Harry POV:

"But I miss you! " I whine to Zayn into the phone.

It's the weekend and I'm in my room. On days like these , I would be already waiting to go to the club but since I have a real boyfriend now , this ain't an option.

"Yeah , I miss you too , babe. But you're the one who said that you're hanging out with Lenny , didn't you? " He sighs into the phone.

Did I mention how sexy his voice is over the phone? Well , now you know.

"But I also said that you could join us. " I pout even though he can't see me.

"Lolita , you know how I feel about people I'm not familiar with. You can enjoy all your girly tea and drama , and I will be over here studying happily. " That makes me roll my eyes at how nerdy he is.

"At least I'm not burying my nose into books twenty four/seven. " My eyes are gonna stuck from how many times I roll them.

Zayn lets out one of his sexy chuckles that I come to love which results in me squeezing my thighs together.

"You agreed to be the nerd's bitch so don't start complain' now , eh? " The way his tone lowers down is seriously doing some things to me.

"As long as you are not with that lil puppy of yours then I'm fine with it. " I say with a huff as I draw with my finger on my right thigh.

He immediately groans. "Oh come on , Ma! We have been through this a lot and I already said that Leo is my friend , nothing more. So you gotta get over it. "

"Yeah yeah , whatever. " I roll my eyes for the third time.

My parents' voices get louder in the back ground and I pray that Zayn can't hear them but luck is not on my side.

"Hey , What's that? "

I bite down on my bottom lip feeling embarrassed. "My parents are just uhh.. sharing their love together. " Sarcasm is dripping from my voice.

"Oh! You okay , Lolita? " I love it when he calls me that.

"I'm fine. " I rub my eyes as their voices get on my damn nerves.

My phone dings when I'm about to say something so I pull it back to find that Lenny has sent a text to tell me that he is almost here.

"Babe , I gotta go cause Lenny is about to arrive. " I inform him already not wanting to hang up.

"Yeah , alright. I will talk to you later then. " He answers.

"Okay. " I say but I don't hang up.

"Lolita? " Zayn calls quickly before I can disconnect.

"Yeah? "

"Kiss your pussy for me. " I snicker as soon as he says that and I can also feel my face turn red.

"Only if you send me a dick pic. " I play along.

"Eh , fair enough. " He makes some kissy noises before hanging up.

I look down at my phone with a smile and a shake of my head. I'm about to lock it when it dings and I receive a notification saying that I have received a text from Zayn.

I open the message to instantly get red.

He took it seriously?

🤓💓

Sometimes I forget how fit he is. I mean his mouthwatering abs are just everything. I want to lick all over them and just keep touching them.

🤓💓

-You're a fuckin tease , Z!

The fact that this is probably his first time sending a nude to someone gives me satisfaction. I love how it's our first time having a lover or someone to care for in this way wether it's him or me.

I can already feel myself getting slick and a little wet down there. I sigh and close my phone just as my parents stop fighting meaning that Lenny has arrived.

A few moments later , I hear footsteps running upstairs. My door slams against the door revealing Lenny with a plate in his left hand which has donuts on it.

"That's my sister's! " I inform him.

He shrugs and walks inside the room like he owns the place. He is already on his second donut.

"She gave it to me. " He speaks with a full mouth.

"You want one? " He offers me a half donut.

I take it from him. "Oh my god , Lenny. You're so extra. " I say before taking a bite.

He is wearing shorts and an oversized shirt with his curly hair pulled up in a ponytail.

"How is your man? " He finally talks after setting the empty plate down on the nightstand.

I shrug. "Alright , I guess. Just studying like the nerd he is. " I reply.

He cocks an eyebrow. "You're just a needy hoe. "

"You're just jealous you don't have a man. " I stick my tongue out at him.

"If only I had a kitty like yours.. " He daydreams.

Suddenly , his eyes twinkle and he gets excited. "Can I see it? "

I shake my head quickly and close my thighs together as a reaction.

"Please please pleeease , Harry! " He pouts and gives me a puppy look.

"No no no no , this is not gonna happen. Like ever! " I answer seriously. "Neverrrr! "

He huffs and glares at me. "You're a fun spoiler. "

I grab my phone and scroll through Instagram. I'm in a middle of watching a video when Lenny interrupts me.

"Riri , I'm wondering... " He trails off making me look at him.

"I told you not to call me that stupid name! " I glare at him.

"I like it so get over it. " I want to slap that smug look on his face.

"Anyway , since you have a vagina and all , do you have the side effect of it like girls? "

"I don't get it. " I reply with a bored tone.

He huffs. "I mean , do you get periods and things like that? "

I hesitate before nodding my head feeling embarrassed to admit it.

"Oh! " He nods in understanding.

Speaking of periods... the last time I had it was like two months ago..!

My eyes widen and I can feel all the blood drains from my face. All I hear is my heart beating so fast.

"What? " Lenny questions with a worried tone , probably from seeing my freaked out form. "What is it? "

"Oh my god! Oh my freaking god! This can't be happening , no no no no no! " I ramble slamming my hands repeatedly on the bed like a possessed person.

"Harry? What's wrong? " Lenny quickly hurries to my side and grabs my face to make me look at him.

