TW: smut

"I have a feeling that this will change things."

Ever since Cormac had been expelled from Hogwarts I couldn't be more happier, I haven't thought once about the incident and the chaotic event with... well I think you all know what I mean.

Voldemort hasn't made a meeting for us death eaters yet, weird. Calling myself a death eater, anyways. As I was saying, everything was going just perfect, excellent actually. Mattheo and me went on a date, a few times actually.

Draco stopped acting emo (sometimes) pansy has a girlfriend, blaise and theodore pranked a bunch of first years and it was hilarious, snape is starting to be less harsh and I was starting to become a little bit more happier, until...

Tony.

Now you all might be wondering who the fuck that is, and I'll gladly tell you.

Tony Griffin, 17 years old, a half blood and unfortunately my ex.

Wow ironic, Y/n's ex coming to her school. Isn't it wonderful for me? no it fucking isn't. I want to pitch myself off the astronomy tower for fucks sake, this annoying twat just had to, JUST HAD TO transfer here, out of all schools. Here.

"well y/n it's been a while hasn't it?" tony says smirking, "who the fuck is he" pansy whispers in my ear causing chills to run down my spine, he. He is a fucking annoying turd he is.

"what the fuck are you doing here?" I say, no hesitation. He raises his eyebrows "not happy to see me? I thought after all this time you'd hug me and kiss me and tell me how much you miss me cookie, because I've missed you so much"

I roll my eyes swallowing back my vomit, "I mean, why the bloody hell are you at this school?" I can feel my face burning up as he smiles, "oh, oh well I go here darling"

my jaw drops, I stand up from the table causing the people around me to stare at me with funky looks on their faces. "why? why this school?" I can tell he's enjoying this. "because I wanted to be with you cookie"

"call me cookie one more time and I'll shove your head so far up your arse, you might be able to see a brain up there you fucking twat!" I spit, now the whole table was staring at me.

"calm down, I just wanted to see you darling. No need to get all violent" he smirks, pansy stands up "who the bloody hell do you think you are?" she yells in his face, he hums "mm fisty" pansy makes a puking face and sits down. I take a deep breath in and exhale sharply sitting down as well. Trying to ignore the fact that he is even there which was really fucking hard to since he won't stop

"so what have you been up to lately y/n, other then getting into trouble" he sits down biting into a pancake, I look up at him. Jaw clenched and fists balled up "oh yes I know about your recent events" he drinks some pumpkin juice humming to the taste of it and drinking more, as I was about to yell at him and possibly use my butter knife to slit his throat open...

Mattheo sits next to me, grabbing my face and kissing me. For a very, very long time. Oh right I forgot to mention that we are dating, hah. Slipped my mind actually. Ever since the whole incident Mattheo started checking up on me everyday, and one night he found me crying in the library, I know embarrassing. But not that embarrassing when he comforted me and we made out and went into his dorm and well.. you know what happened next...

*flashback*

I felt as if my body had went fully numb, my heart shattered into two. I couldn't bare the letter I had received.

Dear y/n,

I'm sorry to inform you that you're pet, Star. Has been killed, I unfortunately had to flush her down the toilet. I am very sorry for your loss, but I have great news!

your father has bought you a new one, and he named it himself! her name is Slytherin and, she is quite adorable and is a very good pet! I think you will love her.

- from: Mr. Edward Phillip James.

*back to the flashback*

I felt as if my body had went fully numb, my heart shattered into two. I couldn't bare the letter I had received.

my mothers body has been found.

and it was not found in her grave, nor even an inch from her grave. It was found in a little shop in diagon alley. But I had seen her get buried. I had seen her in her casket and dug 6 feet into the ground, so how could she possibly not be in her grave. Which sick monster would do such a thing.

My warm tears flooded my face as I tried to gasp for air, it felt like all the oxygen in the room had been taken, had been finished. I couldn't help but cry.

Not for myself, but for my mother.

