He shoved me back against the cross and untied my wrists, I tried pushing him away, earning another punch to the gut. I yelled out as he tied my wrists to the cuffs and stepped back. Looking me up and down.

He ripped the towel off my body and chuckled, "you're a dirty bastard Marti," he ran the riding crop up my hardened shaft slowly and looked at me with a smirk. "Why do you make me want to fuck you senseless so badly?" He asked while staring at my body.

"I-I'm sorry," I said and closed my eyes. He whipped my thighs, leaving my skin burning from the leather.

"Don't be sorry, I think it's adorable that you're a little masochist," he chuckled as he walked back up to me. He gripped my chin and kissed me roughly, biting at my tongue and lips.

I yelped out as he smacked my outer thigh with his hand, "you're the cutest," he whispered to me.

"T-thank you," I whispered back.

He laughed manically as he gripped my member and started rubbing it. I flinched at the awful feel of his dry leather glove pulling at me. "Oh you must not like it when it's dry," he said. I opened my eyes slowly and he shoved his fingers in my mouth. "Drool if you want any lube," he ordered.

I cried softly as he started shoving his fingers down my dry throat. "M-y throats- dry," I coughed out.

He sighed annoyed and ripped his fingers out, causing me to cough more and let my head fall. I jumped at feeling cool gel being poured onto my chest, he ran his hand down my body slowly and gripped at my member, "wet enough for you yet? My prince?" He asked with a soft voice.

"Yes sir," I shivered out.

"Good boy," he said and started rubbing me quickly. Making me moan out and close my eyes in pleasure.

I shouldn't be enjoying this. He just said such horrible things to me. My heart strong felt like it broke when he muttered those words to me.

It's almost as if he really has trained my body and mind to belong to pain like this.

To belong to him and only his touch. He knows exactly how to ruin my soul and rip it right back out of hell as I'm slipping down.

He kissed down my body, biting every couple of inches and sucking, leaving bruises on my body. I started panting out as he wrapped his warm mouth around my member and began sucking, he gripped my thighs, enough to make me squeal out in pain.

"Tell me what you want Marti," he said suddenly.

"I want you," I sighed out as he ran his fingers down my thighs roughly, causing me to shake and climax. I shivered at feeling him continuing to suck on my member. "I-I want you..."

"What exactly do you want with me?" He said as he stood up and got into my face, licking his lip.

"Everything," I said.

He gripped my neck and looked at my face, "really?" He asked. I nodded my head yes with my eyes shut tight, he planted his lips on mine and pressed his body against me as I was shaking from pleasure. He chuckled against my lips, "then show me how much you want me," he whispered as he uncuffed me from the cross, letting me fall onto the ground.

I pushed myself up on my butt and stared up at him, he walked over me and pushed his groin against my face. My red face panted out as I unbuckled his belt. He ran his hand over my hair as I was pulling down his pants and boxers. His hardened member fell out and pressed against my lips. I shyly opened my mouth and began sucking on the head while rubbing the shaft with my hand.

"You're so cute when you're sucking my cock Marti," he whispered as he gripped my hair and started pumping into my mouth slowly. "Shove me how much you love me," he said as he started going faster.

I propped myself up onto my knees and held onto his thighs as he thrusted down my throat. He held himself there until I was choking and pulled himself out slowly. I gagged on his member, leaving a trail of spit as he pulled it out. I looked up at him with drool spilling down my chin. "I haven't cum yet," he said and patted my cheek with the riding crop.

I opened my mouth again and started sucking on him as he started thrusting into my mouth once more. He moved his hand to the back of my head, gripping my hair and started going so fast my eyes began to roll my from pain and pleasure. Hot tears welling up as they were falling down my cheeks.

He let out a deep groan as he climaxed, "swallow it," he demanded. I swallowed it quickly and sighed out as he let go of my hair, letting me fall to the floor. I closed my eyes and tried to recatch my breath as I heard his foot steps coming closer to me.

"I'm not done yet," he whispered in my ear. I looked back at him and he was over me, trapping me under him, he pinned my chest down and spread my cheeks. My face started becoming even redder. "This embarrasses you doesn't it?" He asked as he moved his face down. I nodded my head as I let out a pleasure scream as he started licking around my hole and shoved his tongue inside.

I gripped my hands and moved my hips up, "Good boy," he chuckled at me as he pushed his tongue in further. Moving his hand around and grabbing my member again.

"T-Trevor," I whimpered out. He gave a hard slap to my cheek and he shoved himself in quickly. I yelled out and started shaking from his hard thrusts. "I-it hurts," I squealed out.

"It wouldn't be a punishment if it felt good the entire time, now would it?" He whispered in my ear, he gripped my neck as he continued thrusting.

I let out pathetic screams and moans of pleasure mixed with pain as he threw me around like a rag doll, flipping me over onto my back and entering me again. I shut my eyes tightly and he slapped my face then he squeezed my throat, "look at me," he demanded. I opened one eye and looked up at him, his eyes were filled with lust as he was tearing into me. "Play with yourself," he ordered.

I shakily moved my hand down and started rubbing my sticky member as he got an evil smirk on his face, "What a good obedient little toy you are," he chuckled.

"Yes s-sir," I whimpered out as he let go of my throat. He put hands on either side of my head and moved one of them to grip my hair, pulling my head to the side, he bit into my neck and started sucking harder than he usually does. I started shaking and tightening around his member.

"If you cum without permission, I'm going to beat you," he whispered in my ear. I let go of my member and he moved my hand back, "I didn't tell you to stop," he said.

I continued rubbing myself and trying my hardest to hold it in, he groaned out as he continued thrusting into me, pushing harder than before, "you're tightening around me so nicely," he panted out in my ear. "It feels amazing."

"Thank you," I whispered out as I was struggling to hold in my orgasm at this point.

He chuckled as he kissed the other side of my neck and bit down roughly, he kissed back up to my ear, "cum for me Marti," he whispered in my ear. I let out a loud pleasurable scream as I orgasmed and started shaking roughly, he gripped my wrists and pulled me up, shoving me down on his member as I was still shaking from the orgasm.

"Ride me you little slut," he whispered harshly in my ear. I started moving my hips up and down, my face turned red again when I looked at his suit covered in my cum. He looked down and chuckled, "you'll have to clean that off of me."

He gripped my hair and pulled my face into his chest, smearing my own cum on my face, "lick it up," he said. I stopped moving my hips and started licking up the mess from his suit, he thrust up roughy, causing me to yell out, "did I tell you to stop moving?" He asked with an aggressive tone.

"N-no sir," I panted out as I started moving my hips again while licking up the mess on his suit.

"You are so perfect," he whispered as he looked down at me, "undress me," he demanded. While still moving my hips on him I unbuttoned his shirt with shaky hands.

I pushed the shirt off his shoulders and he thrusted up into me roughly and pinned me back down on the floor and planted his lips on mine. I let out pants between kisses as he started biting into my tongue and sucking on it while giving me no mercy. He groaned deeply as I felt him filling me up, "you're such a good toy," he whispered in my ear as he kissed my ear and pulled out of me slowly.

He laid next to me and ran circles around my rising chest, "I love you Marti," he said and pecked my neck softly.

"I love you Trevor," I sighed out.

Do I still love him? I need to stop thinking with my body and start thinking with a clearer mind.

A mind that isn't captivated and manipulated by him.

I need to go back to my old self.

No. Not my old self.

I need to evolve from who I used to be and who I am in this moment.

I have to leave and find Jackson. I know by him showing up to my parents funeral that he still cares about me.

I'm going to leave as soon as Trevor falls asleep.