My eyes water up and I take a shaky breath before looking him in the eyes. "I-I think -I'm pregnant. "

He takes a moment to realize what I have said before his jaw drops and his eyes widen. He snaps out of it when I start to panic again.

"Okay okay , calm down! " He shakes my shoulders.

"When was the last time you had your period? " He asks trying to stay calm for the sake of both of us.

I chew on my bottom lip to focus. "Uhh two months ago. " I reply after thinking for a bit.

"And the last time you had sex? "

I recall all the times I and Zayn had sex to come to the conclusion that on the third day of the camping trip was the last time we had sex.

I inhale. "Like two months and a half ago , when you caught me and Zayn on the camping trip. "

He takes in the information and nods after a little while. "Okay okay , now we need to calm down. My mom works at a private hospital , we can go there and she will help us. "

"Really? " I look at him with a hopeful look. My face has tears running down it.

"Yeah , tell your mom that we are going out and I will call mine. " He rubs my back.

I nod and wipe my face before going downstairs to tell my mom that we are going out.

We take my car and he gives me directions to where the hospital is.

"So your mom is inside? " I ask after parking the car in the hospital parking area.

"Yes , Harry. You asked that more than ten times already. " Lenny replies.

"I'm just nervous! " I defend myself while wiping my sweaty palms on my pants.

"You don't have to be , I'm here for you. " He messages my right shoulder with his hand.

We are about to leave the car when he stops me. "Wait. "

"What? "

He clears his throat. "You know that we have to tell the doctor about your condition , right? "

My heart skips a beat even though I already know that. Maybe because I ignored the thought of it.

I nod not so confidently. He gives me a sympathetic look. "It will be alright. Come on. "

We climb out of the car and enter the hospital. Lenny leads us to where his mother's office is located.

He knocks twice before opening the door and entering with me following behind.

"Hey , momma. " He greets a beautiful light skin woman who is sitting behind her desk.

"Hello boys! How are you? " She greets us with a big smile on her face.

"Ah we are good. That's Harry who I talked to you about. " Her eyes turn to me with the smile still presented on her face.

"Hello Harry , come on take a seat both of you. " She ushers us to sit down on the two seats in front of her desk.

"I didn't understand anything you said on the phone , Lenny. So tell me what the problem is again. " She starts the conversation before it gets too awkward.

"Okay , so basically Harry has a pus- ow! " He whines when I kick his leg.

"Alright a 'vagina'. " He quotes with his fingers and a roll of his eyes.

"Harry , can you please explain instead? I know my son is an idiot. " She sighs.

I clear my throat as I get nervous and start to mumble. "As he said , I was born with both genital organs a penis and a vagina. I still get periods like girls so the problem here is that I haven't got my period for two months. " I explain all in one breath before I can chicken out.

Her eyebrows raise in surprise but her face doesn't show any kind of disgust or judgement so I mentally let out a sigh in relief.

"I haven't come across this before so excuse me if I misunderstand anything. " She smiles.

"S'okay. " I whisper.

"Alright , did you have any kind of unprotected sex? " She resumes her questions.

I blush but nod nonetheless.

"When was the last time? " I can hear Lenny snicker from across of me.

I send a glare towards him to shut him up. "About two months and a half ago. " I reply honestly.

She nods. "Have you had any kind of craving or pain lately? "

I shake my head. "No , nothing at all. "

"No throwing up? " She receives another shake of my head.

"Alright , we still have to check on you to see if you are pregnant or anything. I know Dr. John who can help us with this so follow me , please. " She stands up and walks to the door.

I look at Lenny who gives me a thumb up and grabs my hand so we can follow his mother. I really hope that whatever is wrong , it won't come to pregnancy.

The three of us take the elevator to the fourth floor. We walk half the hall till Lenny's mother stops in front of a door. She knocks and walks in.

"Come in , boys. " We enter the room to find a man who looks like he is in his early twenties sitting behind his desk.

"Hey , John. How are you? " She shakes hands with him.

"I'm fine , what about you? " He greets us all and invites us to sit down.

I sit through the whole thing of explaining to him my situation with so much embarrassment and fear of being judged.

"Wow , I learned about your condition when I was in Japan two years ago. " He says.

"Really? " I ask surprised.

"Yes , we also had to do some researches about it. We didn't find much but some people are really in the same situation like you. " He reassures me.

I sometimes searched the net but some shit came up to me and it was useless. So I'm happy to hear that from him. This is my first time talking to anyone about my condition and I'm so grateful that they're understanding and showing no judgment.

"So now we need to know if you're pregnant or not. " I nod my head along to what he says.

"Congrats , you're really pregnant. " As soon as he has said those words , my world collides.

"R-really? Are you sure? Maybe there's something wrong with the ultrasound! It can't be right. T- " The doctor cuts me off.

"Harry , you need to calm down. " He softly says.

"You're almost nine weeks so it cannot be wrong. I can see the baby clearly. " He points at something on the screen.

I see something tiny in there and that's a needed proof to make me start sobbing.

"Why why why why?! "

Lenny comes over to me and tries to hug me as best as he can since I'm still laying down.

