We can always have a

good time and chill,

even if you just

want to fuck

for the thrill.

The mixed signals

cloud my mind;

figuring you out is

like trying to

converse with a mime.

We used to talk

for hours but

that part of us died

like malnourished flowers.

I know you've disappeared

in fear of me

acting weird,

but I want you

to understand that

I'm not trying

to be your man.

If that's what's

troubling you,

that part of

me is banned

and buried deep

in the sand.

I don't want to

lose such an

important friend and

I've realized that

it's just not going to be

worth it in the end.

You're not a goner,

I'm here to help you;

it's an honor.

I told you that I

wouldn't leave

like everyone else,

so here I stand,

keeping my promise

like a man.

Life is short,

we need to find

the time and

there's so much more

to life then nickels and dimes.

Just remember,

all the memories

to be made is

just a call away,

but I keep getting

the same answer,

"Not today".

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3/21/20

4:22 AM

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