𝑴̶𝒚̶ 𝒍̶𝒐̶𝒏̶𝒆̶𝒍̶𝒊̶𝒏̶𝒆̶𝒔̶𝒔̶ 𝒄̶𝒐̶𝒏̶𝒔̶𝒖̶𝒎̶𝒆̶𝒔̶ 𝒎̶𝒚̶ 𝒃̶𝒐̶𝒅̶𝒚̶ 𝒔̶𝒐̶𝒖̶𝒍̶ 𝒂̶𝒏̶𝒅̶ 𝒔̶𝒑̶𝒊̶𝒓̶𝒊̶𝒕̶ 𝒕̶𝒂̶𝒌̶𝒊̶𝒏̶𝒈̶ 𝒆̶𝒗̶𝒆̶𝒓̶𝒚̶ 𝒊̶𝒏̶𝒄̶𝒉̶ 𝒐̶𝒇̶ 𝒉̶𝒂̶𝒑̶𝒑̶𝒊̶𝒏̶𝒆̶𝒔̶𝒔̶ 𝒂̶𝒏̶𝒅̶ 𝒕̶𝒖̶𝒓̶𝒏̶𝒊̶𝒏̶𝒈̶ 𝒊̶𝒕̶ 𝒊̶𝒏̶𝒕̶𝒐̶ 𝒅̶𝒂̶𝒓̶𝒌̶𝒏̶𝒆̶𝒔̶𝒔̶ 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘶𝘮𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘩𝘶𝘮𝘢𝘯 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘤𝘵.

Y/n Slytherin

It's been days since I broke up with Mattheo, and I haven't seen him once, I'm beginning to worry. Although I don't want to see his face as it will remind me of what I've lost. I don't want him to never return to Hogwarts, that's just cruel. Though that begins to make me question...

Why did he come to Hogwarts in the first place?

Did his father send him here for death eater purposes'? of course, he did what am I thinking. But if he sent him here for that purpose, don't you think now would be the time to fulfill them?

Mattheo Riddle

I may have made a severe mistake. I have been clouded by the thought of Y/n, making me forget entirely of what I was supposed to do when I got to Hogwarts, of course I did succeed but I had not thought it would lead to this.

To me falling in love with her.

And to me losing her.

And now I fear the consequences of this mission, of what it may do to y/n, how her perspective of me will change. If my father finds out I lost her, failed the mission, he won't only hurt me, but he will hurt y/n.

I hadn't thought I would fall in love with her, I thought I would just get her to date me, so I could lure her to my father, though it was a struggle to do that because I was afraid of what he may or may not do to her and she was too stubborn to ever get with me let alone allow me to step foot near her, but my father, well her father did it all for me, lured her into my father's trap by taking me and her friends hostage, I was caught off guard by this little show they performed, as I didn't know they had this planned, I guess they got tired of waiting.

When she joined him, I thought it was over, that I wouldn't have to do it anymore, I was wrong, not only was I forced to continue to get her to get with me so that I could keep an eye on her and so I could possibly marry her in the near future (what her father wanted me to do) but I was and still am consumed by her, the thought of her, the taste of her lips, the sound of her voice saying my name like honey spilling from a jar and into my morning tea, warm and sweet.

I cannot get the picture out of my head. Of her on top of me, her lips on mine, I finally got her, I finally got what I wanted only to lose it all because of Dumbledore. My father and her father's plan had for us worked, well not exactly.

Of course, I would've helped her, before I wouldn't have, as I was a loyal servant to Voldemort, I would've never betrayed him in the past. But my love for her has made me only loyal to her, and her only. I fear of what will happen to her when Voldemort finds out. He will capture her, torture her and then tell her the truth about me, about everything. So, she not only suffers physical pain but mental pain, he will twist the words around, changing the story, he will tell the story from his judgements, his perspective. I should've told her a while ago, but I was too afraid of what she would think of me, if she would hate me. I was too afraid of losing her.

