I didn't know what to do at this point now except to just listen and do what he said. Armaan, Hamdan and Azaan bhai came up on stage, as Nazri aunty helped me with my dress.

I was already a crying mess at this point from what Haider said to me when Armaan bhai gave me a bone crushing hug and kissed me on my right cheek and forehead.

"Don't worry gaulle (flower), everything will be fine. We're still with you. If you ever need anything remember that your brothers are still here for you and if there's ever trouble, you know I'm just a call away" he said into my ear tapping me on my head.

My eyes became moist again as I tried to hold back my tears, but I couldn't. Tears started to flow down my cheeks immediately and I started to shed more tears hugging him harder once those words left from his mouth.

I didn't feel like letting him go and wished I could just stay there so won't have to face what lies ahead for me.

He let me go and looked at me for a second trying to inspect why I was crying so much but of course I couldn't let him know.

I went to hug Hamdan and Azaan bhai next to ignore his intense stare, which was on me. Both of them hugged me at the same time on each side, trying to calm me down but it didn't help at all.

"Don't worry me and Azaan are not that easy to get rid of, we're going to follow you wherever you go. If you want we can move in with you, agar hamare sale saab ko koi shikayat na ho (if our brother-in-law doesn't have a problem)" said Hamdan bhai in my ear with a laugh.

On the other hand Azaan bhai was bawling his eyes out with me.

"I'm gonna miss you so much, '' he said between sobs.

"Me too" I said, trying to catch my breath.

Sara Baji and bhabi came to hug me as I was stepping down from the stage. Armaan bhai came with a white chadar (long white scarf) to cover me with it.

Hamdan bhai held the Quran over my head. This is a tradition that is said to keep the bride and groom away from the evil eye and so the bride can be under the shadow of the holy Quran.

I held on to Armaan bhai hand tightly, not letting it go as Feroze bhai and Abu came to hug me for a farewell.

Feroze bhai didn't say much except wishing me a farewell and giving me his blessings of a happy life, with a kiss on my forehead.

Abu wiped off my tears from eyes saying that I made him the happiest today that he's ever been.

Ami also hugged me crying while trying to whisper sweet words into my ear as I cried my heart out on her shoulder. She understood how much I wasn't ready for this marriage but she couldn't do much because of Abu.

"Allah tumhe hamesha khush rakhe, duniya ki saari khushyan de. Meri baat yaad rakhna beta, apne shouhar ka hayal rakna, uski izat karna aur unko kisi cheez ki shikayat ka mauka mat dena. Ab tum uski zamedari ho, samji? (May Allah always keep you happy, giving you all the happiness in this world. Remember my words, take care of your husband, honor him and don't give him a chance to complain about anything. Now you are his responsibility, understood?)" said Ami.

I pulled away from them and nodded my head at Ami showing her that I understood, still holding onto Armaan bhai hand as he walked me out.

As we walked to the main door Kate and Noor stood there waiting for me already. I said my farewell to them also hugged them both.

"Come on, you've been crying for the whole day now nonstop. It's getting kinda annoying. If I were you I'd be hella excited if I had to leave with a hot ass like him as my husband" Kate whispered into my ear.

Her saying actually made me more tense now since I'll be alone with him at his house. We won't be living with Basher uncle and Nazri aunty as they said that Haider likes to have his own privacy, so we'll be living alone.

Oh my god why didn't I think about this before, I thought that if uncle and aunty were with us then at least he won't dare to do anything but now I think it's worse.

"Ouch..... oh my god. I was joking dumb ass" Kate wined rubbing her upper arm.

"Don't listen to her since she's always blabbering random things," said Noor.

"Everything will be fine baby, don't worry. Call when you reach okay?" She asked and I nodded my head at them as we proceeded.

As we were out in the driveway waiting to settle in the car, I noticed to black cars that were parked to the side of the building.

I saw that someone was seated in there on a phone call staring right at me. Even Noor asked me if I knew who they were and I just shrugged my shoulders at her that I didn't know.

