"Vidcon vidcon vidcon vidcon" I chanted eagerly as the four of us walked out the door

"Willow, we get that you're excited for Vidcon but for the love of god please shut the hell up" Clay groaned as he locked the door behind us

"Oh c'mon Clay, it's her first Vidcon let her be excited" Sapnao says, wrapping an arm around my shoulder

"Yeah! At least SOMEONE here cares about me" I say, climbing into the car

"He's only pretending to be on your side since it's your turn for the aux and he wants it" Clay sighs, getting into the driver's seat

Sapnap scoffs "You're such a bitch, Clay"

"I don't care. I'd rather hear them sing depressing love songs than you rap for an hour straight" He starts the car up and backs out the driveway

"Well, jokes on you, we already agreed that I get to pick 3 songs. So you get my rapping either way. Suck my dick" He smiles, grabbing the aux

"Seriously, Willow? What'd he even do to convince you?" George asks from beside me

"He bought my IHop and gave me breakfast in bread. Mama likes her strawberry pancakes" I say, putting in one of my airpods

"You bought her an entire breakfast just go get three songs in the car?" George questions

"Well I was aiming to get it for the whole car ride but I settled for 3 songs" He says quickly before putting the volume on 100%

Immediately everyone else in the car screams in protest

"SAPNAP TURN THAT THE FUCK DOWN BEFORE I FUCKING SNAP YOUR GOD DAMN SPINE" I yell before looking down at my phone

Upon my screen lays a very shocked Jaxon also driving to the airport

"Oh hello my love" I say, smiling at the sight of them

"OH MY GOD EWWWW, can I please turn the volume up if they're gonna be all sappy and shit?" He whines

"Shut the fuck up, you're just jealous cause the closest thing you've seen to pussy is the inside of an orange" I snap

The whole car goes silent

"Christ, Willow. Who pissed in your cheerios?" Jaxon asks

"I'm not pissed, just stating facts" I say, yanking the cord from Sapnap's hands in the seat in front of me

I plug in the aux, playing my perfected car playlist and quietly talked to Jaxon the remainder of the car ride.

This vidcon was filled with things that I'd be participating in. I listed them all out on my notes app, because that is the most professional place to put them.

1-2pmlgbtq+ talk: me, jax

4:30-5:45 women

6-10pm twitch event

10-10:45 pictionary: me, jax

2-3:30pm dsmp panel: me, jax

4:00pm meet n greet :)))

1-2pm unmasked!!: me n jax

Vidcon was talking place in the UK

And I recently turned 18

Y'know whats legal when you're 18 in the UK?

"Is your number one goal of this trip seriously to get drunk as hell?" Jaxon asks as he chomps down his airport Subway

"Abso-fucking-lutely" I respond, taking a sip of my canes lemonade

"Wanna know what my number one goal was at my first Vidcon? Not fucking embarrassing myself in front of everyone. And you wanna get drunk at a Twitch party in front of several people incredibly more mature than us?" He explains

I think for a moment before swallowing my lemony drink "Yes sir, that is exactly how I want my first legal experience with alcohol to go"

"You've never drank before? That slightly surprises me" They say, putting their mask back on and going to throw away their trash

"Honey, I said my first LEGAL experience, not my first experience in general" I point the toasted bread I just took a bite out of at the camera

He giggles and I can see his smile through the creasing of his eyes. Even when they had their mask on, their smile never failed to make me happy.

"Willow, stop being down bad and eat your damn food. Our flight is gonna be called soon" George yells from a different table, because apparently the boys did not want to sit with me and my "Discord kitten boyfriend"

"Go suck Clay's dick in the bathroom and let me eat in peace" I yell back, flipping him off

"You and those comebacks today, hmm?" Jax questions

"Yeahh" I respond weakly, finishing up my food

"What's got you so antsy?" They continue

I give a small smile

He knows me too well

"It's really just a mix of things. I'm excited because I get to see all my friends and meet my fans, but I'm anxious because there's going to be so many people constantly around me. And then I'll have to go on this big stage in front of everyone and try not to fuck up or be awkward. But then I'm also really really excited to see you and you know how eager I get when I get to see you. So it's just a lot of emotions all at the same time" I explained

"I get it, love. I'm sorry you're so stressed. You know, if you start feeling to anxious then you can back out at anytime. No one is going to blame you for not participating in something if its too much. Your mental health comes before anything else. And I'm gonna be right by your side the entire time, so if you ever need anything just let me know" He reassures

"Thank you for being here for me, Jax, I love you" I smile and let out a small breath of relief

"Of course, I love you the most, you've always got a hand to hold" He holds up his hand to the camera

I giggle before realization washes over me "Actually, we'll have to watch ourselves with the hand holding if we don't wanna get exposed at a Vidcon"

"Oh shit, you're right" He says, fully stopping in his tracks

"So no hand holding, no kisses, no longingly gazing into my eyes, no pushing hair behind my ear-" I tease

"Okay okay I get it, I don't get to show my beautiful girlfriend how much I love her to the public just yet"

"You are such a hopeless romantic" I stand up, starting to walk towards the gate for the plane

"Technically I'm a hopeful romantic since I've got you" He winks

"Shut up and get on your god damn plane"

"Yes ma'am, I love you, see you soon" I could hear the grin in his voice

"Love you too, cutie. See you soon"

And with that we both hung up as we walked into our respective gates

This is gonna be great..