𝙸̶ 𝚊̶𝚖̶ 𝚊̶ 𝚌̶𝚘̶𝚠̶𝚊̶𝚛̶𝚍̶

Y/n Slytherin

I will not lie. I do miss him dearly, his scent, his hands around my waist, his forbidden whispers in my ear, I miss him.

But I can't have him, I will only hurt him. If Voldemort finds out that I am working against him, he will hurt Mattheo. But if he thinks that I no longer care for Mattheo, he won't lay a hand on him.

"Do you all understand?" Dumbledore says, I look to everyone, Black, Lupin, Tonkins, Molly, and a few others I don't know the names of.

I am currently at 12th of Grimmauld Place in Black's residence, he had given it to Dumbledore during the war of Voldemort and his death eaters, they meet here for meetings of "The Order of Phoenix" which, Sirius says, I am a part of now.

I am the youngest member of the order of phoenix, and am a "spy" for them, how heart warming.

"Y/n will spy on Voldemort for us and give us information about his next move, we already know what he has planned for now, we just need to keep a watch out for him and play along in his little game." Dumbledore says, "it is too dangerous for the girl, if he finds out he will kill her!" Molly says, looking back at me with sympathetic eyes.

"I am not afraid" I say, Sirius smirks at me "he wants me to join the tournament, to lure Harry to him, all I need is for you" I look at Dumbledore "to allow me to be a part of the tournament again." Dumbledore holds his hands, tapping his pointer fingers together.

"Very well then" his voice is fast pasted and urgent but still somewhat calm, "but isn't she injured" Severus says, walking into the room, my eyebrows go up in shock. He is a spy for Dumbledore, isn't he? and here I thought he was only loyal to one l̶o̶r̶d̶ person.

"Ah yes" Dumbledore says, realizing my shock "Severus is a spy for me" I resist the urge not to smirk, I knew it, well not exactly but I assumed something about him was off. "And to answer your question Severus, she is standing which means she is in perfect condition" Severus looks at me, eyes travelling up and down, I swallow hard.

"She fell 20 feet from the sky not too long ago" his eyes squint, I open my mouth to correct him, but he beats me to it "but it seems she is fine." I smirk, Molly stands walking towards me, her hands go on my shoulders "it's okay to say no dear, there is no shame in being afraid" oh how much her eyes remind me of Freds.

"I am not afraid" I say again, this time quieter. "You heard the girl, Molly; she is after all a fighter" Sirius stands "just like her mother." My heart beats in my chest hard, my mother? what does he know of my mother? "Well then, Y/n you will be doing the first task of the tournament tomorrow, prepare yourself and do not be distracted, fire likes distraction" Dumbledore winks, walking out.

Fire likes distraction?

Everyone begins to walk out leaving me and Sirius alone, Sirius Black. Regulus Black's uncle, who ran away from home in his sixth year, got arrested around the 1980's for murder, it wasn't him of course, it was Peter Pettigrew. Hermione, Ron and Harry told me all about it.

He inhales deeply, walking over to me. "You remind me a lot of someone." he says, smiling. "Who?" I ask, eyes wide. "Her name was Dorcas Meadow, strong woman she was, a little scary too" he laughs, I smile "who was she?" his eyes soften, sitting down in front of me, I sit as well. "Dorcas was one of many of my best friends, as well as your mother." I lean in "you knew-you were friends, with my mother?" he smiles nodding "yes, yes. We were very close, but not as close as she was with Dorcas and Marlene. Those girls were inseparable, the smartest girls of Hogwarts, all known for one thing." he laughs, "what was it?" I ask, "the one thing?" I don't know much about my mother, hell I didn't even know her parents' names. So, to hear about this is like trying chocolate for the first time.

"Well, Evelyn was known for her intelligence, she only wanted to learn, she valued education more than anything, it was no wonder she got into Ravenclaw. That's why we called her smartie, we all had names, she was a part of our group, the 'marauders'," my eyebrows furrow, "Ravenclaw?" he nods "yes, yes, the hat selected it for her immediately, though her stay there didn't last long." he frowns. Shakes his head.