"y/n" I hear a voice whisper, I quickly wipe my tears looking behind me to see Mattheo. I clear my throat "y-yeah? what are you doing up so late?" I try clearing my throat to get rid of the rasp.

mattheo walks to me, the dimming light from the fire place shining on his face revealing his worried expression. The lines of his lips and jaw and his eyebrows. He looks so beautiful I almost envy it.

"what's wrong?" he asks, I felt my nose start to sting. No, no, no, no, no, no, no. Don't, don't, don't please don't cry, not now.

tears slip out of my eyes and he comes to hug me, I cry into his chest staining his grey shirt. The one he let me wear at draco's house after we..

My warm tears slide down my cheeks as his hands slide down my back and up slowly. His chin resting on top of my head, we sat like this for too long, way too long. Eventually I stopped crying, I had no more tears left in me to spill.

he removes his chin from my head grabbing my face and looking at me as his hands cup my face, he stares so deeply into my eyes, so deeply, so deeply. As if he is trying to search for something.

"what happened?" he says gently, I try to breathe but it only felt like I was about to cry, my throat closes up as I try to speak. I swallow away the knot stuck in my throat though it didn't help as much

"m-my mum" is all I had to say. Those two words were all I had to say for him to understand. He hugs me tightly.

I breathe in his scent, closing my eyes tightly as I press my forehead against his chest, he pushes me closer then backs from the hug, I stare at him, stare at his hair, his eyes, his nose, his cheeks, and- and his lips.

we were closer now, way too close, his lips touch mine and our noses poke each other. I close my eyes breathing in deeply, staying like this. Hoping I could stay like this forever. With him.

he kisses me gently causing my stomach to twist slightly, I kiss him back with no hesitation. My lips melting into his. My red lipstick smudging all over my face and his.

He stops. Breathes, kisses me more. Everything is spinning. The room, the fire, us, my head, my stomach. Were both breathless on top of a bed and I don't know how we got here.

I stop. Look around and realize were in his dorm, he grabs my face making me look at him. Leans down and kisses me, my neck, my chest and slowly glides down to my stomach leaving kiss marks everywhere.

he comes back up, removes his shirt as I help him by pulling it off him and throwing it on the ground. He smirks. Stops. "do you want to do this, y/n?" he says slowly, out of breath, his face all serious. I nod twice, maybe more than twice "yes" I say, finally able to form the words to tell him that I want too so badly, that I've been wanting too.

That I crave his touch, his lips, his smell, his lips on my lips. That I want nothing more than him. And I hate him so much for it, I hate him for making me feel these things for making me feel this way about him. Because I'm suppose to hate him. Not love him.

But now that I think about it. I never truly hated him. Maybe I was lying to myself to make me think I wasn't absolutely and madly in love with him. I can't stand seeing him, hearing him or him touching me because it drives me insane. I want more, I need more that it makes me so angry.

he's so stupid

so stupid

so stupid

so stupid

so stupid

so stupid

so stupid

But I'm so in love with him.

so in love

so in love

so in love

so in love

so in love

so in love

with him.

his touch, his voice, his eyes, his lips, his hair, his everything.

He kisses me harshly this time, almost as if he's been craving this. Waiting for this moment to happen. I savor the taste of his lips, his lips that are on my lips, his lips that are touching my lips, his lips that are kissing my lips.

I wrap my legs around his torso making him moan into my ear, I wrap my arms around his naked back. Pull him closer then spin him on to the bed

I'm sitting on his lap now, just above his area. I lift my shirt above my head, he grabs it and throws it on the ground then looks at my chest smirking.

"what?" I say, scared. He looks up at me smiling "your so beautiful"

I swallow harshly trying not to blush, he grabs the back of my head pushing me into his lips, kissing him harshly, our tongues collide. Dancing with each other, my stomach on fire, his hands in my hair, sliding down my back and to my pants, playing with the waist of my pants with his pointer and middle finger.

He spins me and goes in between my legs, grabbing my waist and pushing me into him. I moan as I throw my head back giving him access to my neck, he kisses my neck not leaving any spots un-kissed.

