I love you so much that I have to keep my distance and force myself to believe that these feelings are obsolete.

Even if it shook me to my core,

Tearing my insides to shreds.

So I'll try to bury these emotions in the deepest, darkest hole I can find.

As I shovel, the tears roll down my cheeks,

eyes burning,

Vision blurred and obscured.

Nothing but anger and confusion,

Resentment and fear,

Love and lust.

Pain and suffering.

Spite.

All being buried beneath my feet.

There are so many emotions that I lost control,

completely overwhelmed and encaged inside my own mind.

Disoriented.

An endless staircase of dark thoughts and questions.

Questions that haven't been answered.

So many loose ends left untied,

Zero closure,

moods constantly changing like the phases of the moon.

My greatest fear is that I won't be able to get over you,

Move on or forget.

You've left my heart uninhabitable,

And my outlook on life distressed.

They'll forever stay buried and concealed.

Disregarded.

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2/13/20

2:00 AM

Edited: 12:07 PM

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私はいつもあなたのことを考えています。