I kept on staring at the car until Haider interrupted me "you may go in first'' he said.

I nodded my head letting go of Armaan bhai's hand and hugged him and Hamdan bhai for the final time and got into the car.

Haider was already seated at the driver's seat and I got into the passenger seat beside him, driving away.

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Soon we reached his house, which was a half an hour long ride. His house was a beautiful three story house.

I wonder why he would need that big of a house all for himself and that too without his parents. As he drove up to the driveway, he parked the car and left without a word leaving me in the car all by myself.

I got out of the car as I struggled to walk up to the main door in my heavy lengha and went inside. The inside of the house was even more exquisite than the outside with all of the modern interior designs.

I stood by the main door for a good two minutes appreciating my surroundings.

"Good evening Mrs. Shah" I turned around to my right hearing a lady speak. She was short, about the same age as Ami and she seemed to be the helper that Nazri aunty told me about.

"Good evening, please call me Zara," I said.

"Okay Zara. My name is Maria, I hope Nazri mam has told you about me" she said with a smile on her face.

She walked up to me to help me walk in my lengha as she continued to introduce herself to me.

"I'm Mr. Shah's housekeeper. Your stuff is already placed in his bedroom so I'll help you walk up there" she said sweetly.

She helped me walk up the stairs to the master bedroom while we had small talks in between. She was so sweet and kept complimenting me on how beautiful I was and I couldn't help but appreciate her for her lovely remarks.

Once we reached the master bedroom, I stepped in and it was decorated beautifully with real rose petals.

The petals were scattered all over the floor and on the bed with a heart in the middle. There were LED candles on the side tables and around the whole room.

"I hope you like the decorations, I tried my best," Maria said.

"It's nice, I like it," I said looking around the room.

"I'll take my leave now, if you need anything just call me then" she said walking away towards the door.

"Where Haider?" I asked her before she left.

"Mr. Shah is by the pool. He had to make an important call so he'll be here shortly" she said.

I nodded my head at her as she left and closed the door behind her. Oh god, I don't want to face him after what he said.

He looked so pissed when he threatened me. If he wasn't so happy about this marriage, why did he agree in the first place then.

He could've simply said no and just left. It wasn't like I was in need of getting married.

"Uff.... wai Allah (oh god)" I groaned as I lay down in bed. I didn't want to think too hard right now. I was having a headache from all of this already and in need of sleep now but I couldn't sleep also because I was too scared.

Scared of his threat. What if he does something while I'm sleeping? No, no Zara you have to stay awake I reminded myself, getting up.

As soon as I got up from the bed to walk to the bathroom, I heard my phone buzz on the side table. I checked to see who it was and remembered that Kate and Noor would be calling me.

I picked up the call and listened to Kate telling me to wait so she could connect Noor also. Once all three of us were on call together Kate bombarded me with questions right away in one breath without taking a break.

"Girl chill, you'll give the poor child a heart attack" Noor said.

Both of them started giggling right away and I just rolled my eyes at them.

"Okay, so? What happened?" Noor asked. They seriously are so nosy and can't keep quiet.

"Nothing, he's not even here yet. He had to take an important call" I said, hoping that he wouldn't come at all.

I was feeling really nervous already and my stupid friends are not helping at all, they're making more scared asking all these questions.

We kept talking for two more minutes until I heard the doorknob move and I turned around to look for who it was and it was none other than Haider.

"I'll call you guys back later, bye" I said and quickly hung up.

Now I'm really frightened. I don't know what to do other than to just sit back on the bed and stay still. He came in and threw his waistcoat on the sofa by the wall walking to the bathroom in a fast pace, closing the door behind him with a bang.

He really is furious about something and I'm pretty damn sure it's got something to do with me, as he told me. Obviously I'm so stupid when he already warned me.

Oh god, Allah meri madat karna (god please help me) I thought to myself. I quickly read Ayat-Ul-Kursi (prayer) to myself, so I can calm down a little and relax.

