I sit there frozen, not turning around or saying anything

"y/n, I'm right here, just look at me."

"no, my mother died years ago you are not her."

I turn around slowly, my heart rate speeds up when I see her, my mother. in flesh and bones, but it is not possible, it cannot be. I saw her get killed, I saw her in her casket it can't be.

"I know your confus-"

"your bloody right I'm confused, who the living fuck are you."

"I'm your mother y/n."

"no, my mothers dead. she's been dead"

"I still am dead my love, the only reason you can see me is because of the glass ball"

I look at the ball, confused and scared. "what is this thing" I ask the thing that claims she is my mother

"I made that ball before you were born in case of an emergency or if your father ever turned to the dark side or if something ever happened to me, it shows you what is happening currently and the future of anyone, but the future can change. not only can it do that but it is the ball of death and life, since you are a abnus witch you can activate the ball and you are neither dead nor alive with that ball on you, you can see ghosts, feel them and hear them, not only but you can teleport with that, go back into time, astral project and cannot die nor feel pain or get hurt. if the ball was ever to break the other side and your side, would connect. meaning the walls would break, the living and the dead would be able to interact with each other, and everything would just collapse, let's just say it wouldn't be good"

"wait, wait what I'm a what! and this ball can do what? holy fucking shit"

"language" mom says

I roll my eyes, "why did you give this to me," my mother flies down and sits on a chair, she didn't look ghosty or anything but she sure as hell could fly, "you are to be a death eater soon correct?"

I nod my head and look down disgusted in my self, "you have enemies there, people who envy your power and others who wish to use you for it" she looks down

"the death eaters mark is not suppose to be on you, your blood and the mark connecting will cause an irruption in you. You will lose your self and die of blood loss from the power of your blood and the mark mixing, voldemort knows that. he wants to see if it works and you have to make sure it works"

"so basically I'm dead meat, goodie" I say as I get up from the floor, "no y/n, the ball will help you. keep it with you, the mark will kill you but you will come to the other side with me and I will lead you back to your body"

my head feels like its about to pop, I'm in fucking shock. and I have every right to be, I am legit talking to my dead mother and I'm about to fucking die because of this 'mark'

"I know your scared y/n, but you are so powerf-"

"If I hear someone call me powerful one more time I'll break this damn ball and make sure hell irrupts on earth"

my mother sighs, "you are y/n, you have power in you a power that others call darkness but it isn't"

"WHAT FUCKING POWER" I yell as I stand up, my room light starts flickering and my things start shaking "that power."

I fall to my knees crying, "I don't understand", my mother flies to me and goes on her knees, she grabs my face and I feel her, she is real, well at least she feels real.

"you have the abnus blood, it is very rare and is in our bloodline, people call us evil and dark, that all we do is destruct everything, but they are lying. we were singled out and killed by wizards because they were afraid of us, afraid of our power because it wasn't normal, the power is deep inside you, you can hear it's voice and feel it's anger, it's angry because it's hidden in you, because it is locked up. hundreds of years ago witches and wizards made something that would lock our power deep in us where it couldn't come out, but it can you just have to learn how to control it, when you see your power it will be a black and a different colour mixed with it, it's different for every abnus witch but we all have the black smoke, the colour you have with it can either be, green, purple, red, blue or gold, I have gold but you y/n, you have all the colours, you are rare, very rare. you can control anything, elements, people, energy and objects and probably more if you access your power and see what you hold"

yeah this bitch is crazy.

"how do I access my power"

and I guess I'm crazy as well

"let your self get angry"

"feel every emotion you have ignored, remember your past, what you've lost and what happened to you, remember the pain he caused you, remember everything."

I closed my eyes letting my anger seep through, remembering my fathers abuse and cruelty, how my mother died, how my father killed those friends and family members when I was younger, how I was alone, how I'm still alone, voldemort and how he ruined everything, mattheo, the people I've killed I finally let there pain consume me, I let my pain and anger consume me, I felt hot very hot like I was burning but I didn't care, all I could hear was a really loud ringing noise, I started screaming. the mental and physical pain hurt so much

"Y/N STOP YOU'LL KILL YOU SELF" my mother yells as everything in my room starts shaking and lights start flickering, blood was forming in my eyes instead of tears, blood pouring out of my ears and mouth, then everything went black.

