The dinner continues and they also set up a bonfire to add on a chilly night. We sat there while all of them are talking while both Jackson and I are roasting marshmallows and Jennie and Kai are talking about random stuff

"It's been a while since I saw you this close" Kai said and I can see on the corner of my eyes that he's staring at her... I don't care, they can kiss each other and I don't care.

"Yeah" Jennie said chuckling pulling her blanket upwards since the wind kept blowing

"Imagine waking up and seeing your face first thing in the morning" Kai says making me roll my eyes as I put the marshmallow on my mouth

"Oh my god this is so good " I said with my mouth full making them look towards me... I can't handle all of the things that he's saying, it's so cheesy and disgusting

I heard Jackson chuckle right beside me and put the marshmallow on his mouth as well doing the same thing making me chuckle. Kai and Jennie stopped talking right after that.

"Jongin we will go in to have some business talk but we will be leaving in 10 minutes" his mom says before walking inside with the rest of the old people.

"Do you want a beer? " Kai asked but Jennie declined. He stood up and went back with two cans of beer... Why did he bring two when Jennie declined?

"Here just have some... It's perfect for this night" he says

"No really... I'm not in the mood for that" she says but he keeps on pushing Jennie to just take a sip so I leaned over to grab the can of beer

"This'll be good with marshmallows... Thank you" I said and started chugging the can of beer and I can see how annoyed he is at my action but I can see Jennie's smile from the side.

"Lalisa don't drink too much... I'll leave you here" Jackson said making me chuckle as I put down the beer.

After a couple of minutes Jennie's already laying down on the blanket that's spread out on the grass while Kai stood up to leave already. He was about to go towards Jennie but I called him out "she's probably sleeping just go.. I'll just tell him you leave already" I said... At first, he's very reluctant but he walks in. Jackson stayed for a couple more minutes talking to me about random things while Jennie's still in the same position as earlier.

"Let's go in... I need to finish my work" he says but I look towards Jennie who still has her eyes closed

"I'll follow later" I said smiling towards him so he nodded and went inside. I stared at Jennie for who knows how long and she's just laying down there with her chest going up and down slowly... She's probably asleep. I stood up and walk towards the blanket she's been using earlier and put it on top of her then I sat right next to her since I don't want to just leave her out here alone. I just look over at the bonfire and stare at it

"Why aren't you inside yet? You'll be cold out here" I heard Jennie said so I look over at her but she still has her eyes closed

"You'll be cold as well" I said still looking at her

"Lay down with me Lisayah" she said opening up her eyes to look at me. I contemplated but gave up and lay down next to her. The cold wind's blowing but the only noise that we're hearing is the sound of the fire crackling from the woods. I look up to the stars and the moon above us and I just silently admire everything and I guess Jennie does too.

"Lisayah" she called out so I hummed to let her continue "did I hurt you the last time we talked? " she asked... And it's probably the day that I'm quitting. I stayed silent and I heard her sigh "I'm sorry for calling your confession stupid Lisayah " she said and even though I'm not looking at her face I can still feel the sincerity that she has in her voice. Jennie is not that sweet type of person nor the affectionate one so when she said something that goes beyond those lines then that is the truth. "And I'm sorry that I confuse you whenever I become clingy some time then I'll act differently the other time" she confessed... I don't know what to feel. She's not even telling me that she doesn't like me back nor does she like me back but why do I feel so at ease with what she's saying. Why do I feel content with what she's saying? Maybe it's because she cares for my feelings... She won't say sorry if she doesn't.

I turn my head to look at her and she did the same. Our faces are few inches away from each other but it didn't bother her. I look deep into her eyes and for the first time since I first met her... It's the first time I've ever seen her guards down. I can see the sadness completely in her eyes.

"Lisayah... Please come home" she said in the most pleading way possible that causes my heart to skip a beat. She scoots closer to me and slides her hands to my waist to hug me while putting her face on the crook of my neck.

Maybe Jennie doesn't like me the way that I do. But it's so selfish of me to think about myself only. I didn't even consider what she'll feel. She told me in the letter that whenever she goes home, she felt at home cause I'm there. But for the past few days, she's been on her own and I didn't even think about that. I'm also glad that I was selfish for the past few days. It made Jennie realize the importance of the people around her. It made her realize that I matter somehow. Maybe she doesn't see me like that, maybe she put her guards down cause she trusts me and who am I to break that trust when she's been the happiness that I've got since my parents died. Sure I have Bambam and Jisoo but doesn't it feel way too good when you have someone who cares for you. When you have someone who inspires you. When you have someone who you like. But the sad part of that, they don't like you back