This story will mostly be written in Phoebe's POV unless otherwise stated.

I watched my mate from across the field. There he was, waiting on that female as he hands her a plate of food who claimed to be carrying his pup.

I didn't want to be at his welcome home BBQ anymore, not when I was forced to witness the person I was destined for, wait on another, the one who had his pride and his future grow inside of her. But I had promised my parents I would try. It was also the day my other best friend the future Gamma of the pack Jacob was coming home. He has been away for his Gamma training. My heart constricted, as I peered out of my tear-stained eyes watching as he fed and laughed with her making her feel welcome. The looks others sent their way was the only thing that gave me any type of comfort knowing of the disapproval and disgust the others felt.

He was supposed to have been mine.

She was a power hungry she wolf who was a one-night stand that should never have happened. How I want to tear her scrawny head off her shoulders, rip her heart out and feed it to the rogues.

The afternoon he came home from alpha training two weeks ago after being gone for four years, was the happiest I've ever been when I discovered my child hood best friend I had secretly loved all my life turned out to be my mate. I had been too caught up in his intoxicating mouth-watering scent of mint and chocolate as he exited and closed the door of his blue pickup truck to notice the she wolf that sat on the other seat. As his gaze connected with mine, I screamed in excitement as happy tears ran down my cheeks and as I ran to him, I heard him say 'mate' throwing my arms around his neck, and him wrapping his arms around me I pulled him in for a bone crushing hug, he tilted my head up and guiltily looked me in the eyes and said "I'm so sorry Phoebe I had no idea you were going to be my destined mate. I have and will always love you." He said as he hung his head low in shame, not before I was able to catch the silent tears spilling from his eyes. I didn't understand what he meant until I heard the other car door slam.

There she stood a tall blonde female, blue eyed with an hour glass figure. Then I knew something was wrong.

He explained the situation to myself and whoever else was around to hear before going and grabbing her hand and taking her into the pack house leaving me standing there all alone and broken.

Mates are a rare gift from the moon goddess to be loved and cherished. It was going against the moon goddess to give up your fated mate without consequences. But he has a responsibility now and I'm the one who is left suffering.

Continuing to watch as he hands her a plate of food she looked up at him with her sparkly blue eyes as she smiled at him. He just stood there with a neutral expression on his face, trying to force out a smile. I turned away I couldn't bear to watch him even standing there beside her any longer.

See every future Alpha, Beta, and Gamma male has to go away for four years after their first shift at the age of 16 to train with the other soon to be pack leaders readying themselves for when it's their turn to take over from their fathers, Damon was sent to Texas, Jacob was sent to Denmark. only being released early if anything was to happen to their fathers.

Damon, is now considered as being ready for the Alpha position providing, he has found his true destined mate, his Luna, that was me. That's now been shattered by his greatest one-night mistake from the lust he couldn't restrain.

It sickens me to think I had actually waited for him.

My vision became blurry, my breathing became restricted as I tried to hurry across the training fields back to my safe haven, my room at my parents' house as I couldn't bear to be in my suite at the pack house around them. Alpha and Luna Black agreed under the circumstances it was for the best I have my own space. Towards the end of the field the agony had so deeply embedded itself in my chest, I doubled over clutching at my stomach as hot salty tears fell down my cheeks. I vomited on the dry grass of the field until there was nothing left inside of me.

My heart was broken and now, there was nothing left inside of me. I felt dead like, I felt like an empty shell. I felt as if I had nothing left to live for. My wolf howled and whimpered inside my head and took up residency in the furthest and darkest corner of my mind. Black dots swam before my eyes and before I knew it everything went black.