I looked around, I was in a black room, I saw a door it looked familiar so I walked to it, I opened it seeing my father.

he grabbed my face forcing me to look up "YOU HAD ONE JOB ONE" he yelled, then I remembered. "kill him, prove that you aren't weak", my little self stood up, "NO DON'T" I yell but she couldn't see me or hear me, she grabbed the knife and I saw my childhood bestfriend, nicholas.

he was a muggle and my father caught us hanging out in the muggle world, "I- I don't want too father" my little self says as she cries and looks down, nicholas grabs her hand and puts the knife into it and pointed it at his stomach "it's okay y/n" nicholas says, she closes her eyes tightly and stabs him, the life from his eyes leave and he drops to the floor, she falls to her knees and sobs, elijah walks out of the room leaving her, she grabs nicholas and sobs "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry" she says over and over again, the memory starts fading as my little self and nicholas does as well, then I see myself, it was a memory from 1 year ago, I was sitting outside in my dress while wearing a jacket sobbing, I'm all alone now. no mother, no father, no family. just myself I thought to my self, my evil father finally ruined it all for me, everyone has moved on from me, my friends forgot about me, nothing left of my family, my cruel father in azkaban, everyone's gone without me, just my self now I thought as I sobbed even more god I hated this cruel world I kept thinking while a blue ish white light was forming around my body, then everything was black again "hello" I yell, someone coughs and I turn around.

I see my self? but I look weird... she circles me walking around me pulling strands of my hair and looking at my clothes she comes in front of me again smiling, "what are you" I say

"I am you."

"are you my subconscious or something?" I say

she smiles "no, I am your pain and anger" I raise my brows, "so this is what my pain and anger looks like huh? damn kind of hot" I say

she rolls her eyes,"you came here for a reason y/n, what is it?" she asks

"I need to access my power"

she raises her brows "in order to do that you have to die then come back to life-", "okay, easy done what do I do from there, you know when I come back to life?" I say, "focus very hard on the electric sound your always hearing, and I know you know which one I'm talking about. focus on it and let it get louder, that electric sound is your power. it will be triggered and you can control it from there", I take a deep breath in "okay" I say "I wish you luck y/n but you need to leave", "what wait why-"

"Y/N" my mother yells shaking me, I open my eyes and suck in a deep breath

"I know how to access my power" I say as my breathing is all over the place, "you saw her?" mom says "yes I saw my self", "yourself?" she questions, a crease forms between my eyebrows, "yes doesn't everyone?", "in some cases of the abnus witches when trying to connect with there power they see the very first abnus witch, but I guess you saw yoursel-" my mother stops, "merlins beard, your the last descendent of her. you only see your self when you are her desendent, I thought the last one was my sister", "can my life get any weirder?" I mumble to my self

"let go of the ball someone is coming" she says, I quickly drop the ball into my drawer closing it someone knocks on my door, I get up quickly and open it to see him.

mattheo looks at me then furrows his eyebrows, "your bleeding." oh shit I forgot about that, "oh uhm, hold on you can come in if you'd like just don't touch anything." I say as I open the door wider, I rush to my washroom and clean my face and grab a cloth to get the parts I didn't wash off

I walk out of the bathroom to see mattheo touching all my things on top of my dresser, he was looking at my crystals, necklaces and souvenirs I collected, I clear my throat and he turns around quickly, I raise one of my brows smirking

"what do you want mattheo?" I say as I walk over to my dresser and grab my wand putting it in my waist band then opening a drawer pulling out a pocket knife and a leg band attaching the band to my leg and putting the knife under it, I grab some loose black pants and a tight black sweater

***

"where are you going?" he asks

"diagon alley." I say, he walks to me licking his lips

"why?"

"why do you care?"

"I don't" he says

"then why do you want to know?"

"because my father told me to take care of you and make sure you don't do anything stupid"

"I didn't know you were your fathers bitch now riddle" I say

he grabs my face tightly, "you really want to die don't you!" he yells, I flinch a bit then open my eyes slowly "afraid I'm right?", he looks to the side sucking in his lips then pulls out his wand and puts it at my throat

"go on mattheo, do it."

he clenches his jaw as his hand starts shaking, I let out a shaky breath staring into his eyes waiting for him to do it, "fuck" he mumbles moving his wand quickly grabbing my face and kissing me harshly, he picks me up and I wrap my legs around his waist kissing him back, he puts me on the bed gently then unbuttons my shirt kissing down my chest

I throw my head back giving him access to my neck, he finds my sweet spot sucking on it, then going back to my lips kissing me, I moan a little in his lips which triggered him since he started kissing harder, he takes his shirt off, then I see them. the scars and x's all over his chest, I let out a soft gasp.

"may I?" I ask him, he nods while looking down at me, I gently trace his scars he grabs my hand pointing to the one on his left, "I failed a mission that my father gave me, that was my punishment," I felt my stomach twisting, I move my hand to the right one

"and this one?"

"he didn't like the way I was talking to him so.."

I looked down, I never felt so bad then ever, but I didn't want him to think I thought of him as weak or if he thought this was some sort of pity party, I unbuttoned the rest of my shirt revealing my scars as well, he looks at me then them

"who-"

"my father, your not alone mattheo I understand you I don't want you to be alone with this." I say as I grab his face, he looked at the big one of my stomach, he traced it with his fingers

"this one" I say as I grab his hand pointing at the one he was tracing "I didn't want to kill my cousin, so he killed my cousin then brought me to the dungeons letting his men torture me for how long they like." he clenched his jaw looking back at me

"were they death eaters?" he asked, I looked down and he grabbed my chin gently "were they death eaters y/n."