"push your waist up darling" he whispers into my ear and I obey. Slowly, he pulls my pants off. Sliding it down to my ankles and pulling it off my feet.

throws it on the floor as well, I put my body back on to the bed. Staring at him and his pants. He smirks, leans down to me. Giving me access to his belt, I grab his belt pulling him closer to me, unbuckling it and sliding it off his waist, he grabs my wrists pinning them to my sides on the bed

"someone's un-patient" he says, I roll my eyes and he hums "say it" he says, "say what?" he smirks, "that your mine"

I almost laugh. He looks at me, not laughing. I stop "wait, your serious?" I scoff, he nods once. I clear my throat "mattheo riddle, I am yours" I say sarcastically.

he leans down, "say it again" I breathe in deeply, "I am yours." I whispers, he hums looking at my lips, leans down and tries to kiss me before I tuck my lips into my mouth, he stops. Raises an eyebrow. "say that your mine" I tell him, he smirks "y/n moon slytherin, I am yours. My heart and soul belongs to you and has your name written all over it, my lips are yours, my eyes are yours, my hair is yours, my dic-" I stop him "okay-okay I get it" I laugh

he kisses me, unbuttons his pants and pulls them off. His hands glid down to my underwear, he slides his finger down to my clit rubbing his thumb around it in circles causing me so gasp, my breathing starts getting heavier and he pushes my underwear to the side.

Stops kissing me to watch me, I stare into his eyes as a finger enters in. my jaw drops and eyes close, he pushes it further in and then pushes it out, then does it again, faster. I push my hips up causing him to smirk, he puts his hand below my belly button pushing my hips down and going faster. My gasps turn into small moans causing him to go faster and faster, I open my eyes to see him looking at me already. He pushes in another finger, further in this time. I practically yell as I moan loudly.

He smirks when he sees my toes curl and eyes roll back, I shut my eyes tightly and throw my head back again. He kisses my neck and then my lips, I try to kiss him back but fail too, I can feel him smile on my lips as he goes faster making me open my eyes, I feel my self reach my climax

"m-mattheo, I'm going to-" I moan, my leg shakes slightly and he pulls his fingers out slowly bringing it to his mouth and licking them, he leans down to my lips kissing me. I breathe harshly and heavily

he removes his underwear, looking at it as I watch as well, I look at him. His teeth biting his bottom lip slightly, he rubs his tip on my clit making me dig my nails into his back, then he slides it in fully, I gasp loudly as he pushes out slowly then pushes it back in again, he closes his eyes thrusting into me.

I wrap my legs around his waist and he moans, pushing it in fully causing me to gasp, he does it again and again, opening his eyes to watch me as I roll my eyes back, I squeeze him into me with my legs making him and myself moan, he leans down to my face kissing my neck and my chest as he goes faster making me breathe moans

He puts his hand back on to my stomach in the same spot, laughs darkly "I can feel me" he says "s-shut up" I attempt to say but couldn't help but moan loudly, he smiles. Holds my waist pushing me into him as his sides hit mine. He hits a spot in me making me scream.

"fuck" he mumbles as he moans quietly again into my ear making me feel tingly in the stomach, I drop my feet to the bed but he grabs them holding my ankles to his shoulders as he pushes further into me and pushes out, my toes curl and hips buckle. He fucks me through my high as I cum, he pushes all nine inches in making me scream again. Then quickly pulls out and cums on the bed, my legs shake as I breathe out another moan. He drops down to my side and we both look at each other then back at the ceiling

a minute of awkward silence passes.

"do you wanna go shower?" he asks interrupting the silence, "yeah" I say quickly, he grabs the blanket wrapping it around his waist, stands up. Looks at me and smirks, "need help getting there?" I roll my eyes

"no"

I stand up and almost fall before he rushes to my side holding me by my waist preventing me from falling on my arse. I grab the bed frame expecting him to let go but he doesn't. "need help now" he whispers into my ear.

I feel his breath on my neck making my hairs go up and stomach churn. I breathe out my pride rolling my eyes "yes mattheo I fucking need help"

he laughs then carries me off the ground holding me bridal style. "what- what are you doing?" he looks at me with the left side of his lip upturned showing his bright white teeth.

