I could not stand myself

I wished to be anybody else

I wished to escape the doubt

I used to scream and shout

Can I be anybody else

Why do I look this way

All the damning things I'd say

What a freaking joke

On my self-incriminating ways I choke

Self-pity is a disgusting coat to wear

In the mirror I would stare

The hatred in my eyes

How can those deep blue pools

Hold all the things I despise

I shatter the mirror to break my smile

How did I never realize

It wasn't me that I hated

All the lies had twisted me

All of the fake faces I where

All of my pretentiousness

All of the ways I had changed

To please and adapt

To those around me

To those that I loved

I know that the real me is there

Hiding like a chameleon in the jungle

Where every tree is a lie

Where every leaf is a disguise

This will not be a quick process

To unearth the "ME" I have buried

Will I be the Phoenix

Rising from ashes of my eclectic life

Or will I be something disfigured

Homunculi new to the world

My future is unknown

But I am not scared of the journey

For once I will be me

Not the reflection of someone trying to please.