It's been a month since we got back from New York. Javon and I have been pretty busy trying to balance out school and all our other stuff for work. I've had heaps of photoshoots with big brands and companies which has been amazing and even Wanna has had some too. Recently, I have been offered a role in a new movie which I'll start filming for soon but luckily it's based in Atlanta so I don't need to move around. Wanna and I have had a few small fights every now and then but they usually resolve themselves after 10 mins because we feel too bad for each other. I've become even closer with Jayla and Jaden which I can tell Javon sometimes gets jealous about but he gets over it. When we got back from NYC, Wanna and I got an invitation to the oscars which was super fucking exciting. Who would have thought that I would be invited the FUCKING OSCARS!? NOT EVEN INVITED! I GOT NOMINATED! A year or more ago, I was sitting in my room applying for the role of euphoria with no expectations of getting the part. And now. I've become a popular character on the show, a model and have a new movie coming up where I am the lead role. I can tell my dad's extremely proud of me because he likes to remind me every minute but I guess I can say that I'm pretty proud of myself too.

Today is the day of the oscars and I don't think I've ever been this nervous. It's my first time going to an event this big but I'm glad I can go with Javon. The award I've been nominated for is the Best female actress under 20, but I doubt that I'd win. Wanna wasn't actually nominated for an award but was still invited. He told me he didn't really care that he wasn't nominated as it would be too much stress to loose. Yes, I have a pretty big role in euphoria but its highly unlikely I'll get the award. A week ago, my manager took Javon and I to a fitting so that we could pick out matching outfits for the oscars. Both our managers said it would be great for us as a couple and for pictures. We tried on many suit and dress options for hours until we found a matching bright yellow dress and suit.

no buttons done up on the jacket, shirtless, smaller pearls and smaller black square frame glasses

yellow eyeliner line on lid, dainty necklace, silver sparkly heals.

6:00pm oscars day

My dad as well as the Walton's (besides mumps who is getting babysat) are coming to the oscars tonight as Wanna and I invited them. Last night we all (including mumps) flew out to Hollywood and stayed at a hotel close to the where the oscars are being held which is at the Dolby Theatre. Currently, Wanna and I were finishing up getting our hair and makeup done and getting dressed before heading out to the limo which was picking us and our families up. Our parents were across the hall getting ready and Jaden and Jayla were in the room next to us also getting ready.

Finally, I was fully dressed up, all I had left to do was put on my high heals. I slipped on each shoe and thanked my hair and makeup artist before I made my way out of the room I was getting ready in. I hadn't seen Wanna yet so I was excited to see how he looked all dressed up. As I opened up the door I was met with Javon who was about to knock. We both smiled and let out a small laugh before he took my hand and kissed the back of It in a joking way.

"You look absolutely stunning ma," he smiled.

"So do you pretty boy," I replied.

I gave him a soft peck on the lips before being interrupted by both of our managers coming into the hotel room.

"You guys look amazing," Wanna's manager smiled.

"Sorry to ruin a good moment but your families are ready and the car is waiting down stairs," my manager, Lucy, laughed.

Javon and I exchanged a nod followed by a small grin and were lead into the hallway to meet our families. Jayla was in a fancy but simple red dress, Jaden in a black tux with a red tie, Jess in an also fancy but simple green dress, DJ in a black tux green tie and my dad in a grey tux with a yellow tie to match Wanna and I. We thought it would be nice if he matched us since, you know, my mom couldn't really be here.

"Y/n you look beautiful!" Jayla squealed, and ran over to give me a tight hug.

"Can you see your self cookie!?" I squealed back.

I could hear Jaden and Wanna complementing each other in the background of Jayla and my squeals. After pulling out of the hug with Jayla and calming down, I was complimented by everyone and made sure to let everyone know how good they looked. I knew how slim my chances of winning the award were so I hadn't wrote a speech or anything so I low-key hope I don't win.

"We gotta get going guys," Lucy smiled.

"Follow us," Wanna's manager said, nodding his head towards the elevator.

We were just about to pull out the front of the Dolby Theatre. We had been told that the hardest part of being at the Oscars was actually getting out and back inside the limo because we had to be quick. It was just Javon and I getting out now as the others would go through that back entrance and we would meet them at their table which was next to ours.

As we pulled out the front we said a quick goodbye to everyone before the driver opened the door for us. People started swarming the limo with cameras, asking us questions. Wanna held his hand out for me and helped me out of the car.

"How long have you kids been together for?"

"y/n. When's the new movie out?"

"Have you guys got anything big coming up?"

"Do you miss your mom y/n?"

"Anything new with you guys?"

So many questions were being asked. I felt a small wave of shock hit me when someone asked about my mom but wanna gripped my hand tighter so I let the comment go. We walked through the doors, trying our hardest to ignore the paparazzi. Once we made It inside, we walked down the red carpet together and answered a few interviews and took photos which took a while but hopefully we looked great and I didn't say anything weird.

After the interviews and pictures, we went to the main area of the red carpet to meet people. We first met up with Angus who said he was gonna stay with us and we said a quick hi to Zendaya but we were going to see the rest of the cast inside at our table.

We were just standing around when I felt someone put their hand on my shoulder, I jumped a little in shock and turned around to see no other than TIMOTHEE CHALAMET! I felt myself freeze and my jaw slightly dropped. I have always looked up to Timothee. Z has told me heaps about him and he's kinda been my celeb crush since I was young.

"Hey sorry didn't mean to frighten you, I believe your Y/n and your Javon right?" Timothee asked.

