Time skip// 5 days since SneakerCon // April 12th

It's Sunday today and I was currently standing next to the front door of the Walton's house next to Javon and Jayla, waiting for Jaden to be ready. We heard a bedroom door open from upstairs and watched as Jaden jumped down the stairs, almost flying, and then running towards us.

"I'm ready," he panted. "Yeah finally, only took you like what," javon said looking down at his pretend watch, "a month?" "You're buggin, I did not take that long," Jaden cackled. "Anyways, Jayla's taking us to Chic- Fil- A," javon mentioned. We all followed Jayla out the front, towards her car. I hopped in the back seat with Javon whilst Jaden and Jayla got in the front.

When we arrived at Chic- Fil- A, we decided that we would go inside and eat. We ordered our food and sat down at a booth table. I sat next to javon, facing Jayla and Jaden. Javon had his hand rested on my thigh which was comfortable. I looked around the place to notice the cashier eyeing down javon and I. I gave her a smile, thinking she must have been a fan or something, to which she rolled her eyes at.

My friends had realised what I was looking at and jayla asked, "What the fuck's up with that cashier?" as she looked over at Javon and I. Javon looked up from his phone, "I saw that too but didn't wanna mention it." "I think she likes Javon," Jaden spoke bluntly. Javon was now looking at the cashier and then turned back to us to giggle, "nah I think I'm ok," before looking back down at his phone. Soon our food arrived and we talked and ate for a while before finishing and heading back to the car. "Let's film a TikTok," Javon suggested. "Sure, which one?" Jayla asked. "This one," javon giggled, showing us the tiktok on his phone. It was the one that was like 'my name is boom boom. BOOM BOOM BOOM.' Javon set up his phone, resting on the tyre of jayla's car and pressed record.

After filming and letting out way too many laughs, we started the drive back home. Jayla dropped me off at my house and I said goodbye to them before they drove back to their house and I went inside to have a shower and get ready for school.

"Hey honey, how was your day?" my dad asked as I walked in the door. "Great thanks, what about you?" "It was amazing, I caught up with some old friends." "That sounds fun," I smiled, walking into the kitchen to grab some water. "Remember I leave for my work trip early tomorrow morning for a week," he said. "Yes I remember. I'll miss you," I smiled. "I'll miss you too, I'm going to head to sleep as I have to be up at 4am." "Okay goodnight dad I love you." "I love you too honey," he said, before heading into his room. I finishing drinking my water and then headed up to my bathroom to have a shower.

It had been about an hour since I got home, I'd showered, got changed into comfy pjs and was now scrolling through tiktok. I'd been scrolling aimlessly through tiktok for ages now and I started falling asleep. I wasn't really paying attention to the tiktoks that were playing until one came up which was an edit of a girl making out with a guy on the couch at a party. It zoomed in and out and paused, playing the sound 'back back back stabber'. 'Oh I thought it was going to be a cute tiktok,' I thought to myself. I looked down the screen and started reading the caption out loud. "She didn't deserve this. I'm so sorry y/n-," I read. I was fully awake now and quickly sat up and re read the caption. Yep, I read that right. 'It's probably a different y/n," I said, trying to calm myself down. I re-watched the edit to realise that the guy was javon. I was in complete shock with zero emotion. I re-watched the tiktok, over and over again trying to tell myself that it wasn't javon. But is was and there was no way I could deny it to myself.

Tears starting pouring out of my eyes, I was in complete shock. Why would he do something like this. I thought he fucking loved me. We've been together for more than a year, what the fuck. I opened the comments with tears streaming out of my eyes.

As I read the last comment I realised that maybe I deserved it. I was fucking stupid if I thought someone like Javon would want to stay with someone like me. I scrolled through the comments until I found a tag to the girl who posted the original video. I quickly clicked on the girls tag and read the username I sat there in complete shock and clicked on the most recent video. The original video started playing of Javon and Emily making out with music of the party blasting in the back ground.

