"Small. You're so small." I mutter, running my hands down her sides.

"Small?" She asks with a giggle.

"You feel so small against me. You fit perfectly in my hands." I say, running my hands up her sides and cupping her breasts in my hands.

"So you think I'm skinny." She says in a joking tone, causing me to laugh.

"You're perfect." He says. "And these....these are really perfect." I say, brushing my thumb over her nipples and watching her shiver against me.

"Are you always this vocal during foreplay?" She asks with a smile.

"I'm not sure. Maybe." I shrug. "Why? Is it bad?" I ask.

"No!" She says instantly. "I like it. It's sexy." She says, rubbing herself against me.

"Is it?" I ask, kissing her neck gently. She loves it when I do this. I love it, too.

"Yeah. Keep going." She urges.

"Anything for you." I tell her.

"I really need you right now." She says, moving off of my lap and pulling at my sweatpants. I lift my hips so that she can pull them down with ease.

"Yeah?" I ask, watching her as she grips me in her hands.

"Yeah." She says, batting her lashes at me.

"You're beautiful." I sigh, throwing my head back at the feeling.

"You feel so good in my hand." She tells me, kissing my neck and working her way down my chest. "I love seeing you like this."

"Oh my God." I mutter, watching her move her kisses down my body. "You don't have to." I say quickly, gripping her shoulder.

"Do you not want me to?" She asks with slight confusion.

"I mean...I-"

"It's okay." She says, not stopping her hands for even a second. If I wasn't so nervous right now, I probably would have already blown my load.

"I just...I've never like...had that before." I mutter in reply.

"Never had...head?" She asks.

"Yeah." I nod nervously.

"Then I guess I have to put on my best performance." She smirks, continuing the kissing towards my cock.

The second I feel her tongue against my shaft, a shiver rakes down my body.

This is okay. This is fine. I can handle this. Normal guys love this kind of thing. I can love it, too.

The mixture feels good. Hell, it feels great. I can see why someone would become addicted to this feeling. Her mouth and warn and wet around. While the mixture of her hand and tongue feels good, I just can't do this. It's too much. It's all just too much.

I can't handle this because I'm not a normal guy.

"Stop, stop." I say quickly, trying to pull away.

"What? What is it?" She asks quickly, looking concerned.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I just..I-" I say, trying to get ahold of myself. I feel my hard on beginning to soften, and she's noticing it too.

"Did I do something wrong?" She asks in a small voice.

"No! No, you're doing everything right." I assured her.

"Then what happened?" She asked.

"I just...it was too much. It was all too much." I sighed, pulling the cover over my naked lower half.

"What was too much?" She asks quietly.

"The kissing. The feeling. It was just too much." I say, trying to find a way to put it into words.

"I'm sorry." She mutters. "I didn't know that it bothered you." She says, scooting away from me slowly.

"No, it's not you." I say, quickly, trying to take her hand in mine. I only grow more concerned as she pulls her hand out of my own.

"It kind of is though." She says. "Just maybe not on purpose."

"No, it's me." I sigh. "I promise, it's not you. I can't tell you how badly I wanted to continue doing that." I assure her.

"But you clearly didn't want to continue." She replies.

"No, I did." I say. "I just couldn't. I can't explain it, but I couldn't."

"Why?" She says in what sounded like a whisper.

I'm an idiot. I'm fucking all of this up and I'm not even meaning to.

Rarely in my life do I wish I were like normal guys. That urge to be normal went away as I grew older. Once I left high school, it didn't really matter that I was different from everyone else. I had my friend and my family, and they understood me. I never wanted to be normal again. I had the people who understood me and accepted me for who I was. I never needed anything more.

However, in this very moment I wish nothing more than to be normal. I would give anything to be normal so that I could enjoy what Natalia was doing to me.

"There was too much saliva." I admit. "It was just...I couldn't get into it. It's the tongue thing. You know how I am about kissing with tongue and it just...it's just uncomfortable for me. I'm sorry, Natalia. It felt amazing. God, it felt so good. I need you to understand that you did nothing wrong. It felt amazing...I just couldn't separate the feelings. I'm sorry." I sigh, hating the look on her face.