I couldn't bring myself to answer him even though I tried hard which made Wanna giggle.

"Yeah that's us, sorry she's a big fan," Javon laughed.

I slightly slapped his arm and smiled at the two of them.

"Z's told me a lot about you two, I think it's amazing what you guys have completed at such a young age," Timothee smiled.

"Thanks. She's told us a lot about you too," I smiled back.

Wanna, Timothee, Angus and I talked for a while and also got some pictures taken together before it was time to head into the awards ceremony.

I was currently sat at a table with the rest of the euphoria cast. Right now they were announcing that the best actor went to Will Smith. Some shit went down where Will slapped Chris across the face for talking bad about his wife which made Wanna and I slightly laugh but we tried so hard to contain ourselves because we didn't want to get in drama.

Now it was the best actress. I felt like this was easily going to Zendaya. I mean I might be bias because she's my friend but I genuinely think this is hers.

"Now for the nominees for the best actress," Jimmy (the announcer) spoke.

The screen turned on behind him and it started showing a few scenes from Rue in euphoria and it said on the screen. Then , 'andI could tell the Z was getting quite nervous and honestly so was I. I hoped she'd get this.

"And the Oscar goes too..... Zendaya, Euphoria!" Jimmy announced. 'All for us' started playing on the speakers as we all cheered for Z. Her face lit up when her name was called.

"YOU DID IT Z!" I yelled. "She did it J," I smiled.

We continued to scream and shout for her as she made her way onto the stage and said a speech which she was obviously prepared for. She started to tear up towards the end of her speech which made me tear up for her.

After she finished her speech and came back to sit at the table, we all hugged and congratulated her for her award before they started on the best actor under 20 which went to Finn Wolfhard for stranger things. We had met before and he was super nice so I was extremely happy for him.

Now was the time for the best actress under 20. I felt the nerves start to build up inside me as everyone on the table shot me a slight smile. Even though I had a very small chance of winning, I was still scared shitless. I felt Javon place his hand on my thigh to stop my leg from shaking and I placed my hand on top of his. It was weird because Storm Reid and I were both nominated for this role but we were close enough for it not to be a competition or be awkward.

"Each of the young actresses in our next category have extraordinary talent and this year is the first year for all of these young actresses. Now for the nominees for the best actress under 20 years of age." Jimmy spoke.

The same thing happened as the other awards. The screen turned on behind Jimmy showing scenes of stranger things,

The butterflies started filling up in my stomach as I gripped tighter onto Wanna's hand in fear. 'What if it is me? should I have wrote a speech' 'No it won't be me what the fuck'

"AND THE OSCAR GOES TO........ Y/N Y/L/N!" jimmy announced.

"stranger.................. still don't know my name!" still don't know my name was playing on the speakers, making the whole place seem like the show.

Wanna shook my leg as I snapped into the reality that I had just won a fucking Oscar. No surely I heard that wrong.

"MA YOU DID IT! YOU DID IT MA!" Wanna yelled.

yelp. I guess I heard right. I huge smile plastered across my face as everyone cheered for me as I stood up from my seat and nervously made my way towards the stage. All these people. I have to freestyle talk in front of everyone here and try not to fucking cry.

As I stepped up to the stage, I was handed the award and given a hug and kiss on the cheek by Jimmy who directed me over to the microphone. As I stood in front of it I froze, looking at all of the famous people in front of me who were still cheering. The music stopped and a let out a small giggle into the micro phone.

"Shit okay I'm really really nervous," I giggled which made the crowd laugh. "So I didn't expect this, like at all, so I'm not prepared one bit but bare with me," I smiled.

I felt myself speaking quite fast from the nerves, "I just wanted to say thank you to um the tv academy and all the other incredible girls in the category, I admire you all so much, this is um, woah, this is pretty crazy. Look I want to say thank you to HBO for all your support um thank you to my manager which helped make this all happen. To the incredible cast of euphoria, um I'm so lucky to be able to work with all of you and I'm inspired by all of you and everything you do, and um to Sam Levinson, I appreciate you so much Sam and I'm so grateful for my character of Mackenzie, I'm so grateful that you trusted me with this role and your story I hope I can continue to do you proud. uh, Thank you to the Walton's for always supporting me for everything I do and helping out my dad and I. A special thank you to my boyfriend Javon." I nervously spoke. Everyone started aww'ing which made me giggle and let off sone of my nerves.

"Wanna, I love you so much and thank you for all your support weather it be when filming, working, in school or in our free time. I love you J." I blew a kiss at him.

"A very huge thank you to my dad. Dad this couldn't have been done without you, you have been so supportive of me and I couldn't ask for a better father. None of this could have happened without your support with everything I love you so much."

"okay. *let out a deep breath*" I felt my eyes start to tear up as I took another deep breath. "Sorry," I smiled, letting a tear fall from my cheek. I started to slow down my speaking and hold back the tears. "To my mom. Before we lost you, I remember you told me that I had to make you proud and ever since the day that you passed, that is all i've been trying to do. I miss you so much mom and wish everyday that I could say another goodbye or thank you for everything you did for dad and I. I love you mom and hope I've made you proud," I sniffled, finally letting the tears fall off my cheeks.

The crowd started cheering as I held my trophy in the air and made my way back to my seat, dabbing the tears which had slightly made my mascara run.

As I sat down, I was met by many congratulations from the cast, tables around us, the Waltons and of course my dad.

"I'm so proud of you darling, I know mom would be too," he sniffled. I can tell he has been crying. I gave him a tight hug, "Thanks dad, I love you."