"helping you"

I laugh as we enter the bathroom. He puts me down into the shower and comes in behind me, I attempt in taking off my bra but fail miserably, he laughs grabbing the bra strap and pulling it to get me closer to him. He takes it off and slides the straps off my shoulders.

then glides his hand down my back to my waist and to my under wear sliding it off too and throwing it out of the shower on to the floor. He turns on the water making my hairs go up, "it's too cold" I say, he twists it to the hotter side, I flinch "it's too hot"

he laughs, and turns it back a little. "okay this is good" I say, I breathe in deeply letting the water consume me, washing off the sweat from my body. I grab my shampoo that was weirdly in here for some reason, "why is my shampoo in here"

he clears his throat, "because I like the smell of it" I smirk, turn around. His eyes go down to my chest. I grab him by his chin forcing him to look up, he smirks at me "you like the smell of roses and coconuts?" I arch an eyebrow, he presses his lips together "it smells like you"

I blush making him smirk, using the soap in my hands to put it on his hair. He laughs as I brush it up. I hold my breath in trying not to laugh

"what?" he says smiling fully, grabbing the shower cap and turning it to the side where you could see your reflection. His smile drops, grabbing the soap and slapping it on my head, I yell out a laugh and spin around letting the water wash it out of my hair

clearing my throat I look for a loofah, grabbing the shampoo and the loofah putting a handful on it, "your gonna finish all the shampoo" he laughs, my eyebrows furrow "you don't charm your shampoos?" I question, which idiot doesn't charm their shampoo. Imagine spending ridiculous amounts on each bottle when you can have an endless one.

"charm?" he questions, "yes like charm it to be endless" I go serious. He smirks "smartass" I laugh, using the loofah to scrub my arms before he grabs it from my hand. "hey-"

"let me help you" he says coming closer to me, I swallow away the nervousness in my voice, putting my chin up "I'm perfectly able to wash myself" he scoffs, "stop being stubborn" I can hear him smile at this point, I hum giving him the hint to continue

he moves my hair away from my back to my shoulder, sliding his hands down the line of my back and to the curves of my hips, lightly he uses the loofah. Scrubbing every single side of my back and my shoulders, arms, hips, stomach and chest. Turning me around to have a glimpse as he runs the loofah that barley had soap anymore to my belly button and back up to my chest.

He drops it on the shower floor, puts his thumb on his chin as he examines my chest, his eyebrows furrowed and eyes darting around my whole body focusing. As if I were some exam or test, that he had to Ace, that he couldn't dare fail, because it would ruin his entire mark.

I am the definition of his 'test.'

he slides his hand down my shoulder and to the side of my chest, going up and down and moving his way to my nipple, circling it. My hairs go up and breathing gets heavier. He moves his hands to my back holding me lightly then pushing me forward, into him.

our noses touch and I could feel his cold breath on my lips, his eyes on my lips, his lips on my lips. His lips melting into my lips, he kisses me gracefully as if he were away for years and this was the first time in a long time he got to taste me, to touch me, to feel me.

he slides his hands down my back, holding my waist as his lips kiss my neck. My arms go up his back and to his hair, playing with each curl.

he bites my bottom lip lightly, and our tongues collide. His tongue on mine, mine on his, dancing together, melting into each other. We pull back from the kiss taking the moment to breathe in the soapy warm air.

"my eyes are right here" I smirk, he looks up from my lips to my eyes. My heart flutters and everything feels like it's spinning, my knees feel weak, I can't help but smile and blush, which seems like he can't either since both sides of his mouth are stretching to his ears touching them. I blink repeatedly.

He swallows, opens his mouth then closes it "say it" I say gently, eyebrows slightly furrowed. Worried that it may be something bad.

"I-" *clears his throat* "I love you"

My heart stops. Melts.

"I love you too"

I have a feeling that this will change things. That the outcome of this could either be very bad or very good, and I cannot wait to find out.

AHHH