Chapter 58

Lydia Pov

"What were you doing?" I repeated myself again. Aiden and Sira refused to tell me what they were doing out there when they were supposed to be at home. Both Noah and Jack are silent and simply gaze down at their feet, as if they are guilty of something. I wouldn't have pressed them if Sarah hadn't noticed the blood marks on their hands. 

That's when I lost it. 

I was becoming irritated since neither of them was answering. What if something terrible happened? "Sira, I will not repe—-" "We were investigating on someone," Aiden explained.

 "Who?" Lila was curious. Sira's eyes were filled with guilt and sadness as I looked at her. This is not a promising sign. "The people who raped you"

Shocked. I'm taken aback. I couldn't think about knowing they were monitoring on them. "Why?" was all I could think of. 

"Lydia, they have hurt you and are happily living their lives. That's not fair to you. They are getting some goodnight sleep, not you. I couldn't stand hearing they were still alive, so I asked Aiden for help, which he agreed to. " I turned to see Aiden, but his gaze did not meet mine.

 "Aiden," I said quietly.

 "Lydia, knowing they are alive after what they did, I am sorry, But I couldn't do it." he replied with guilt in his voice.

"Are you guys serious right now? "I shook my head, refusing to believe anything. 

"What exactly did you do to them?" I questioned, glancing at four of them. Noah and Jack were laughing quietly behind them, and when I looked at them, they swiftly covered their mouths with a cough, trying not to laugh. 

"Lyd—" "What did you two do?" not taking my gaze away from them ."Aid–".

"We tortured them to death; in short, they may not be able to see or move their bodies for the rest of their lives, but they are alive," Sira stated, without a wince or quiver in her voice. I rose up and paced around, shaking my head. Sira, she did it. 

I mean, she may have anger issues, but tormenting someone that viciously is out of character for her. I felt a hand on my shoulder as I turned to face the person Sarah was standing next to. I glanced at them. 

"Why, why would you do it when you know it's in the past?" 

I forgot about it. 

It no longer bothers me. I don't care if they're living or dead. They sexually assaulted me. I ran, found a wonderful family and am now over it. Done. "I got over it."

 "But I didn't Lydia, I didn't. I did mind it even though one of them was dead 2 years ago so there were only two guys there." Sira said.

"Aiden, why would you do this, you are the adult over here thinking taking Sira with you torturing people, I mean this is not good for her and you know it."

 "What do you mean he is the adult in the situation Lydia. I am an adult myself, I know what decisions I should take or not."

"Sira, you're 19 years old, and he's 26. I believe he is the adult here, and you are a child who is unsure what to do. All you did was allow your anger take over and make decisions for you, and Aiden should have told you how bad it is to act on judgments made when you are furious. But I was mistaken. Aiden here acted like a child, rushing into conclusions rather than thinking things through." I ranted out.

 "Listen, Lydia, please unders—" Aiden started but got cut off.

"This is the second time you've called me a child, Lydia." Sira muttered breathing heavily.

 "What should I do, Sira? Tell me when you're the one doing things the way a child would."

 "OK, guys, relax, everything is OK," Diana exclaimed as she approached us.

"No, wait a minute, Diana. So you're saying I make decisions out of anger, Lydia? Is this what you're saying I should have thought, or should I let those bastards who fucking raped you enjoy their lives?" 

"Yes, Sira, that's what I mean; consider before you act, but you'd never do that. You never listen and always do what you want." 

"Ohh I'm sorry, I tortured those morons because they hurt the love of my life, I'm sorry I felt fury rising up in me while you were crying and telling us how they fucking raped you."

"Yes, Sira. You could have come to me, talked to me, and told me. I could have helped you" I said raising my voice at her.

 "Yeah, what would you say? Let me guess, Ignore it, Sira, they're not worth our time, it's in the past." she replied mocking me.

"Yes I—" 

"Please, Lydia, don't expect me to go on with our happy lives without thinking about them, even though they are still alive and may be raping someone else. Who knows?"