"y-yes."

he gets up putting his shirt back on, I get up quickly grabbing my black sweater and zipping it "wha- what are you doing," I ask, "I need to go to the malfoy manner."

"what! no why?"

he turns around walking to me bending at my level "because I'm gonna find the men who tortured you and fucking kill them, "mattheo don't please" I say as I grab on side of his face, he looks me in the eyes "I'm sorry" he says quietly then vanishes

"FUCK" I yell putting my hands on my forehead out of anger, I get up quickly putting my black pants on and my leg band as well as my knife and then tying my shoes quickly, I wipe my face with a towel then tie my hair in a low bun, I grab my wand at apperate.

Y/n's outfit:

mattheo's pov:

I've never felt anger like this, I wanted to fucking kill them and cause them endless pain, I made it to the malfoy manor and every one in there bowed there heads

"my lor-" lucious says, I raise my hand silencing him

"the men who tortured y/n moon slytherin, where are you."

two men stepped up keeping there heads down, another man looks at me terrified, I walk to him and pull my wand out "I d-didn't do anything my lord." the man says, "I do not like people who lie, now I will make this easier for you if you tell me the truth I will kill you fast no pain will be done but if you continue with this lie I will kill you slowly and torture you until you beg me to kill you, understand?"

he nods his head quickly and goes to where the other two men are, I move my hand forward "run." I say, they all look at each other and the one who lied to me started running first, I cleaned my knives then threw one at him, the other two start running I wait one second making them think they have a chance to live then pulled out my wand

"crucio!"

one of them falls

"crucio!" I say again and the other one falls screaming, I walk to the one I threw the knife at, he starts coughing "tell me what you did to her."

"I- I only cut her a couple times and punched her once"

"how many cuts?"

"10 s-sir"

I clench my jaw pulling out another knife, I put it to his chest and start cutting, I cut my 9th line and his screaming his louder each time, finally I cut one more time but deeper, then I punch him over and over again

all I saw was blood, I wanted this man to die I wanted to cause him pain and suffering, finally I pulled my wand out

"AVADA-KADAVA"

I walk to the two men, I grab the skinny one by his collar "and you? what did you do to her" he starts smiling, I felt disgusted. "crucio'd her and entered her mind playing tricks with her over and over again until she begged me to kill her."

my blood started to boil but I decided to save this one for later. I grab the other guy "what did you do." I say, "I only cut her a couple tim-" I punch him and grab my knife stabbing him over and over again as he screams, I smile when I watch his eyes widen and I hear him stop breathing.

oh my god I'm going to throw up. mattheo moved from the dead body and I felt my heart drop to my stomach

"hey!"

oh shit, I start running and the guy starts chasing me

"shit, shit, shit shit shit" I mumble to my self as I run into a different hallway now being in the kitchen, "uh" I say

the elf turns around, "y/n- s-slytherin-n" the elf says, "h-how may I help y-you"

"oh uh I uh don't need anything, what's your name?"

"dobby-y"

"you don't need to be scared of me dobby"

"dobby is not scared" the elf says

I smile warmly and walk to him bending on my knees to be at his level "I hear your heart racing dobby, there is no need to be scared of me I wont harm you" I say, I grab my bag and pull out a chocolate bar handing it to dobby

"here, this always helps me when I'm scared, it's chocolate covered biscuit"

"f-for me, for dobby?"

"yes" I say as I giggle a bit

dobby looks behind me, I quickly spin around pulling out my wand only too see mattheo, I put my wand down quickly

"what are you doing here" he says coldly

"I uh-"

he walks to me grabbing my arm and pulling me to the stairs, he grabs me making me go up the stairs with him. finally we reach a room, which I think is his, he lets go of my arm and I start walking around the room touching everything, the bed sheets were black as well as his walls and he had this black marble floor that was so shiny you could see your reflection, it was pretty plain tho

"you can't be here y/n." mattheo says

I turn around quickly, "I'm only here because you decided to go on a killing mission for what." he pinches his nose looking down, I walk to him grabbing his face forcing him to look up, he stares into my eyes as his mouth opens a bit

"why mattheo."

"why what?" he says

"why did you kill those two men, w-why" I say, my stomach starts turning I felt sick.

"because"

"because what!"

"because they hurt you." he says

"okay! so what!"

he stands taller walking forward, I start walking back until I hit a wall "what do you mean so what" I look down "mattheo you killed two people." I'm no better then him but he had the choice, he didn't have to kill them.

"i- i need to go" I say

"wai-" mattheo says but I aparate before he finishes it.

"FUCK!" I yell

someone barges in the room "s-sir"

"what." I say out of anger

"the m-man?"

"put him in the dungeons I'll deal with him in a second."