“I am here to talk.” As soon as I said these words to weak Theo, his face glowed with hope. I understand his desire for explanation. Trina passed me his short message where he hoped for a conversation with me and apologise to Annie, which, of course, I didn't deliver to Annie as she is still a little traumatized by the whole incident.

“I am so sorry… It was not my intention to yell at Annie. She is sweet. And kids are honest. I understand her dislike for me.” Theo rushed towards me while speaking. His words were from north and south. Nothing made sense. Once he is sorry, later he talks about understanding my daughter's dislike for him. But Theo couldn't reach me as James stood in between us, stopping Theo to come face to face with me.

“Mr Carter, I need to have this conversation with Anna.” I could feel the anger in Theo's voice.

Pulling James away from Theo, I finally got a look at Theo. He seemed weak, failed. His allergies must have given him a series of struggles. He couldn't even meet me, as he wasn't able to walk. Theo was THAT weak. We both were admitted on the same day with a few hours difference. We were on the same floor, but I didn't see him, nor he could meet me. I was lost after learning about my miscarriage.

Even though I never thought of a future with my babies… I hoped for better things with them; My girls; My triplets. I simply enjoyed THAT present, which is a past now. Not only that, but I regret not visiting a doctor. I don't have any memory of them. No scans. No report. Just one report where I discovered my pregnancy. That's it.

“She is MY WIFE, Mr Edwards. You can express everything you want. As she is my equal.” James mocked him, intentionally. He is insecure as Trina delivered her speech of disliking The moneymaker, who brought her husband's law firm and want to deal with the parents of the last surrogate who lost her life while carrying our child. I still feel James has a worse decision-making capacity when it comes to his personal life. He wanted to return a son to Adrian. That son could have been mine. Since all the surrogates carried my children. And, James never asked me.

“He wants to talk to ME.” Pushing James from me, I touched his chest. His heart blasted in his chest cavity. I felt that. The heartbeat from neutral to a nuclear explosion.

Touching my hand over his chest, he pressed my hand on his chest. I think he wanted me to feel that race. “You and me are equal.” He said, looking right into my eyes, with determination.

I pulled my hand from his grip. He knows I am infatuated with him. Maybe I am obsessed with him. I don't know, I haven't explored this feeling. All I know is that I have been dreaming about James since the age of 8, when I first saw him at Ryan Harrison's house. That was before he come, a basketball star whose Era was ended before it started.

“I want to talk to Theo.” I didn't dare to look at James. He has the ability to hypothesise me. And, I hate the fact that I have a long road to travel to get out of the grip of my husband.

“Fine.” James sighed and walked back to the car. Leaning at my side of the door of the car, “I am here… Watching you.” he warned Theo.

Theo scoffed. “He is behaving like a jealous.....”

“Husband.” I finished the statement for Theo. Lately, I am getting bolder and bolder day by day. At the beginning of the year, I never thought I could be dragging James out of MY property. I assumed that I would be a homeowner. All I prayed for James to acknowledge me. But turns out, all those memories were implanted. I was brainwashed. How did Norma do this? What was her way?

“You are not going to leave him?” Theo took one step towards me, and we heard James coughing.

“That's between him and me.”

“You will not leave him.” Stating, Theo sounded broken. “You know nothing other than him.”

“You are wrong.” I tried to stay strong. Hearing the same accusation from various people is disheartening. They have no idea what I am going through. I need time to move on from James… But now, James is trying for us, while I am trying to for me.

“You will stay with him… At first, it would be for kids. Later it would be another kid in the picture. Trust me, I foresaw that.” Theo is getting angry. His words are attacking me. Why it is hard for people to have patience. I can't move on from James overnight. That man lives in the same house, knows how to use Jace whenever I try to throw him out of the house. Even Zippy is his fan now. Jamie is getting closer and Annie… After Theo screamed at her, she wants James to put her on the bed.

Sometimes, I want to quit and go to… South Pole.

Taking a lungful of air, I looked at Theo. I am not taking his words like I did with James. I need to tell Theo that I demanded respect too. “I can consider that option.”

“So James and I are an option for you now.”

“I am so sorry for giving you wrong ideas about my feeling,” I mumbled. “I hope, you find a heart to forgive me and be a friend. I am focusing on myself…” I said and walked away from him inside the orphanage.

