phone and then walked back down to the car.

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After what I felt like was hours but was only 30 minutes, Y/n returned home. I got up and went to her immediately.

Charles: Hey, everything okay?

Y/n: Hi; yeah I'm actually alright. I just needed to think over some things.

Charles: Y/n about Se-

Arthur: -Y/n! Now that you're back let's get something to eat and head to the airport.

Y/n: I agree. I'll grab my things.

As she walked away I turned to my brother a little irritated by his interruption.

Charles: What was that for?

Arthur: Let her get through Suzuka. The decision about Seattle is hard enough for her with Claudia waiting for a response without you also reminding her about what she should or shouldn't do.

Charles: But-

Arthur: No Charles. I know you don't want her to leave. I don't want her to go either but if she does go... we have to let her and not tell her any more lies that 'oh we understand' because you heard her, she doesn't believe us.

Charles: But I do understand...I want to tell her to take the job offer.

My words felt icy to my soul but I had every good intention in saying them. It was useless lying and so I told the truth. Y/n wouldn't believe that I actually meant that, that I simply said it to ease some of her stress but I didn't I'd said it because- Arthur interrupted my thoughts with a whisper shout of sorts.

Arthur: You want her to take it?! Charles why would-

Y/n: -I'm ready! What's going on here?

I turned to Arthur who smiled and said nothing was going on but the look on Y/n's face made me wonder how much she believed him. I hoped she didn't hear any of my discussion with my brother otherwise she might misinterpret what I meant...

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Y/n's POV

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As I left to fetch my bags I heard Charles and Arthur start whisper arguing with each other. It wasn't a far walk to and from my room so I found myself in the hallway listening to them. It wasn't long before I put together the pieces of what I heard and realized I was the subject of their argument so I listened closer.

Arthur: No Charles. I know you don't want her to leave. I don't want her to go either but if she does go... we have to let her and not tell her any more lies that 'oh we understand' because you heard her, she doesn't believe us.

Charles: But I do understand. I want to tell her to take the job offer.

Arthur: You want her to take it? Charles why would-

I didn't want to hear his response. I had heard enough. Arthur made it clear nobody actually would be easily understanding if I left and Charles' words hit me like a truck. I don't know why but knowing Charles wanted me to leave hurt much more than I'd liked. Some people would be relieved that the person closest to them wants them to take a job that entails leaving them completely as it would make them feel less guilty or in some sick sense make the move easier but not me. I didn't want anyone to want me to go, especially not Charles.

Y/n: -I'm ready! What's going on here?

I looked at Charles who looked uneasily at Arthur.

Arthur: Nothing, just talking.

I didn't react to his clear lie as I didn't want to cause anything so close to Suzuka because, as Arthur said: everything has been hard enough right now, but given the look on Charles' face I believed he knew I'd detected the lie and the way our eyes met it was as if we read each other's minds... this was going to be a long flight...