 "It's okay, guys, they made a mistake—" Sarah tried intervening to stop the fight but I interrupted her.

"Sarah, don't even think of saying the word mistake. You know it isn't, you know I don't call for violence, and that's what Sira and Aiden did, but she wouldn't have done it if her parents were there to teach her simple things instead of leaving on for business trips." I said pacing around the room trying to come with things for what they did.

 I heard something fall and looked forward to see Sira's phone on the ground and looked up to see her eyes in tears, then it hit me what I said. That was a mistake on my part. I looked around, soaking in everyone reaction. I walked up to Sira trying to comfort and say I din't mean it. And I surely din't. 

"Sira I—" "Don't," she said, shutting her eyes and looking up at the ceiling. I feel like I said something stupid. Knowing how much it hurts me to utter such things to her, she must be in her worst state, It shocked me, knowing how she felt about her parents and knowing I am the one who said it. 

She is Broken and hurt because of me. She looked at me as she opened her eyes. 

" I'm sorry Lydia, I'm sorry my parents weren't there for me while they worked their butts off to provide me with an education. I'm sorry to tell you that my parents were the best parents in the world, and it was my fault that I was giving them troubles in their lives. They still loved me." 

She took a long breath to relax herself, but it didn't work. I moved up to her to take her in my arms and apologize for saying that, but I couldn't because I was frozen on my feet. It's like I couldn't move my feet. 

" Lydia, you should have known that if I had worked on my judgments made while I was angry, Then I would have given you to Richard when he called to tell me that my parents had died and that I should send you to him so that no one close to me dies. But I didn't because I loved you, and if I had been furious at the time and made a choice, I would have sent you right away knowing my friends would be secure, and he wouldn't hurt anyone just to get you." She took a stride towards me, her eyes bloodshot crimson and tears streaming down her cheeks. Aiden held her by placing his hand on her shoulder, and she shrugged it off.

"If I had acted on my anger, I would have said that at least my parents worked their butts off to earn money for my education, rather than taking money from strangers to fuck their own fucking daughter. But I didn't because that's what I'd say when I'm angry and not thinking properly, and what you say about how I act on things without second guessing. That's what you did Lydia, dragging my parents into the argument and criticizing them for how they should have raised me, despite the fact that you fucking know I'm the one to blame for not being a great daughter to them when they were the best ones I had."

Her hands trembled as she closed her eyes. I approached her, grasping her hands, but she moved away as soon as I touched her. It was incredibly painful knowing she din't want to be near or let me comfort her. 

I motioned for Lila to approach her and hold her hands but before she could Sira said "Lastly, Lydia, if I act on my furious decisions, I might easily blame you for the death of my parents, but guess what? I didn't. The only thing I am glad what my parents taught me was to love and protect the one person who you wish to spend your life with. That's what I did protected you, loved you and tortured the bastards who hurt you. But I guess that was the wrong thing they taught me before they died." She looked at me. "Right, because that's what I did now"

 Hearing her say that brought me to the shock, isn't it right that it is my fault that her parents aren't here with her. My fault. But she didn't blame me and kept loving me risking her and her friend's life for me. 

"You are the one that questioned my parents upbringing without hesitation. You are the one who acted on your thought while you are angry and din't think once bringing my parents in it. You Lydia." She stated her every single word laced with anger and venom in it. She walked backwards to the door, leaving me in the living room with everyone else.

She opened the door and said her last lines without even looking at me. "Lydia, remember that I was the one who loved you; I didn't beg you to love me back or forced you. But you acted on it, and now I'm wondering whether you ever question why you acted on your feelings of being in love with a child Lydia, not an adult "She watched others.

 "Don't wait up for me, you guys have dinner," she said as she exited, slamming the door tight behind her. My legs buckled and I collapsed on the ground, sobbing furiously. My world was destroyed, I couldn't breathe, and I couldn't think.

 I hurt her.