(Age nineteen )

'I don't know how i'm gonna tell him.'I thought as I frantically ran my hands through my hair looking at this positive '+' pregnancy test in my hand.

I bounce my leg up and down scared out of my mind in anticipation as I listen to the ring of his phone number.

"Hello."I hear his voice at the end of the line sounding like he just woke up.

"Trey I have something really important to talk to you about can you come over?"I said trying not sound upset.

"Uh..yea sure. I'll call you when i'm outside baby."he said hanging up.I smiled a little remembering he said 'he'll love me no matter what.'Maybe that stills applies to this situation.

I got up and splashed my face with water trying to relax and get myself together before Trey gets here.

I grabbed my phone hearing it ring on the counter knowing it was him.

"I'm outside."he said and I replied back a quick 'okay' hanging up.

I walked into the living room opening the door to see him standing there with his hands in his pockets looking around until he noticed I opened the door then smiled looking at me.

"Hi baby."he said pecking my lips while giving me a small hug then walking inside sitting on the couch.

I closed the door and walked over sitting beside him not really knowing where to start.I nervously rubbed my sweaty hands on my jeans and let out a nervous breath turning to him.

"So you got something to tell me?"he said turning his attention to me putting his phone in his pocket.

"Yes,just promise you won't be mad at me okay."I said letting a tear fall.He's probably going to leave me, I can just feel it.

'He's not gonna want a baby.'

'He's worrying about his football career he doesn't need you and a baby dragging him down.'

These are the things I keep hearing in my head but i'm trying to convince myself otherwise. He reached up cupping my face and using his thumb to wipe the stray tear.

"What's wrong baby? Did I do something? Just tell me."he said sounding worried.

"I'm pregnant."I said in a barley audible whisper then busting into tears putting my head in my hands.

"What?"he said not believing or not hearing what I said correctly.

"I-i said i'm pregnant, with your baby Trey."I said through my tears.

He sighed getting up pacing back and forth rubbing his hands over his face in frustration. Then he turned to me and said."You gotta get rid of it."

I look at him shocked and anger at the same time saying."I am not getting rid of our baby Trey."

I rubbed my for now flat stomach and said."I thought you said you would love me no matter what? What happened to that?"

He walked over to me and kissed me on my forhead cupping my face saying. "You know I love you don't even think for a second that I don't. But i'm trying to start my football career and you and this baby will just hold me back."

More tears began to fall as I said "But-"then I got cut off by Trey again.

"It's either me or that baby."He said putting his hands up in defeat.

"Your really gonna make me choose!?"I screamed at him. He just shook his head disappointed saying.

"You know what keep the baby, keep it.Just know I won't be around for it,I have to work on me and my career right now."He said walking out the door passing my mother as she was making her way from work in the house with groceries.

Putting the groceries and the keys down on the counter and taking of her jacket she walked over to me sitting down next me rubbing my back and asked."What was that all about?"

"I'm pregnant ma,and Trey is to worried about his career to care."I said sighing running my hand through my hair.

"Oh,well a baby is a lot of responsibility. You know your still finishing school right? Because school is almost over anyway,this is your last year.You can probably go to college for a little while then have to finish from home online,but I will support you and my grandbaby even of Trey won't."She said pulling me into a big loving hug.

"Thank you mama I love you."I said still hugging her.

"I love you to baby."

*

(Age twenty-four)

Now look at me,CEO of a publishing company called "Jameson Inc." Yup,I started as an intern and worked my way up and with the power and money of my cousin Anthony who helped me buy the company.

I ended up having a beautiful baby girl and named her Elizabeth and she is my pride and joy and very smart.To smart sometimes if you ask me,but my mama spoils her and I love her.

I know it's wrong to tell her that her dad is in heaven but I don't want her getting her hopes up for something that's not coming. I know i'm gonna have to explain it to her eventually but for right now this is what i'm doing.

I am broken out off my thoughts as I hear my babygirl running up to me ready for school.

"Mommy,mommy look I got myself ready with nothing backwards this time!"She said spinning around showing me the clothes I had out for her in her room.

"Hmmm,let me check for myself self."I said walking around her rubbing my chin as if I had a beard while she giggled and laughed.

"Mommy I really did it!"she said said wiping of her clothes even though they weren't dirty.

I bent down to her height infront of her sticking out my hand and said."I approve,A+.Gimmie a high five."

She slapped my hand and gave me hug and kiss on the cheek.

"Ready for your first day?"I said standing back up wiping the wrinkles from my skirt.

She eagerly nodded saying."Yea i'm a big girl now."

I picked up her lunchbox and my briefcase and keys walking out the door. Once we got to the to the car I placed her in her car seat and made sure it was secured. As we drove to the school we sang old McDonald and pointed out how many red and blue cars we saw passing by.

When we got to the school and found out what class she was in there was a commotion of women old and young crowding the door,some with their kids who probably haven't even got to their assigned classes yet.

"What's going on mommy?"Lizzy said trying to see through the crowd standing on her tippy toes even though she was no bigger than a minute.

