Zach left three hours ago but when he left he gave me a tight hug."just wait and the good will come" he said, but why would he say that. The good...........good, theres nothing but Zach. My thoughts were broken down when.....when I heard a beep sound loud and clear straight through, i open my eyes and look up to my little Elijah, he was no longer breathing.

"NO......NO......NOOOOO" I said crying, yelling my lungs out. Nurses, doctors, and surgeons came in while a nurse led me out the room but i fought her so a security guard had to hold me down. They put me to sit down on a chair but i got up and sat by my brothers door crying, and crying. Thats all i can do, just cry and listen through the door. My little baby is in there dead and i....i cant do nothing.

I screamed so loud my throat started to burn, but i dont care. It doesnt cover the pain i was feeling in my heart. I felt two hands on my own.

"Im here, im here" Arianna voice said, i completely ignored her, i just couldnt not right now.

"Just please leave me alone" i cryed those words out moving away from her.

"I wont" she said sitting by me, resting my head on her lap. She called her family to come to the hospital. A few minutes later, she picked me up and we went down to the lunch to get some coffee and Oreo's. Then went back to his room.

The doctor approached me, but i had nothing to say. He look upset and i knew what that meant. The family arrived one by one giving me hugs,saying sorry. But there was no hope.

"Hey ....um sorry for your lost" Hayley said giving me half of a hug. Then it came to Ayden but i didnt really care, i had bigger problems. I gave him a quick hug. Then it was time to see Elijah one last time. Walking to the room slowly, going into the room.

I sat on a corner of his bed, being careful not to touch his merely warm body.

"Hey baby" i said."hopefully your off to a great start in your after life, just know that mom and dad loved you. But i mostly loved you and.... and that family out there is our family too. The only family that has cared for us, please watch over them." I was on the verge of crying already."Eli I need you with me but but your gone and i cant bring you back to life. I know you'll be watching over us. And I love you baby.....and im.......im saying goodbye to you" i said leaving the room, wanting to cry so.much but i know thats not gonna make it any easier.Everyone stood up except Ayden with his gaze avoiding mine. I gave them a weak smile with watery eyes and left heading to the elevator.

In that room i realize that i need sometime for myself and the baby. I saw Zach down stairs, frustrated, and talking to the lady that he needs to get upstairs. I walked to him, looking at him, shaking my head implying that Eli didnt make it. Covering my mouth letting tears fall just thinking that hes gone.

"NO.....NO..fuck no!" he said almost yelling, he started to tear up but didnt let them out. I hugged him and thats when we both let everything go.

Visual of Cassidy crying infront of Zach.