The ride back to his house was alright because of his calm facade. Although his quiet impression was weird to me at first as I thought he'd lash out at me the second he's alone with me for not leaving with him that day.

But to my surprise he didn't say anything and just drove silently, focused on driving. I don't know why but my gut feeling was that this isn't right and maybe this is probably the silence for the storm.

I mean his mood changes in like seconds, just like a ticking bomb. One second he'd be calm and quiet then the next he'd be pissed off shouting and swearing.

This dude got some serious anger issues I thought to myself. He first needs a doctor more for himself before he can cure others I joked internally.

Soon we reached our destination and without a glance he got out of the car heading inside. I grabbed my bag, walking up the steps as Maria aunty greeted me with a smile.

"Darling you'r back. Did you enjoy your stay?" She asked me to give her a hug. I nodded my head saying "yes."

"Do you want me to prepare your dinner now or after a short while?" She asked to take my bag in her hands but I grabbed it back not wanting her to carry it up the stairs.

"It's okay I can take it and thanks that would be nice. I'll just go and freshen up for dinner then, I have an early morning class too" I explained.

As I walked up the stairs to my room but stopped midway glancing back at Haider's room door left ajar. I can hear him arguing on the phone with someone.

I took small steps towards his door, trying to hear what he was saying but then decided against it; not wanting to get caught.

I turned back towards my room again, finishing my business in the bathroom and changing into more comfortable clothes.

When I came back into my room from the bathroom I heard my phone ring. I quickly went up to check who it was.

Not sure who's number that was so I decided on declining the call and throwing my phone back on my bed. I had gotten a call from that same number yesterday as well but I declined because I didn't know who it was.

I was about to grab my janamaz (prayer rug) to recite my isha prayer but halted when my phone ranged again.

This time I decided on picking up the call to see who it was as it was kind of getting annoying now. So I picked up the call.

"Hello" I said annoyingly.

"Hello?" I asked again but no reply. What the hell if you're not going to speak then why waste my time then I thought.

I was about to hang up but stopped as I heard a little noise on the other end.

"Hello? .....Zee?" Answered Kate on the other end. Oh my god finally she called.

"Kate! Oh my god, you finally decided to call" I asked sarcastically but felt a sense of relief hearing her voice after so long.

"Yeah sorry girl. I kinda got caught up with a lot of stuff" she said.

"Oh, okay. So, how are you and how is everything with your family going? ....wait.... Why are you calling me from a different number?" I asked confusedly but she immediately dodged those questions.

"Zee I don't have much time to say anything. Once I'm back I'll explain everything but I called to inform you that I'll be flying to England tomorrow and I don't know when I'll be back" she said in one breath.

"Wait, why? Is there a problem?" I was more confused. This sudden trip to England has me all even more confused.

"Hopefully I'll explain everything once I'm back, but for now I just wanted to inform you and Noor. I already told her and don't worry I'll be alright" she said.

"Okay, I hope everything's alright and that it has nothing to do with your father" I stated worriedly as she hung up immediately saying goodbye.

I have to meet up with Noor about something really weird about her now. I hope she has sensed it by now too. This is so unusual of her I thought.

I got up grabbing my janamaz (prayer rug) to recite my isha prayer again. Once I was done I headed back down for dinner so I could have at least thirty minutes to study before I go to bed.

I quickly had my dinner with Maria aunty and Bella, then headed for my small study session and then bed.

The next day I woke up early at eight AM as I had my first class at nine today. I am so tired, even though I probably had like a good eight hours of sleep.

I did wake up for fajr namaz before but went back to bed because of my tiredness. Perhaps a hot cup of coffee would really help today instead of chai.

This week has me really stressed out with so many assignments on top of my head. I really need a break, I thought but I can't, unfortunately.

I looked at the time on my phone and was startled at what the time was. I only had twenty five minutes to get to university and have breakfast fast. Plus the ride there would be like seventeen to twenty minutes long.

Once I was all ready, I grabbed my bag and headed down quickly almost tripping on the stairs but thank god I didn't, it was a close call.

Once I reached the kitchen and asked Maria aunty if she could serve me my breakfast fast as I was getting a little late I accidentally bumped into Haider on my way back to the dining table.

"Can't you watch where you're going? ...Are you blind?" He furiously shrieked at me.

