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Also, I would like to state that this chapter isn't very long. I'm trying to plan out the rest of the story but I wanted to give you guys an update. :)

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Watching Nate's retreating back I half expected him to turn back around and beat my face in. That's what he would usually do anyway. His fists were clenched at his sides as he fought off his inner demon, unlike what I had done.

Once he was out of view I turned my attention to the wooden bat that I was still clutching tightly. Staring at the object I still couldn't believe what I had done. I tossed the instrument on the ground just needing it out of my hold. Gaping at my shaky red hands nearly raw from the immense grip that I had on it and the small clauses were beginning for form across my palms.

I was so set in my tracks that Nate was a monster that I ignored my own actions. Jamie was right, I too am a monster.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" Brett screamed his voice growing louder and I knew he was descending down the steps and making his way to me. Spinning around I caught his dark, disapproving eyes. "Why would you do that?" He spat harshly stopping only inches in front of me.

"I...I..." I stammered unable to explain my actions. As much as I believed Nate deserved the beating of a lifetime I wasn't proud of my actions. Never in my life would I thought I would attack someone from behind. "I hate him" I muttered, that being the best way to describe my confusing feelings.

Arching his eyebrows in a questioning manor, he cocked his head to the right. "That was way beyond what was necessary Carter, that was weak as shit" he critized. "I know you guys don't have the best track record but attacking him when he's turned around is wrong on so many levels."

"Are you fucking kidding me?" I asked breathlessly. "You're going to take his side?! He stole my mate!" I yelled desperately feeling my anger grow once again as my wolf began to stir about. Why does no one understand why I'm pissed? It's obviously really.

"Get over it!" Brett ordered his voice cracking as it broke sound barriers. My body froze at his command, as if forgetting Jamie was some easy task that I could fulfill without thought.

Stunned I restated his demand. "Get over it?" I whispered pitifully. "How am I suppose to get over the fact that I lost my mate?" I asked him seriously. How does one ever move on from the fact that they lost their soulmate? They don't.

He let out a long exaggerated sigh as his temper died down. "I don't know how man, but you need to let it go. Holding on to this is only hurting you. Look at who you've become" he murmured gesturing his head to the bat laying in the grass. "This isn't who you are Carter."

"It's who I've become...because of him" I proclaimed my mouth becoming tight as my teeth ground against one another.

"Stop blaming Nate for your problems" he retorted easily as though Nate wasn't the complete cause of all my pain. He made these choices an so am suppose to live with them and not let them effect me? I tried that. When Nate first marked Jamie I was furious. However, I had Jamie, I knew she didn't want Nate and that made the facts bare able. Now that I lost the one person I was suppose to depend on I'm suppose to be joyful? Fuck that.

I don't understand how everyone is just disregarding what he did. Besides claiming her- which was enough for me. He freaking attacked her! Her literally allowed his wolf to bite her face yet I'm the bad guy for hitting him a bat? The irony.

"I can't believe you right now" I chuckled taking a step back and turning my gaze to everyone behind him, watching our exchange intently. "You are my brother yet you are siding with Nate" I scoffed "why? Because of Chloe? It's nice to have a mate huh?" I pushed being fueled by rage and annoyance.

"Carter, it's not like that and you know it."

"Yes it is!" I hissed running my hands through my hair, tugging on the ends in the process. "You are suppose to have my back!" I vociferated judge mentally, my chest rising and falling dramatically as his betrayal set in. "I don't fit in your perfect life any more so you're just going to cut me out? You want a baby and want me to forgive Nate in order to make you happy but you can't support me enough to-"

"To what Carter?" He cut me off now glowering into my eyes, warning me to watch myself. "We want you there that's why Nate came here. You're just too thick headed to see that he's actually trying." Nate trying? I could laugh for days with that joke. The only thing that he tried at was revenge. Whatever he's up to now isn't about proving himself. I know that monster better then anyone so trust me when I tell you that's exactly what he is.

"Oh bullshit" I continued provoking him with every word that I spoke. "You forgot about me a long time ago so you can be loyal to your mate and her demon spawn of a brother" I hissed through gritted teeth causing a loud growl to come from behind my brother. Knowing it was Chloe I turned my attention to her. "You know it's true!" I yelped as she jumped over the steps, making her way to me without fear.

Trent trying to be the mediator grabbed her forearm in an attempt to stop her though she shoved him off effortlessly. These highbred genes are ridiculous. "Stay out of it please" Brett begged her as she made her way to us. Taking a hold of her hand he attempted to soothe her protective instincts. "He doesn't mean it."

"Yes I do" I assured them with a slight nod of my head. In that instant the blue of her eyes disappeared and a midnight black replaced them. "You should understand better then anyone Chloe" I began perking her interst as she crossed her thin arms over her small chest waiting for me to continue. "You are loyal to Nate if he's right or wrong yet my own brother is more concerned about advancing his ranking then-"

"You are so selfish" she interjected hatefully. "Brett has defended you every day. When I came here to talk to Jamie he was pissed, we fought for hours because he thought I was carelessly hurting you-"

"You were" I cut in causing Brett to now snarl for my disrespect.

Smiling lightly she nodded letting me know she was aware of the pain her actions caused. I couldn't help but think if Chloe never came to visit and fill Jamie's head with thoughts of Nate that we may still be together. "I would do anything for my brother just like Brett is doing everything in his power to make you happy in anyway he can. No one can bring Jamie back to you but he's trying to make you happy in every other aspect. Realize that before you run your mouth" she spat venom dripping from her voice as she defended him.

This is absolutely absurd. I'm seriously getting lectured by my lap dog brother and a direct blood line to a black hearted beast. It wasn't hard to find out who wore the pants in their relationship. Peering to my brother I almost felt bad for how I treated him. That was quickly pushed from my mind when I realized who he was protecting. "If you wanted me happy you would leave Paquete de Luna de Sangre."

"You know Carter you are the worst brother. You fucked up and you want me to give up my mate and future because he can't keep it in your pants? Being your brother is a fucking chore. You want to blame Nate and Jamie for your pain yet no one told you to break the rules and sleep with Lynn and Heather. You made your own bed and I'm done trying to clean your mess" he seethed grabbing Chloe's hand and walking away- no doubt to kiss his Alpha's ass.

Turning my attention back to Jamie's family I knew they weren't happy. Mary looked sickened by my presence where as George seemed shocked and Trent, who had grown to be a very good friend looked pissed beyond belief. La Meute de La Lune Bleue had become my new home, my safe place but now I wasn't feeling very welcomed.

Maybe Brett was right, I'm just doing this to myself. Not wanting to flip out on them like I had done to Nate, Brett, and Chloe I dove into my large wolf. His paws instantly smacking against the cold grass. Without another word I charged off into the Forrest.

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Hey guys! So I know I'm going to have some people saying "ugh why can't Carter be happy?!" While others are saying "you tell him Brett!" So to answer your questions for you.

Carter will be at peace however, he needs to hit rock bottom. Sometimes you need everyone to hate on you in order to realize that you're in charge of your own destiny.

As for Brett... I'm with you guys! Tell him Brett! ;) who better for Carter to listen to then his own brother?

Now time for my questions... Do you think Carter is right when feeling that Brett is just looking for an advance instead of backing him up? If you were Brett how would you have handled the whole Nate vs Carter situation? Please don't forget to !