It has been two weeks since that night at our favorite spot. Two weeks since I realized how I truly felt for Jennie. If it weren't for our situation, I would have totally told her how I feel. But things, things are complicated.

I avoided her for the past two weeks hoping that what I feel would just fade away. I distanced myself from her which didn't require too much from me considering that she seems to be avoiding me as well. Did she feel the feelings I have for her that night? Does she know now? Oh gosh. I fucked up.

After that day, I don't always hang out with my friends anymore. I know that they have nothing to do with this but Jisoo unnie, Rosé, and Lisa are equivalent to Jennie. Wherever they go, she's there. So when I see them, I turn my back quickly acting as if I haven't noticed them. But it turns out, I'm not the only one doing the same. Jisoo unnie confronted me about it the other day.

"Yah! What's wrong with you and Jennie? The five of us never hang out together anymore since last week! It's either you're the one with us or her!" I can only look down as I hate seeing the sadness and frustration on my cousin's face.

"I- i'm sorry. I-i-i don't know, maybe we're just too busy that both of our schedules don't match anymore." I managed to let out a lie come out.

Jisoo unnie just looked at me sadly that day and never brought it up again. I feel so guilty on kind of ruining our group. But I can't face her until I am no longer feeling this way.

Now you see, Jennie and I live in the same house. Despite that, we manage to avoid each other. We no longer go to school together and go home together. Taehyung picks her up and drops her off. Every time I see him in front of our house waiting for Jennie, my heart aches for I was so used to being the one taking her to school. Maybe this would help. Maybe I'll forget my feelings for her if we no longer spend time with each other.

I see him following her around at school like a lost puppy. I feel sad, guilty, and mad. Sad because that was me before all this shit called love happened. Guilty because instead of being happy for my best friend, I feel jealous. And mad because our situation won't allow me to completely fall for her and show her how I feel.

When we are home, we just eat breakfast and dinner with our family but we don't speak to each other. It's as if we have erased one another in our lives. And that's what hurts the most, seeing her live her life knowing that you are no longer a part of it.

Another thing that adds up to my problem is Kai. I can handle Tae since I know what kind of a person he is. But Kai, he is on another level. When he noticed that I am no longer seen with Jennie, he takes his chance and hits on her. Luckily Taehyung would show up and drag Jennie away from him.

On days where Jennie and I co-exist in the same room, and Kai is there as well, he makes it his mission to annoy the fuck out of me. I almost beat the shit out of him last last day.

Kai, Jennie, and I are in the same music class. Fortunately, the teacher was absent but unfortunately, he left some work to do to be passed at the end of the day at his table. As a class with no supervision from any superiors, it was a chaos. Stupid boys keep on laughing obnoxiously that all I can think about at the moment is slamming the electric guitar, which was thankfully sat beside me, on their heads. But nope, those dickheads don't deserve this precious guitar. So all I did was put my earphones and do my work.

I was working in peace and about to finish when I saw a disgusting sight when I looked up. Kai was sat in front of Jennie's table and he was being too close for my liking. His face is literally two inches away from hers. I can see Jennie being uncomfortable and scared. But knowing her, she won't do anything to ruin her reputation.

Jennie then snapped her head towards my direction and when we met each other's gazes for the first time in two weeks, I immediately stood up and approached them. Her looks tell me that she's pleading for me to help her.

I grabbed the back of the boy's shirt that made him stand up. He is taller than me but I ain't backing down. I pushed him at one of the desks and now grabbed his collar.

"What do you not fucking understand when I said to fuck off?" I am beyond mad at him at this point. But instead of answering me, all he did was smirk like he is taunting me to hit him.

And so, I was about to hit him but a soft hand stopped me. I thought it would be Jennie but when I looked behind me, it's Mina holding me and Jennie is no longer in the class. All I can do is sigh and let him go. I am more upset now that Jennie just left me like that than mad at this boy.

Everything makes sense to me now. I am overprotective of Jennie not just because she is my sister. I am that way towards her because I apparently have this deeper feelings for her. Those deeper feelings make me wanna protect her from everyone in the world. I just realized that I am overprotective because I only want her spending her time with me. I only want her for myself, which is bad, too bad.

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I am currently sitting, well more likely laying, at the couch of the Student Council's office. And I am here not for Jennie. I am here because of Mina. Early this morning, I offered to take her home after her duties as the treasurer and it's now past 5.

The room's aircon is now turned off since school's policy is that ACs are off after school hours which is 4pm. So now only the fans are working. But despite that, I am shaking like crazy.

"Fancy seeing you here, dude. Are you here for Jennie? And why the heck are you laying down?" I heard Tae's voice so I opened my eyes and saw him looking down on me.

I slowly sat up, struggling a bit since I feel heavy. "I-i-i'm h-he-re f-for mi-mi-mina." I was surprised when he reached his hand out to me and felt it place on my forehead. I watched as his eyes widened.

"Shit dude. You're burning hot! What the fuck!" By now every officer's eyes were on us. Before, they were engrossed in each other's laptops since they are hurrying to finish their tasks. That's probably the reason why they didn't notice that I came here 30 minutes ago, not even Jennie nor Mina.

I roamed my eyes and met Jennie's gaze once again. Seeing the worry on her face made me weaker than I already was. I hate worrying her.

Mina and Jennie then rushed to where I am seated. I felt Mina's soft hands on my forehead and just like Tae, her eyes widened.

"Y/N, what happened? You're hot." Even with my condition, I didn't let her remark pass. I smirked at her and wiggled my eyebrows. "Shut it, Y/N. Not that kind of hot."

"Well I'm just saying. I know you find me hot tho." I winked at her and saw how she blushed. After all these years, I still have effect on her. I can't help but smile at that.

Our staring was then cut off by a cough which I can easily recognize, Jennie's. Mina's and I's eyes darted towards the president and I saw how she now has this unreadable expression. What happened to her? Is she feeling sick too like me?

"C'mon. Let's go home. You're sick." She still has this blank face and tone.

"But, I will still drive Mina home." I looked at Mina and pouted. She held my hand and smiled reassuringly.

"No, Y/N. It's okay. I need you to feel better."

"See? Let's go. I'll drive us home." Jennie then snatched my hand that Mina is holding and tugged me.

"Oh okay. But Tae, can you please take her home? I need to make sure she'll get home safely."

"No problem, dude. I got you. Feel better okay?" I hugged him and thanked him.

Jennie then dragged me towards the door but before we got there, we heard Mina's voice.

"Ah w-wait. J-jennie, c-can I at-at least come for a while? I'll take care of Y/N." I smiled at Mina as she said that.

"No need Myoui. I'll take care of her. Y/N's my responsibility, not yours." And with that, Jennie completely dragged me out of the room before I can apologize to Mina.

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AN: Happy New Year, everyone!