"I don't know baby, but i'm gonna find out because that is your class."I said picking her up with her legs latching around my waist as I pushed through say 'excuse me.'

I finally got through and seen what the commotion was all about.Their was this sex god with tattoos as a teacher for the class!But that is still no reason to act like a teenager seeing their crush,now the younger me would be doing the same but i'm older now with child,responsibility comes first.

The sex god walked over to me and Lizzy sticking out his tattoo covered hand for me to shake introducing himself. "I'm Jeremy Thomas, and I am teaching your daughter this year."

I placed my small hand his large one with my other still hold on to Lizzy introducing myself as well."Destiny Jameson."

He leaned in near Elisabeth and said."And who might you be?"

She gave him a toothy-well toothless grin and said."I'm Elisabeth and i'm... this many years old!How old are you?"she said counting but then putting up six fingers.

"Well I can't really do it on my fingers but can you count past twenty?"he asked holding up his hands.Past twenty?Is he thirty? Fourty maybe?

She eagerly nodded as I put her down and said."Mhm,I can count to 50.That's almost to one hundred."

"Well i'm twenty plus three more, now what's that?"he asked and she put up her hands mumbling to herself for while and looking like she was counting on her little fingers until she put up two fingers in on hand and three on the other and said.

"That's twenty three!"she jumped up and down clapping that she got the answer. He crouched down to her height and said."Now how about you got sit at a table your comfortable at and we can begin the day, okay?"

She nodded and went to a table in the middle of the room and sat next to a little girl.

"You can stay for awhile and watch if you want it's only the first day."He said shrugging. I nodded saying.

"Only for a little while because I have work."I said as he leaded me to a seat next to his desk then went to the front of the class.

"Okay so how is everyone today?"He asked the class,all you heard was little mumbles. He nodded clapping his hands together and said."Okay let's try that again, HOW'S EVERYBODY DOING TO DAY?"

"GOOD!"The class chorused.

"Now that's better.Now I am you teacher Mr.Thomas.But you guys can call me, Mr.T if you want.Now we are all going to get to know each other and let's start with me,you can ask any questions you like don't be shy."He said writing his name on the board then pulling out a chair turning it backwards and sat in front of the class.

One little boy raised his hand and asked."Are you a nice teacher?"

Jeremy nodded saying."Of coarse,as long as you be a good student,are you a good student?"

The boy shyly nodded and then a little girl raised her hand and said while pointing at his arm that was slightly exposed showing off his tattoos."Did those hurt you?"

"Nope,i'm a big boy.But this kind of hurt a little though."He said pointing at his neck.

"I didn't know whether or not it would mess up my voice and I would come back like this."he said making his voice sound like he was screaming and whispering at the same time which made the hole class laugh.

"Alright enough about me,how about you guys?Tell about yourselves, starting with you.You all don't have to go today because I know some of you are shy but don't worry i'm a gentle giant."he said pointing at a little boy with red curly hair then sent me a wink which caused me to blush.

"My name is James, I am six and I like the color red."he said standing you introducing himself and sitting back down.

"How many of us like red?"Jeremy asked,not a lot of kids raised their hands.He nodded and said. "Not a lot of red fans here I see."

Then another girl with blonde hair up in a bun said."My name is Cindy and I like Barbies,Dancing and Pink."

Then my baby got up and said."M-my name is Elisabeth,i'm six and I like to read and go to the park."She sat down then turned to me and I gave her two thumbs up with a big smile.

She smiled back and turned back around. I checked my watch seeing I needed to go because I was gonna be late for a meeting I have.

I took a sticky note off of his desk and wrote my name and number on it and stuck it on a random folder on his desk.

As I made my way out the door he looked at me with furrowed eyebrows and I showed him my watch mouthing 'I gotta go',he nodded and continued to teach the class.

As I walked into work my assistant and best friend since I started this job Lacy asked."Why so late?"not even looking from the computer.

"First day of school."I said getting to the point of things as I put my briefcase on my desk turning on my computer. She got up from her desk and walked over to me as I typed away on the computer.

Sitting on the edge of my desk she asked."So is the teacher hot?"

I looked away then looked at the computer ignoring the question she asked.

"No way, he is!Tell me about him and I mean everything."she said making me stop work and take a small break to talk to her.

I sighed playfully saying."If I must."

"You must."she said eagerly wanting me to tell her.

"Well I don't know much but the simple things,like his name is Jeremy.He's 23,blue eyes, and a lot of tattoos from what I can see."I said explaining to her and she furrowed her eyebrows.

"A lot of tattoos on a kindergarten teacher? Welp,there's a first for everything."she said carelessly shrugging.

I thought back to his gorgeous chiseled features and piercing blue eyes and felt the blood rushing to my face as I started blushing.

"Aww your blushing, I think someone has a crush!Let me find out your being a naughty student and have to call Mr.Jeremy for your detention. Dessy and Jeremy kissing in a tree K-I-S-S-I-N-G..."she said dancing out of my office.

I blushed harder laughing playfully screaming."Get back to work!"