When I was done reading it out aloud to myself he came out of the bathroom, with a box in his hands. His hair was wet meaning that he had changed and showered

He walked over to the sofa and sat down putting the box on the table. He opened the box taking out a syringe from it and a small bottle with something in it.

I didn't know what it was but I kept my gaze on him the whole time, focusing on what he was trying to do. He pulled the needle cover off the syringe and inserted the needle in the small bottle upside down, pulling the plunger of the syringe to fill it.

Once he was done filling it up he inserted the needle of the syringe in his arm. I gasped covering my mouth with my hand, seeing him inserting the needle in his arm.

What is he doing? I thought to myself of getting scared. He looked up at me while the needle was still in his arm, hearing my gasp.

"What? You've never seen someone getting a shot?" He asked. I stayed quiet and looked down from staring at him.

Once he was done vaccinating himself with whatever that was he started laughing out loud to himself and poured him some drink.

He kept drinking for about twenty-five more minutes as I kept watching him, staying seated on the bed quietly being alert with my surroundings.

He poured himself another glass, raising it, asking me if I wanted to drink. I simply just nodded my head at him looking away.

I looked back seeing him smirk and laugh out loud again shaking his head sided side.

"I can't believe this. My parents really made me marry you, a fucking child. Chal kya raha tha uske demagh mein? (What was going on in their minds?)" he said laughing out loud.

"Why did you agree to this marriage? Tell me, was it the money? Huh?" He said getting up, walking up to the bed, standing in front of me.

I didn't know what he meant by saying all this and just shook my head. I couldn't even say a word out of my mouth because I was scared out of my wits, not knowing what he was about to do to me.

"You know I didn't expect you to be a gold digger since your family is pretty well off by themselves" I could believe he thought of me like this. A gold digger really? I thought.

"It's no-nothing like t-that" I tried to reason. "Then what is it?" He screamed, throwing the glass at the wall breaking it into pieces.

I screamed out of fear instantly, covering my ears with my hands. He looked around the room staring at the decorations, he grabbed the vase of roses and threw it on the wall screaming again.

My heart was pounded so fast out of fear by his actions. I burst into tears as my whole body started to shake as well.

He grabbed onto my upper arm pulling me towards him but I tried to push him away. He grabbed me by my hair making me face him, looking him straight in his dark black eyes. I can see the anger in his eyes like he was ready to avenge.

"Why didn't you pick up my call then when I called you?" He asked me. I wasn't able to answer him back because of the pain he was inflicting on my arm.

I could smell the alcohol from his warm breath as he asked me this. I tried to move away as much as possible but his grip on my arm was too tight.

"Now bear the consequences. You brought this upon yourself" he said, throwing me onto the bed.

I tried getting up and when I turned around I saw him pulling his shirt over his head standing there half naked.

I tried moving to the other side of the bed but it was nearly impossible because of my heavy lengha (dress).

He grabbed on to my dupatta (scarf), snatching it off my head, as the pins snapped off pierced into my skin.

I squeaked out of pain as the pins that held my dupatta (scarf) on my back dug more into my skin and hurt.

"I-I'm s-sorry" I hiccuped trying to speak, But he didn't listen to a word I was saying.

He grabbed onto my arm again when I tried to get off the bed and threw me on himself as he was on his knees on the bed. He slid his hands around my waist pushing me up against him and grabbed me by my neck.

"Ouch..... your h-hurting me. P-please s-s-stop, you're not in your senses" I screeched as he tightened his grip. I'm pretty sure by now that my necklace would have left it's marks on me.

"Hurt? Huh. You'r hurting huh, but do you know how hurt I am?" He said near my ear.

"I'm sorry to say this sweetheart but you need to endure the pain I went through also" he said and started kissing me down my neck.

I pushed hard at his chest but he didn't budge, instead he slapped me right across my cheek onto the bed.

His hands were roaming all over my body and I tried my best to push him off me but it was impossible because of his heavy weight.

He grabbed my hands and placed them above my head with his right hand while the other slid down my neck and onto my chest.