I fully switched off my phone so I couldn't get notifications and threw it across the room in tears. Javon, fuck, that was bad enough but with fucking Emily Anderson.

Do you remember when I first auditioned for euphoria and I was up against a girl called Emily? The one who was a complete bitch to me and all she wanted was to get with Javon? Yeah well thats Emily Anderson. The one that Javon's fucking making out with in that fucking video. I bursted out crying into my pillow. I'd never felt more depressed in my life except for maybe when my mom passed.

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After I'd cried for nearly 2 hours last night, sitting alone in my quiet, boring room, I passed out from all the crying which had drained my energy.

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"BEEEEEEEEPPP BEEEEEEEEPPP BEEEEEEEEPPP," my alarm rang to wake me up for school. I shut the alarm off and dug my head into my pillow. My dad had left early this morning so I decided there was no fucking chance I was going to school. I turned my phone back on and it filled with notifications. About 30 from Javon including messages, snaps and missed calls, as well as a few from Jaden and Jayla. Along with those, I had many instagram dm's from fans being sorry or telling me I deserved it and also many tags on tiktoks. I opened Javon's messages and snaps.

J 💞

- Hello?

- MA?

- MA!!!!

- did you fall asleep?

- are you ignoring me?

- wait nvm it says you were seen 3 hours ago

- goodnight ma

- I love you

- see you at school xx

Snapchat was the same. Was he just gonna ignore the fact that he cheated on me with fucking Emily. Maybe he didn't know the video got out. I silenced his notifications on messages and snap. I still felt too bad to block him because I still fucking loved him and I also didn't want to loose all our streaks on snap. I unpinned Javon on snap and then opened Jayla's chats on snap as she was 2nd pinned.

- hey girl javon's worried about you are you okay?

- nvm I think your asleep

- love you goodnight queen

3 mins ago

- want me to take you to school?

I read through all her chats and replied to the last one with a picture of me. I currently had tears running down my face and mascara was smudged everywhere. I looked really rough. I typed on the pic I had just taken saying

She opened the snap almost immediately and started typing in the chat.

- Y/N WHATS WRONG!?

- I'M COMING OVER RIGHT NOW

- CAN I BRING JAVON AND JADEN?

you can bring Jaden but not javon. I need to show you guys something -

don't tell javon-

- okay we are coming right now I love you

love you too cookie-

I quickly grabbed a makeup wipe and wiped away the mascara. I re did my hair, throwing it into a messy pony tail and waited for Jaden and Jayla to arrive.

"y/n?" I heard from the front door. I threw on a hoodie and went to answer the door. I opened the door and was hugged straight away by the both of them. I let them inside, not saying a word, and walked up to my room in which they followed. "What's wrong?" Jaden asked concerned. "are you okay?" jayla asked. I ignored them and sat myself down in my bed. They came and sat on either side of me giving me another tight hug.

"Did something happen with you and Wanna?" Jayla asked. At this point I couldn't hold it, I bursted out in tears but was luckily comforted by my friends. "You know you can tell us anything," Jaden smiled. I calmed myself down and told them to watch my phone.

I opened tiktok and went into my saved videos. I clicked on the recently saved one which was the original version that Emily posted and let it play for Jaden and Jayla. They watched in absolute shock. When it finished they both looked at me. "Is that fucking Wanna!?" Jaden said angrily. I nodded my head, letting more tears flow out of my eyes. "I swear to fucking god I'm going to beat him up," Jaden said jumping up from my bed. "I'm so sorry. this doesn't seem like him. I'd never expect this from him," Jayla said. It looked like she was about to cry. "I didn't expect it either," I sobbed.

They comforted me for another 10 mins before they had to leave for School. "I'm so sorry, we'd stay with you today but I've got a really important test and Jaden has baseball," Jayla explained. "It's okay guys, I'll be fine." "We love you y/n" Jaden said, giving me a hug. "I love you guys too," I said, faking a smile. I let them out of the door and went back to my room to fall back asleep.