"Dad! Knock it off!" Emily shouts as she stomps upstairs. She is 13 years old and her temper is just as bad as her dads. I roll my eyes sitting down on the bar stool. My feet fucking hurt and my ankles are swollen. Harry finally after literally 6 years convinced me to have another child. I was very hesitant simply because there is such an age gap between Emily and Landon. I am having a boy this time and I am so excited to have a little baby boy.

"She hates me." Harry sighs sitting next to me pressing a kiss to my temple.

"No she doesn't. She got her first period and I don't blame her for not wanting to discuss it with her dad. That's weird as fuck." I giggle shaking my head.

"No cursing! The baby can hear that!" Harry covers my mouth with his large hand.

"Fuck! Shit! Asshole! Cu-" Harry cuts me off by pressing his mouth to mine. I giggle against his mouth.

"Bad Kitten" He lightly smirks pecking my lips. I scrunch my nose up as pain goes through my stomach. Fuck these contractions.

"Are you going into labor? Let's go to the hospital!" Harry jumps up and starts running to get the keys.

"Harry no chill out. We will go when they are closer together." He furrows his eyebrows walking over to me laying his hand on my stomach. My hand rest on top of his. My phone ringing beside me makes me jump. I pick it up answering it.

"Hello"

"Hey James ran away and he will probably be at your house soon." Eric chuckles. James is Eric and Lily's son. Lily is Eric's ex-wife. She is a real witch.

"Okay. Sounds good. Hey I think I might be getting this child out of me soon." I smile as Harry smiles at me. He presses his lips to my stomach before kissing my forehead walking into the kitchen. I know how much it means to him to have another child.

"Finally. It feels like you have been pregnant forever. I want to be a godfather again." I smile nodding.

-

I wake up and feel wetness between my legs. So much for a nap.

Not the good kind either.

Did I piss myself? Please fuck no.

"Harry wake up!" I hit him not having time to wake him nicely.

"What baby?" He mumbles half asleep.

"I either pissed the bed or my water broke and I think it's the second one." I sit up and stand up. My lower half bare beside my panties.

"Wait you are going into labor?" Harry wakes up completely standing up and walking over to me. I nod quickly.

"We need to go now." I don't bother changing my underwear since I will be removing them soon anyway. I throw on sweatpants and Harry grabs our over night bag. He tells her what is going on before letting her go back to sleep or do what she likes. She will be okay home alone. She is old enough now. We have an alarm system so we will know she is okay.

-

"Fuck me!" I groan as I grip onto Harry's arm. This hurts so much worse than what I remember.

"Now's not really the time." Harry tries to make a joke but I am in no mood. I growl digging my nails into him. He yelps in pain.

"One more push! You're doing great Ava" the nurse smiles. Fuck I hate her. Her stupid fucking smile. Fuck off. When I hear the lovely sound of him crying I lay my head back panting. Harry cuts the cord and I get to hold my baby boy.

He is so lovely.

"Let me hold him." I hand him over letting Harry hold him before the nurses take him away. Landon looks so small in his arms. I smile softly looking over at them.

-

"Mom he is so cute!" Emily smiles as she holds her baby brother for the first time.

"I know he looks like your dad." I giggle as she scrunches up her nose shaking her head.

"Damn right he does." Harry lays his head back on my pillow.

"Mrs. Styles would you like the nurses to look over Landon tonight so you may rest?" My nurse, the same one I cursed out in my mind, asks nicely. I nod as she walks over to Emily removing Landon.

"We could of watched him tonight." Harry grumbles.

"We will have plenty of sleepless nights later." I sit up. My vision goes blurry slightly as my head gets light. I put my hand on my forehead.

"You okay?" Harry asks concerned. I nod kissing his forehead.

"I'm probably just tired." I sigh laying back down.

"Emily you want me to drive you home?" Harry asks. She shakes her head no laying down on the couch in the room.

"Goodnight Em. I love you, honey." I say smiling at her.

"Goodnight Momma I love you." She smiles softly at me closing her eyes. I smile turning over and facing Harry.

"You did so amazing today, baby." Harry tucks a piece of my brown hair behind my ear.

"Thank you" I whisper softly. He lightly presses his lips to mine in a slowly savory kiss.

"Hmm I love you so much" Harry whispers so Em can't hear us.

"I love you moreeee" I giggle wrapping my arm around his neck.

"Not possible." His hand lightly squeezing my hip.

"You're so amazing you know that?" I giggle laying my hand on cheek.

"Oh I know. You're extraordinary though." Harry grins pulling me closer to him. I roll my eyes laying my head on his chest.

"Fuck you're so beautiful. How did an ugly fuck like me get so luck?" Harry says making me cover my mouth as I burst into laughter.

"Harry you're like a Greek god. Not Zeus though." I giggle.

"Why not Zeus?" He pouts. He obviously doesn't know his basic facts about Greek mythology.

"Zeus was a rapist and he literally forced himself on his sister and made her marry him." Harry's eyes widen at my words.

"Are you fucking serious?" I nod making him shake his head.

"You think you know someone and then bam incest and rapist." Harry sighs laying his head down. I giggle laying my head down closing my eyes softly.

"Goodnight Kitten, I love you more than anything." Harry's lips brush against mine.

"Goodnight Bear, I love you so fucking much." I press my lips to his quickly and lay down cuddling into him.

-

When I wake up I scrunch my nose up. It smells like metal. A wetness from beside me and around me makes me open my eyes.

Red. So much red.

I look beside me seeing my Ava. Her chest isn't rising and falling like normal.

No.

"Ava!" I shake her trying to wake her up. She doesn't wake up and I feel like I have been punched in the gut. I stand up running out of the room screaming for help. A few doctors rush in but there is nothing they can do. She's fucking dead.

Emily wakes up with all the noise. I immediately run over to her sheltering her eyes from seeing her dead mother. She can't see her. My mom is here within a few minutes taking Emily away. As soon as they leave I loose my shit finding her stupid fucking doctor.

"You fucking bastard!" I scream grabbing his ugly fucking jacket.

"You let her die! You let my fucking world die! She is under your care and this is your fucking fault!" I scream with all my might slamming him against the wall. A few nurses pull me from him as he gives me a sad look before walking away. I watch as they wheel my beautiful wife away. The only women I will ever love.

"No!" I scream pulling at the roots of my hair. My chest hurts and I feel like I am dying. I storm outside falling down on the sidewalk.

Of course it is fucking raining.

The sight of her blood running off my jeans makes my stomach turn and I throw up beside me. I cry riping at my hair. It should've been me. Not her. Ava was so good so innocent and caring. She loved so fiercely and her beauty radiated from within.

She's gone. My entire world just got torn from me.

How did I go from on top of the world to feeling like nothing?