DYLAN ||

ONE WEEK.

It's been a whole week since Raiden left me and I have been slowly losing my shit. I didn't realize how truly upset he was with me until about the 3rd day.

I had been following him around like a lovestruck puppy for the first two days and he grew tired of me constantly trying to talk to him and apologize.

The 3rd day however, I crossed one of his boundaries because I was so desperate for his touch. Well that day...

Raiden commanded me to stay away from him.

_______FLASHBACK_______

It's been 3 days and I'm so hopelessly lost without my Raiden. I couldn't even think straight during the pack meeting this morning.

I ended up pouring myself some coffee and spilled it all over my pants, I bit into my fucking hand instead of my apple, I even walked into a few walls.

This was torture. I really didn't understand how much I needed Raiden, how much I liked him, this sucks. This all sucks. I'm such a fucking dick man.

If I wasn't such a terrible mate, he wouldn't have left me.

Once the pack meeting ended, I rush home to find Raiden in the kitchen. Before I could stop myself, I ran to him and hugged him.

"Dylan, get off of me." He said trying to unwrap my arms from his neck.

"No Raiden. I can't do this anymore, I need you, please just let me hug you." I cried into his shoulder.

"Seriously Dylan, if you don't let me go, I'll command you to do so. You've been overstepping my boundaries every single day. Now let me go."

"No! Fuck off Raiden. I care about your feelings so much, I do, but I need you and I know you need me too. Please just-"

"Let go of me!" He roared and my whole body tensed up, having no choice but to listen to his command, I quickly let go of him and take a step back.

"I see you leave me no choice Dylan because this is getting ridiculous.. so I'm going to tell now, leave me alone. If you see me in a room, you are to leave that room and you can not speak to me unless I speak to you first. Do I make myself clear?" His command was strong, I nod without hesitation and run out of the kitchen because his command told me that I couldn't be in the same room as him.

As soon as I was in the hallway, I collapsed to my hands and knees and just cried.

I never thought he would actually command me, all I wanted to do was hold my mate, but I crossed his boundaries and now I'm paying for it.

________END OF FLASHBACK______

That was the most embarrassing day of my life and even though it's been 4 days after that terrible event, I was no closer to having my mate back.

I missed him, I missed him so much.

I've become so desperate for his scent, I was hugging my comforter and pillows for days after he left and when his scent completely faded away, I took to sleeping on the floor outside of his room.

Eating had become harder, I hadn't showered since he commanded me because I wanted his scent, I craved it and knowing it was all over my skin from that day, I couldn't bring myself to wash it away.

I couldn't even get a good look at him because of his distance command, having to leave the room everytime he came in was brutal. His speech command was even worse for me because I couldn't even talk to him unless he said something to me first, which he rarely did. So I took to being a damn mute.

Feeling the effects of his commands over me was just awful. This has been the most brutal week of my life.

Why can't I just get my shit together?

Why can't I just figure out how to be a perfect mate?

Getting up from my position on the floor in front of his room, I picked up my blanket and pillow, taking them to my room before I went down to the kitchen to try and eat something. I didn't have my hopes for that though, ever since Raiden left me, eating seemed trivial.

I opened the fridge to scan the items before sighing and grabbing the apple juice container. Eating wouldn't be happening today either.

What's the point?

As soon as I grabbed a glass from the cabinet, my mates scent hit me. That mouthwatering sandalwood, pinecone and leather all mixed together to create the perfection that is all of him.

The excitement I felt inhaling his scent was short lived as I remembered his distance command. I prayed that he had dropped it by now, I mean it's been a week, I get it.

I won't overstep his boundaries anymore. I won't talk to him unless he wants to talk to me and I won't touch him until he lets me.

As soon as he walks in, my heart drops as I feel his command pushing me to leave the kitchen. I set the glass down and quickly make my way out, hanging my head as Raiden watched me leave.

My feet brought me to the livingroom and I took a deep breath when I felt his command simmer to a controllable level. Sinking into the couch, I turn the TV on to find something to watch just as I heard the front door open.

I wanted to see who just entered my packhouse, but I couldn't leave the livingroom because the front door is too close to the kitchen and I knew I couldn't be around Raiden. So I waited until I heard voices.

All of which belonged to my family. I smiled, excited that I would have some form of company that I could actually speak to. Wolves don't do well in solitude and that's exactly how I've been living for the past week. I needed this.

Garrett and Theo walked in holding beer and smiling. I completely forgot about our weekly family time. We played games all day, watched tv, cooked dinner and just doesn't spent time together, enjoying each other's company.

"Hey bro! We brought beer!" Garrett says holding up the 6 pack.

"I see that." I laughed getting off the couch to hug him and Theo.

"Dude, you're skinny man. Have you not been eating?" Theo asked looking over at my appearance.

"No, not really." I answer honestly, watching as they look at each other before looking back at me.

"Problems with Raiden?" Garrett asks, I wanted to answer but I knew I couldn't speak about it unless my mate dropped his command, so all I could do was nod.

We all share a knowing look before I shake my head.

"Let's just have fun." I say, trying my best to hold my smile.

We all walked into the TV room to start setting up the games on the table.

Laughter filled the room as my family slowly started trickling in, Gabe and Avery included, even Hunter and Roman joined us, not surprising me when the room suddenly got louder because of their presence.

Those two are hilarious together, they clearly were a perfect match. Hunter is loud, Rome is just as loud, Hunter argues and throws insults and Rome just laughs it off.

Literally a perfect match made in the God and Goddess realm.

I sat down inbetween Kaylie and aunty Sophie, knowing how Raiden felt about me being around unmated wolves, like Garrett and Theo.

Then our card game began, I was seriously enjoying myself. The joy my family brought me was immense and I needed this so much.

I thought I would be able to actually have a good day, until my mate's scent hit me again and I closed my eyes, knowing all too well what that meant.

He walked in the TV room greeting his brother and then took a seat in the corner of the room, his distance command forcing me to leave.

I get up from the table and start walking towards the door.

"Hey Dylan, where are you going?" Garrett asks.

"Yeah we're about to start another game." Theo says.

"I can't stay." I whispered before walking out of the TV room, running up the stairs and into my room before I fall to the floor again and cry out in despair.

I deserve all of this, I know I do, but that doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt.

It hurts so fucking much.

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