He grabbed onto my left breast and squeezed it harshly through my dress. That's when I figured that he was about to rape me. I can't let this happen. He's drunk and not aware of what he's doing.

I have to stop him, ya Allah please help. Do something, stop him or give me the strength to push him off, I begged in my mind to my creator, bawling my eyes out.

I need to run, that is my only option now, I can't let him do this. I need to save myself from him. He went on to my right breast squeezing it harshly also, just like he did to the other and I screamed with my cries trying to push him off me but he held my hands tightly.

He lifted my dress up above my chest exposing me only with my black bra on. I tried to fight him by trying to bite on his arm but it was far from my reach so I squirmed against his body to move from him as he moved his hand again against my mouth.

This was my chance, so I bit him hard on his arm. He got off me shrieking in pain, cursing and throwing insults at me.

"You fucking bitch, how dare you?" he asked as he tried to grab on to me again but I was quick and kick him right in his stomach off the bed and ran.

I didn't know where to go other than the bathroom. So I ran as fast as I could to the bathroom but I slipped in my lengha (dress), this dress sure is a pain in the ass I thought.

I quickly got up and looked behind me and saw him getting up to walk up to me, still cursing. I turned and ran to the bathroom door, opening it and getting in, making sure to lock it after myself.

As I stood behind the door I heard him screaming my name "ZARA! ....you think you can get away with this easily huh" he said banging on the door.

"Open the door damn it" he banged on it again but I didn't dare to open it. I slid down the door onto the floor crying in pain as I tried to take off my earrings that he pulled on so harshly.

It hurt, it hurt so bad that there even was blood all over my earrings. It felt like my ears were ripping apart when he held onto my neck next to my ear.

He banged on the door again but not as hard as before "open the damn door before I break it" he said muttering, loud enough got me to hear.

He kept on banging for a few more seconds until I heard him walk away. I wasn't going to fall for this and still not open the door.

It might be a trick to get me to open the door so I decided on staying here for sometime. I looked at my hands which had scratch marks all over them and his hand marks on my upper arm from holding them so tightly.

I walked up to the sink placing the earrings on the counter and washed my hands from the blood but it burned so bad that I had to stop and look around for toilet paper to wipe the blood off instead.

I found the toilet paper by the sink and ripped some off to tap on my scars on my hand and neck.

I looked around the bathroom and saw a door towards my right next to the sink. I walked up there opening the door and saw that it was the walk-in closet.

I walked in and was amazed at the amount of clothes, shoes, watches and ties that he had which were all placed so nicely and neatly.

As I walked in hope to find my clothes there also so I could change as Maria had told me that she had set my belongings in the closet, but to my disappointment they were not there.

I slid down to the floor again, pressing hard on my marks so the blood can stop. As I sat down in the closet I thought about everything that happened today.

How fast my life changed in an instant. Just one or two days ago I was having the time of my life with my family celebrating, having fun, enjoying spending time with them and now I'm here all alone fighting a monster so I could save my life.

Was this the life Abu thought was good for me and wanted me to live? Was this the man that was good for me? Who drinks, tried to rape me and abuse me on my wedding night.

"NOO, N-NOO" I screamed crying out loud. No, no, no no I thought. Because I know that I didn't want this.

I know that I never wanted to get married, I never wanted to agree but I was emotionally blackmailed. I'm so stupid, how can I be so dumb? How?

How can I be so stupid? How? I thought, slapping myself on each cheek over and over again. I cried. Cried my eyes out upon my realization, on my stupidity.

I couldn't even do anything now. It's not in my hands now, I cried. I kept on crying until I was too tired to even think anymore and soon drifted off to sleep, on the floor.

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I woke up to someone knocking on the door from the bathroom. I opened my eyes and found myself still in the closet, trying to remember why I was sleeping here.

Then everything came to my mind like a puddle of water splashed on my face as I remembered what happened last night. His threat, his screams, his abuse, everything flashed before my eyes. Tears fell from my eyes.