The look of humiliation is something i'm used to. I can tell that's what she's feeling right now, and I feel terrible knowing that i'm the reason why.

"It's fine." She mutters, scooting further and further away from me.

"No, no, no." I say, pulling her closer to me. "Please don't move away from me. This doesn't have to ruin anything. We can keep going?" I say, trying my hardest not to end whatever it was that we were doing.

"I think we should just get some sleep." She mutters, placing a small hand on my cheek.

"I think we should continue what we were doing first." I insist. "Let me get you off."

"What?" She says in slight surprise.

"Let me get you off." I reply, moving over to her and kissing her neck gently.

"Grayson." She says, trying to push me away.

"Please, baby. I want this. I really, really want this." I whisper, kissing her softly.

"You don't have to. I don't want to push you." She says, leaning up some more.

"No. You're not pushing me into anything. I want this. I want this more than anything." I say, pushing back onto her back gently.

I continue to kiss down her neck and stomach, working my way down to her waist. I've never done something like this before. Much like before, i've only seen this kind of thing happen in porn. I just hope I can be as good at this as I was at the last stuff.

"Promise that you'll tell me if you want to stop?" She asks.

"I promise. Not stop talking and just relax." I say, praying that I don't sound too harsh.

I pull the cotton panties down her legs and toss them to the side. Pushing her legs apart, I kneel down and take a long lick up her slit.

"Oh my God." She whispers, tugging at my hair gently.

"Is that okay?" I ask, licking her once more.

"Yes. God, yes." She nods in reply, pushing my head closer to her core.

I wrap my lips around her clit and begin sucking lightly, causing her to wiggle underneath me. I'm hoping that all of these things are good signs and that i'm not completely embarrassing myself right now.

I'm a little surprised by how much i'm genuinely enjoying this. The wetness that i'm feeling and tasting doesn't turn me off like the way her tongue felt around me. If anything, it's turning me on even more.

"God, this is amazing." I mutter, kissing her thigh before slipping a finger into her entrance. She moans and tightens her legs around my head.

Pushing her legs apart with my free hand, I lean my body so that she can't close them any further. I push another finger into her and begin pumping them, loving the little noises she's making with every push.

"Please, keep going." She urges, trying to push my head back towards her center. Using both my hands and mouth, I devour her completely.

"I'm really hard right now. This is the hottest thing i've ever seen." I mutter against her.

"I'm so close. Keep talking." She says, her grip on my hair tightening.

"You're so wet. This is getting you so wet." I reply.

I feel her tighten around my fingers and her legs get stiff. Her moans grow with her pump of my fingers and with each tongue stroke against her heat.

"God, I want you so badly. I want this. I want everything." I tell her, sucking at her one last time before she lets out a loud moan, closing her legs around my head. I don't try and push her legs apart as she finishes around my fingers. I only stay in place until her hold on me loosens and her breathing begins to slow.

"That was..." She sighs in a heavy breath.

I kiss the inside of her thigh before climbing over to her.

"You're perfect. That was perfect." I whisper, kissing her cheek gently.

"No you're perfect. You were great. That was really good. When did you play on telling me that you could eat someone out like it's your last meal on death row?" She asks in a breathy laugh.

"I don't think i've ever compared it to that but thank you. I've never done that before." I tell her.

"You're lying to me and you know it." She laughs.

"You can thank Porn Hub for that skill." I say with a smirk.

She rolls over and cuddles into my chest.

"I love you." She tells me with a soft smile.

"I love you." I say, pulling her in closer.

Just as I begin to think we're done, I feel her hand snake its way down my body and wrap around my dick.

"You didn't think we were done, did you?" She asks with a smirk.

It's her turn to push me on my back as she begins pumping her hand.

"Now it's your turn to sit back and relax. No tongue this time." She teases and she strokes me, causing my eyes to flutter closed.

"Yes ma'am." I say, enjoying every single stroke of her hand.