"It's okay , Harry. We will figure this out. " He whispers in my ear.

I try to calm myself as much as I can because I don't want to make a fool of myself in front of these people. I can break down later.

I wipe my stomach and stand up. The doctor walks to his desk and we gather around him.

"What if I don't want it? " I ask with a blank face.

"What?! " Lenny gasps when he hears what I have said.

"Harry baby , calm down. You are just overwhelmed and you don't really want to do this. " Lenny's mother speaks softly.

The doctor looks at me unsure. "You can get an abortion but in your condition it's dangerous since you aren't fully a female. It can threaten your life. " He explains.

"But I can still get rid of it if I want to? " I press on the answer.

He nods his head. "Yes. "

"Okay , thank you. "

We walk out of the office and Lenny's mom stops us.

"You really need to think of this. What about the father? Does he know about this? And this is your baby , Harry. Consider it , honey. " She cups my cheeks and gives me a motherly smile.

"I will. " I nod.

"If you need anything , just call me or come here , yeah? " I nod again and she hugs us before leaving.

Lenny feeds on my ear as soon as we are in the car.

"Are you serious , Harry? You really want to get rid of your baby? Did you not consider telling Zayn? I mean you're not alone in this , he needs to know. "

"Lenny , hear me out! " I call out through his rambling.

"I'm eighteen for fuck's sake , so is Zayn. We still have a few months in school and I still have my life. I and Zayn doesn't even know each other well , we can't raise a kid on our own. I'm not ready to give up my life for a child who wasn't even planned. I have so much ahead of me and so many things to achieve. I can't take care of myself let alone a child. " I finish with a determined shake of my head. I'm trying to calm myself down so we won't crash.

"Then why didn't you use a condom if you know you can get pregnant? This is not the baby's fault that you are too horny to use protection not considering the fact that you can make a baby that holds your own blood and flesh. " I have never seen Lenny talking this serious about something.

"Lenny , I'm still a guy! I forgot about it all in the moment. I got caught up to care about my fucking pussy that is ruining it all for me now. " I find myself sobbing at the end of the sentence.

"I hate this , I hate my life. My parents don't even care about me. I can't do this. I don't want this baby. " I cry hysterically that I have to pull up on the side of the road.

"Okay okay , just calm down. Shhhh. " Lenny rests my head on his chest and lets me cry into his embrace.

"You're okay , s'gonna be okay. " He continues to try to get me to calm down.

I take some time to calm down till my sobs turn into low hiccups. My phone rings cutting our moment.

Lenny grabs my phone to check it for me. "It's Zayn. " He talks quietly.

I feel anger runs through me. "Don't answer , I don't even want to hear his name. "

Lenny looks at me unsure but sighs in defeat. I start the car and my phone rings one more time and then stops.

I think he sends me a text because my phone dings but I ignore it.

"Are you going to be okay? " Lenny asks when I park in front of his house.

I nod silently. He sighs.

"You still need to talk to Zayn , Riri. " He knows when he calls me that , it's gonna get some reaction out of me.

"Whatever. " I shrug not really in the mood to talk to anyone.

"Tomorrow after school , okay? The sooner the better. " I nod along just to get him off my head.

"Love you , call me if you need anything. " He kisses my cheek and exits the car.

I drive back home wanting to lay in my bed as soon as possible.

When I arrive home , I ignore everyone and just lock myself in my room. I wrap my head around all the information and just admire how fucked up my life is and how fucked up more it is gonna be.

My parents who don't give a shit about me. My education that is on the low low. My boyfriend who doesn't know that he knocked me up. Our relationship that is not even serious. A child that I don't want and planning to get rid of.

Great , just great.

I can't even stop the tears anymore. I keep crying and crying like it's gonna solve all my problems.

I grab my phone and open Zayn's text.

🤓💓

I chuckle through the tears at the way he is holding his glasses. Such a nerd.

🤓💓

-Can u come over tonight?

He replies immediately.

🤓💓

-Yeah , can't stay long tho so I will meet you outside , ok?

I sigh , at least he is trying.

🤓💓

-Okay.

I don't know how I have fallen asleep but my phone rings at eleven in the evening.

"Yes? " I answer blindly.

"I'm outside , baby. " Zayn's voice speaks.

I quickly sit up on the bed and rub my eye. "Okay , coming. " I hang up and go to the bathroom to wash my face before meeting him outside.

I find him waiting in his car across my house. I walk over and get in. He surprises me with a smooch on my lips as soon as I enter the car.

He doesn't give me time to even greet him as he leans over and starts to kiss on my neck.

"Ahh Z! " I whine when the kisses turn to bites. He licks the bites to sooth it.

"Fuck! I missed you. " He breathes on my neck making me shiver.

"S-stop. " I manage to say before he gets carried away.

He finally pulls away and sits back fully in his seat. "Sup? " He adjusts his pants. He's got turned on , I see.

I rub where he kept biting. I'm sure he has left a few marks.

"Just wanted to see you. " I shrug looking at the empty street.

"You okay? " I can already sense the concern in his voice. I nod without talking.

He grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. "What's wrong? " His eyes search mine.