After Keenans and my talk, Willow and I went shopping. It sounds strange. But spending money was the only way of trying to forget what he said.

It was late. The shops were closing already and Willow was still trying on some Victoria's secret. "Gianna!" she shouts at me and rips me out of my thoughts.

"Sorry. I was gone for a second. What did you say?" I ask her as I look at her, standing in the changing room. She looks worried. "Are you okay? You're zoning out all the time? Is your circuitry alright? Do you need to sit down?"

"No. I'm good." Willow puts her hands to her hips and waits to get the right answer. But she won't get one. "I asked you what you think of the dress?" Looking down at her, she's wearing a soft pink dress. She looks amazing in it. So I tell her to buy it.

Will then insisted on going to starbucks. "You're not getting something to eat?" She looked at me in confusal when she heard me ordering a water. My order was ready sooner than hers, so I took a seat at a table and waited for my friend to come over.

I know that look in her face. I know what's about to come. And I can't hear it anymore. "You haven't eaten a thing today, Gianna." She says as she takes a seat on the chair next to me. "I did." "You ate an apple before noon, G." "I'm just not hungry today."

Will knows she's not winning this. She just sighs and cups her hands over mine. "Please promise me you will eat something after you get home?" Promise?

"Promise."

I got home after dropping Will off at hers at eight. Running out of the car, up the stairs and waiting for the front door to open, I run into the house and escape the freezing air outside.

I hear my parents talk in the living room. Laughing. So they probably didn't hear me coming home. Getting up the stairs as quiet as possible, what turns out to be hard with heels on, I drop the bags off as soon as I reach the room and fall against the wall.

Then, I finally started removing my makeup, getting out of my clothes and into one oversized shirt I once stole from Trevor.

The heavy covers and my king size bed were cold when I slipped my body between them. The blanket was so heavy, it always makes me feel safe whenever I am under it. But today... there is nothing but thoughts going through my head.

I hear bare feet running towards my bedroom and then the door bursts open, light from the hallway coming into the dark room. "You're home! Oh shit. Did you hit your toe or something?" My sister must've noticed the lone tears in my face before I did.

"Do you want me to get mom or dad?" Eliana realized it wasn't my toe... "Can you hug me?" I ask her?

I understand her reaction. I never let someone close to me when I'm crying or not able to control my feelings. It's even hard for me to show them to my mom. "Are you drunk? On drugs?" Eliana clasps her hands over her mouth, acting a surprised face on it, making me giggle a little bit.

"Please just shut up and hug me, okay?" I ask her again, already stretching my arms out for her. She slowly walks over to me and under the blankets, pulling me close to her as soon as she is able to grab me.

"Tell me. What's wrong? Who's bones do I have to break?" My head is laying on her chest as she strokes my hair softly. "Do you think I'm a slut?" I ask her quietly. She stills with her hands and hesitates for a moment before continuing. I know, El. I know we've already been there before. I know you're concerned.

"Did you see him? Did he talk to you? Are you eating?" No, no and no... "It doesn't have anything to do with him... But. Keenan. He talked to me today. And he practically called me one. So I needed your honest opinion because yours is one of the most important ones to me."

Eliana sits up, cups my face with her hands and looks at me, smiling weakly. "You're everything but a slut, Gigi. Please know that. Know your worth... I never saw up to someone like I do to you. You are an inspiration to everyone that meets you. Don't let his words get to your feelings. Not again. Not those kind of words."

She doesn't know what that means to me... "And he may be hot. But breaking his bones would be easier because of his age than breaking Jacobs bones for example. So he better behave and not insult you. I'm sleeping with you tonight."

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Friday evening

I've been tense the whole fucking day already. Being frustrated with myself. The weather has been freezing cold for the last days now. The cold rain that is combined with the wind isn't making it any better.

Today is a bad day. Probably a day I would like to bann out of the calendar if it would be possible.

I was on my way to Aiden and Adrianas apartment. Got finished with the stuff from the university and head straight from it to them. I'm not driving when it's raining.

So I walked to the apartment. And then... when I was crossing the street...

My heart stilled. This can't be real. It can't.

But I see it. It is real. My eyes can't fool me

She's standing there. On the other side of the fucking street. I'm panicking. I'm blinking once and then she's gone.

My tears fall out of my eyes. I'm so fucking done. The elevator ride seemed to be the longest one I ever had to have but I was even more relieved when I finally reached their door.

"Hey, Keen. Oh shit." Aiden mutters as he sees me. My heartbeat isn't working the way it should. I'm panicking. This never happens.

"I saw her. I fucking saw her, Aiden, please believe me."

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I love Eliana. Feel like she's going to be one of my favs.

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