"Oh, and she was also known for never giving any guy a chance" he laughs, I smirk "what about Dorcas and Marlene?" he smiles a sad smile. "Dorcas was known for being quiet, she barley spoke to anyone, she was surrounded by books all the time, she barley lived in the physical world," he smirks "though Marlene helped with that. She was the only person Dorcas could stand, the only person Dorcas wouldn't yell at or ignore, they were an odd match, Marlene being bubbly and happy all the time, and Dorcas being quite the opposite. You remind me much of Dorcas, you're strong and smart, and something about you just, really shows that you two are alike."

"She does sound a lot like me" I laugh, she does, I guess. We both allow books to consume us, and live in the fantasy of stories, though I haven't gotten much time to catch up on my reading as I am mostly distracted all the time. I used to spend hours on books, rereading them, annotating them, talking about them for hours long, they were my life. I really need to get back into mystery books. I miss them a lot.

"You look a lot like your mother" Sirius says, "that little nose scrunch you both do" he laughs "as well as your poofy hair and face shape, god I was jealous of her facial structure, but there is one thing that isn't hers at all... the eyes." I frown "I have my father's eyes." Sirius furrows his eyebrows; my eyes dart up "could you...possibly-could you possibly tell me about them? how they were back when they attended school together?" Sirius' eyes go down, searching the wooden floor for words "they were quite the couple, they hated each other at first" he laughs, "but he tried everything to get her to fall in love with him. She despised him. His wit, his charm, his annoying greed for attention, his handsome looks." I smile, "they got together in fifth year, they were amazing together. She truly changed him. But everything changed after seventh year." he swallows.

"He had bribed the school into forcing her to switch into Slytherin, she didn't want to do that. They got into fights more, took breaks too often, he had been forced by his father to become a part of Voldemort's dark group, to become a death eater. She tried to get him out of it, to tell him not to join, he didn't listen. He was manipulated into thinking his cause was good, he forced Evelyn to marry him, her parents obliged, they thought it would look good on them as a pure-blood family, they dropped out of Hogwarts after they had gotten married. She would sneak off sometimes and come here. We were all going to be a part of the order of phoenix after graduating from Hogwarts, though, she got to join earlier. She snuck off every night, at every chance she could for the meetings. We arranged to take him down all together, but something happened. Someone happened. A member of the phoenix betrayed us and two innocent lives, James and Lily Potter. Had gotten killed for it. Voldemort began to hunt us all down, the last was your mother."

I gulp, "M-My mother?" he clenches his jaw "we didn't think he would find out about us, about who the members were, after you were born, we all planned for you and Harry to join us when you two were old enough, your names had been written down next to the members of the phoenix, in the future members of the order of the phoenix. She would bring you here all the time when you were a baby, Dorcas and Marlene loved you." he shakes his head "after James and Lily were killed, we all came here and burned the names down thinking we had erased them. We were wrong. Peter had snuck in her and copied down the names. The last on the list were Evelyn, harry and... you." I gasp.

My mind comes up with theories, my stomach twisting and body turning pale "I was there when Voldemort killed her, my-my father told me a different story of how she was-was killed, I thought it- it was because she wanted to stop Voldemort from taking me away from her, I thought it was because of me" Sirius rubs my back hugging me tightly, I sob in his shoulder "that's why he wanted me to join him, because he wanted my-my legacy" my tears stain his shirt. "Dear girl, you can still stop him. He does not have your legacy yet." I pull away from the hug.

"I wish I could've spent more time with you Y/n" he frowns "your mother was planning on making me your godfather and Dorcas your godmother" he sighs "your father erased ours- well at least just my name from the contract and replaced me with Severus" my eyebrows go up "you're my, my godfather?" he nods, "and Dorcas?-" "-is your godmother" he nods, "well I'm not quite your godfather actually, Severus is, but I'd like it if you labeled me as that" a smile appears on his lips, I smile back, nodding.

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for anyone who is confused about Sirius being Regulus' uncle, the plot is different. Regulus is not Sirius' age, and Sirius never had a brother, Regulus attends school with Y/n. (I thought I would change this plot a bit to add spice and save some of you marauder's fans from pain to create new ones, hehe lol just kidding;)