Dead always appears when things get tough as a solution to the problem. Almost as a sign from heaven, as if it was the answer to every prayer.

That's what always feels like. Doesn't mean one will act on it.

It just means that -for me at least- things are getting hard and I'm unable to comprehend what's happening so instead of trying to figure it out, that dark thought shows up.

So I just stand there watching it, feeling it with the tip of my tongue don't get me wrong it's really tempting, but got to stick around a bit more, lot of bitc*** to prove wrong.