||Murat POV||

I quickly ran and before she took a step forward, I pulled her back. I turned her around and shook her, "Are you mad? You will get die if I didn't come here and save you," I yelled at her who was staring at me blankly and hugged her.

She got me scared. What if I didn't come and she... No. She was now save and with me. I pulled away from the hug but still had my arm around her and rested my left hand on her cheeks.

I creased her cheeks and picked her up in my arms when I noticed her getting faint. I carried her to my room and put her on my bed gently. I pulled covers on her and sat beside her.

I kissed her on both sides of her soft cheeks then at her forehead. "I am so sorry. I shouldn't had said that words to you. It all happened because of me," I whispered looking at her and moved her hairs from her face.

My mind went to her diary. She wrote diary maybe I got to know her by reading her diary. I knew I shouldn't do this but I wanted to know but curious got me. I went to her room and picked her diary from her bed and went back to my room.

I sat beside her on the bed and opened the first page mumbling a sorry to her. I didn't expect this all in her diary. I didn't know the things she wrote in her diary. The first line I read I was shocked and surprised.

Meri duniya walo se nahi banti,

Mujhy ab Khuda k pas jana hai.

Dear diary,

Today everyone in my school again bullied me and again no one stood up for me. I am useless this was what they said. They called me with numerous names.

I tried to tell this dad but he didn't listen to me. When he saw me in his office he shouted at me to get lost.

I even tried to commit suicide but couldn't have enough power to do it. I tried to cut my skin but couldn't. Then I fall in sajdha and complained Allah about everything. Maybe one day He will take my pain away.

The page was like someone drops of water fell on it but I better knew after reading this page that it was her tears. I didn't get it why was her father shouting at her and people in her school called her with names.

Her father should helped her because this was what every father do. I turned the next page and here it was written same thing and I again turned few more pages but I read the words which she wrote on above.

Both akela kardiya h mere apno ne,

Samjh nahi ati meri kismat buri h ya main.

Wajha pouchhne ka mauqa hi na mila,

Bus!!

Woh legha badlte gaye or hum anjan hote gaye.

Dear diary,

I didn't understand my father behaviour with me. Why? Why is he like this? Why?

Did I do something wrong? I don't even remember what I did to make him hate me that much and my mom? She also hates me always try to find a way to hit me. Why? Again same answer I don't know.

What? Hitting her? Her mom abused her? I looked at Aziya in confusion and clenched my hands in anger then turned the next page.

Aadat nahi mujhy apni takleef bayan karne ki,

Buss koi samjh le toh kafi h.

Dear diary,

Today my mom slapped me on my face that hard it left a print on my face. I didn't know what I did to get this slap.

You know what today I meet an old lady and I helped her carrying her heavy bags. She asked me my name and I told her my name. In return she smiled and said, 'A lovely name for a lovely girl like you. Is must have a beautiful meaning? Right?'

I told her the meaning of my name which is loveable but in reality unlovable cause no one loves me.

I again looked at her and kissed on her forehead. "Loveable," I mumbled with a smile but then mumbled, "Why you wrote unlovable? A girl with good heart always loved by others," I again turned few pages and read it.

Lakh adhure k'hawabon me,

Humara ak k'hawab ishq sahi.

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Har ek ne dekha apni nazroo se mujhy,

Kash koi meri nazroo si bhi dekhta mujhy.

Mein logo se mulaqat k lamhe yaad rakhti hu,

Mein baatien bhul jati hu magr lehzey yaad rakhti hu,

Mehfil me nigahe jinki mujh par larhti hai,

Woh chehrey yaad rekhti hu,

Zara haat kar chelti hu zamane k rawaiye se,

Jin py bojh me dalu woh khandhe yaad rekhti hu.

Faisla tera tha,

Par dil jo tuta,

Woh mera tha.

Dear diary,

I am not going to study anymore because of my mom. She told me what will I do with a degree.

I really want to continue my studies and take admission in number one university of Lahore.

I talked with my dad and he said that he will not gonna admit me in university and it hurts my heart. I want to see the world but they cage me in a house.

Reading her diary gave me depression and heartache. She had gone through too much. She was still young for all this.

As I read her diary all the behavior of her family opened in front of me. But one thing confused me who did this with their own child.

Meri hasi k peeche k dard ko toh mehsoos kar,

Suna hai log aksar hass k khud ko saza dete h.

Kaash koi hota,

Kaash koi aesa ko jo gale laga kar kahe,

Pagal roya na kar mujhy b tere dard se dard hota h.

Qismat pehle hi likhi ja chuki h,

Dua karne se kya miley ga...?

Kya pata qismat me likha ho,

K jo bhi miley ga woh dua se hi miley ga.

Then after reading this I turned few pages and my breath got stuck because here she confessed her feelings about me. Every page of her diary told me she wrote it in tears. I was shocked reading all this about her confession.

I looked at her closing her diary and creased her cheeks. "Why? Why you took his huge step if you love me?" I asked her. I sighed and picked her diary. It fell from my hand on the floor and last page opened.

There was something written on the last page. I read the heading of that page which she wrote. 'Things I want'. I read this page and silently made a promise to fulfil this all.

I stood up and walked to her room to put this diary back. I put it back on the bed and walked back to my room.

I looked at her who stirred and slowly opened her eyes. She looked around the room in confusion then her eyes fell on me. She threw the covers away and stood from the bed on the floor.

I tired to reach her but she moved away. She looked at me blankly then ran away from my room. I really had to do anything for making her take with me again. I made a promise to make her smile since now.