"I'm... I'm s-so sorry, that was by accident. ...I-I didn't mean to" I tried to explain nervously as a cold shiver slid down my back, trying my best to speak up.

Seems like he's not in a good mood already. I wondered who or what had him so pissed off so early in the morning. I hope it doesn't have anything to do with me, I thought.

I tried to walk past him but he grabbed me by my left upper arm making me halt on my steps.

"I want you home today right after college. I don't want you roaming around with those two friends of yours or your brothers. Do you understand?" He asked, finishing what he had to say.

"Why? why do you care?" I dared to even question him in the first place.

"You'll find out!" He said walking away with a side smirk and up to his room.

What is he planning in his crazy mind I thought. Whatever it is, it definitely doesn't seem like it's right.

The only way out for me from this is to not obey his command. This means I'll definitely not be coming home after college today.

I'll just have to call one of my brothers then to pick me up from college and go visit Ami since Abu wasn't even here.

He had already left for Pakistan after my stay with them that week.

I just need to make sure that I get back before twelve, when he's already gone off to bed. I quickly had my breakfast and ran off to my Uber.

I just got done with my last class today for the week and thank god the weekend is finally here.

I legit thought that I won't be able to survive through this week. I had two exams for two of my classes this week which I think I totally bombed probably, I'm not even sure honestly.

I just hope I get lucky and pass them with a passing grade somehow as I mentally prayed and begged Allah for the miracle to happen.

I ordered an Uber to get back home which reminded me to ask Armaan, Hamdan, and Azaan bhai if they could teach me how to drive.

I really need to start driving to university by myself now as I feel like ordering an Uber is just making me waste way more money.

I mean I could ask them to pick and drop me off as well but I don't want to bother them.

Bashar uncle even offered to hire a driver for me who can pick and drop me off from university or for any of my other personal needs, but I declined.

Mostly because this is probably the only way for me to get my own license and drive by myself; and with me getting my own license will make it easier for me to inshallah get my own car as well as more freedom to go wherever I desire.

I want to do everything for myself by myself, not by somebody else I thought to myself as I walked up to the main entrance waiting for my Uber to arrive.

So that in the future if I do come upon a time where I'm in a bad situation, at least I won't need to ask somebody else for help and be dependent upon them.

Hopefully inshallah when I'm successful in succeeding my goals I'll be able to explore more of life rather than just staying in the same place for the rest of my life.

I got big dreams for myself to travel the world. I want to see more places, experience new cultures, taste new foods, and to grow my knowledge on how the world revolves.

I don't want to be bounded by some stupid cultural and traditional rules. I want to break through them and live my life to the fullest.

But by the looks of it I feel like those parts of my dreams are already shattered because of this marriage that I'm tied to.

I'm already fighting to try to get my education as I thought I would be but for some reason it seems like any moment would be snatched out of my hands also. And it will all be because this damn marriage I thought rolled my eyes.

If only I could turn back in time and had rejected this whole proposal then I wouldn't have been in this situation.

I could've still been studying now without a care in the world. However I fell in Abu trap of emotional blackmail and agreed.

There has never been a decision I regret so much in my life as this one I thought. I quickly snapped out of my thoughts as my Uber arrived.

I quickly got in the backseat, closing my eyes trying to relax a little as the driver tried to have a small chat with me but I clearly showed no interest.

I wasn't trying to be rude or anything. Plus he's a complete stranger so I just instructed him to drop me home.

As I closed my eyes I suddenly remembered what Haider had told me yesterday.

"Oh shit" I hit my forehead with my palm as I remembered everything from yesterday.

I had completely forgotten that he could be home tonight and I would have to face him. He certainly was not happy with what I did yesterday disobeying him, judging by the text message he had sent me during dinner.

I was lucky enough that he had already gone off to bed by the time I came home but unfortunately not today I thought.

I was scared out of my wits once I reached home. Getting out of the Uber and thanking the driver I checked to see if his car was there in the garage.

Sadly enough his car was right there parked in front of me.

I walked inside through the main door hoping that I don't see him or he doesn't see me because if he does then that would be a huge mess.

Not wanting to face him I tried as best as I could trying to pass through his office door which was opened; where I know he most definitely is like always.

Once I passed through his office door upon reaching the stairs up to my room I heard footsteps approaching me which instantly made me stop in my tracks.

"Zara!" I heard someone call out to me, stopping right behind me.