Why can't I get away from insecurities

Why does it matter that she doesn't regret anything

Why did I have to try to be so noble

I should have had "fun"

I shouldn't have tried to save it for her

I should have played like her

These thoughts the hurt

My heart feels burnt

My arms and legs are shaking

The darkness pulls me in

I should have just fallen into sin

So I could share these stories of glory

Why did I say I regret my past

When she clearly lives in hers

I want to move forward

But she can't leave it behind

They're always on her mind

If she can live in her past

Then I can live in mine

Why did I open up

I'm still not all the way there

But she's the closest anyone's come

I want to let her in

But I know when she's in

It will be the same as before

I have fallen on the floor

I'm begging for no more

But you're stepping all over me

My heart has become bruised and bloody

Oh where should I start

Your memories are stilettos dancing on my love

But they still hold the key to me

She doesn't need a key when she can bend the bars I put up

You're breaking me bit by bit

I can't feel anything

I wish I didn't regret everything

I want to take it all away

Wash it all away

But I know the pain you cause is real

It is love I feel for you

Every aching heart beat

Every labored breath

Every sorrowed tear

Is for you to you because of you

Is this love I feel

I'm praying that it's real

I just don't see why

You can't leave them behind for me

I've left everything for you

That's what people do

I don't think its love you feel

You're in love with love

Either way I just want to be with you

In sickness and in health

In poorness and wealth

I want to be with you

I know it's you

This hurt soon will fade

Like the cuts of a blade

My heart to will heal

I hope soon it will feel

The thing truly is

You gave your body away too many times

And I gave my heart away too many times

The question is can we deal

Can we deal with this baggage

Or will it all turn savage

Tearing into each other's' hearts

Will we remain true and true

Will our love follow through

Or will we let the past become present

I just don't know if you can do what you need to do

To keep me too you

Can you do what you need to do

To keep my eyes on you

Will you put your effort in

How is it not fair

To feel the hurt I do

Why couldn't you have waited

Why did you do those terrible things

Still no remorse

For the hurt you cause me

I'm bleeding slowly

From the hundred wounds you dealt

I'm trying to forget the things you said

About the other men

I can still see them in your eyes

They're mocking me

I can't look into your bleary blues

They still remain in your heart

I see them there

And they hurt and they hurt

Pain excruciating like a molten blade on my skin

I wish I had played more before you

So you could see the mocking eyes as well

So you could understand the pain

I can't make you feel special

Because someone has already done it

I can't hold new memories

There's no more space for me

You hurt me baby

You just don't want to see

Your sorry is fake

Just a brush off

I can see it in your eyes

I can hear it in your voice

I can feel it in your touch

I'm just another prize

But I treat you how I should

Why did I fall so hard

There's no way to show you

Or words to tell you

I feel as prominent as an ink blot

In a dark dark world

Cold with hurt

And here I'll stay

For the next few days

You will see what you have done

I want to tear my heart open

Show you all my scars that bear your name

A new one opening

It just hurts so bad

But this will pass

I'll be the man you love once again

My tears will dry

My wounds will heal

I'll hold your hand like the first day

I'll give you my coat when it's wet

I'll do anything to make you smile

I hope you can see the pain behind my eyes

I hope you can see the sadness buried deep

I love you

I do this for you.