Staying means explaining me to Theo Edwards. I think he is not a mature person to understand my struggle. I shouldn't be explaining to him why I need to focus on myself. Cherish was right. I can be sad. And, like a normal person, I must focus on myself to improve my surroundings.

“Is everything ok, my child?” Father asked, as soon as he entered into his cabin. Sierra asked me to wait for him in his cabin, and I couldn't help but see the photo of Cherish and me on the table. Norma must have given to them. He even has my twins as babies with him. He even has Jamie with zippy. I assumed it's all from Norma.

“I am fine…” I said without looking at my father, as I was busy looking at my twins. They look the prettiest while sleeping. “I missed their milestone,” I mumbled.

“I have recorded it for you.” Father was beside me. I looked up and found him, smiling at me. “Annie is nothing like you.” His eyes shifted to the photo frame. “She talks a lot… Especially with strangers. It's like she has a superpower. She knows who needs help.”

“What about Jace?” I asked.

“He is quite… Smart. Even he has a superpower. He handles the situations.” Father smiled with adoration and sat next to me. “I can't believe my daughter is a mother now.”

“What about Amy?” I asked with the hope of hearing anything about my sister.

Father seemed defeated. “She never contacted us.”

“It's easy to blame others when you play an equal role in this life.” It's still a mystery, but these words of Cherish is haunting me since the confrontation.

“Did you try to contact her?” I asked, recalling how I was betrayed by my parents. Amy hasn't contacted them. My sister is not with her supposed to be husband. Then where is she? “She's not with Ryan Harrison as well.” Informing him, I waited for his reaction.

“How do you know that?” He asked. Now, I see, him, panicking. Did Amy's absence never bother him?

“I am Anastasia Carter,” I remembered Olivia, the receptionist of Dr Harrington's words. She claimed I give the vibe of a powerful person. “Harrison are popular people and our competitors,” I said, without thinking. I don't care whether my last claim was right or not. I got the news of the absence of any permanent women in Ryan Harrison's life through Trina. Together with her, I stalk others like I am a teenager. I used to stalk celebrities through Television, magazines. But time is changed now. I have internet.

“Amy came to me almost a decade ago. She claimed that everything was fine and they moving out of the country. At the same time, when Katherine threw her out of the house. She swears that if she sees Amy again, she would kill herself. She held Amy responsible for your destruction. “ Looking at me, “Katherine…. Was devastated when I opened my eyes. She patiently waited for me to walk. And, when I walked, she panicked. She wanted you back at home with us… With Cherish. We were already three years late. Mrs Carter threw us out. We were even attacked, we had to shift. We were lost. That's when Norma found us… She met us, and we would plan for your return. We saved money for you. I know, you don't appreciate her way, but I am convinced, She never evaluated the presence of another possibility. Otherwise, she would have done that.”

“She implanted a false memory in my mind. I don't understand what is real or what is her implanted story.” I am angry now. Why is everyone supporting Norma? Because of her, I lost 16… No, it's 17 now. 17 years of my life.

“I am not the right person to answer that. I don't know the answers. The only person who knows the answer is Norma, herself.”

“Why did everyone support her?" I asked that question which has been haunting me. These people watched me, losing the important years of my life. I could have achieved so much.

“No one supported her… She never expressed anything to anyone. Daniel called for our meeting and Marvin was shocked when he unfolded everything to us. That's when she stopped doing it. That was the time when Jamie was about to join. Marvin made sure that you visit the psychiatrist, and Daniel took you to every appointment. I know, you never noticed. But Norma was never allowed in your therapy. We were waiting for you to be financially stable so that Twins can join you.”

“James said Norma wanted me to live.” I looked around and noticed mother, standing just outside the cabin. She must have heard us. The door was ajar. She is crying. She even had flowers of White lilacs to represent purity and celibacy; the same purity that I lost.

“That's what Daniel and Marvin claimed.” Father sounded distracted. I looked at him and found him looking at Mother, but it wasn't the look that Father gave to Mother. The love was missing.

“Because of Mrs Carter.” I continued.

“That's what Daniel and Marvin believe,” Father answered. Now, I feel his attention towards me.

I looked at him. “What do you think? Is Mrs Carter dangerous? She has been missing for a month now. We are looking for her, but her location isn't permanent. She is moving… Like a wind. Here… And there…”

“I think there is more to the picture. Because I have noticed her. She appeared a confused soul, despite her vicious look.”

Why do I feel we all are still ignoring something important?

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