I continue to feel helpless and go through tribulations on my own.

Yet I can't take advice I just cope all alone.

Though all the help I need is around me,

I just need to let it be known.

Currently I'm under so much pressure but it'll never be shown.

Signs of help will continue to stay unknown.

Thoughts overcoming and ruining me like an abandoned home.

People act like they understand when in reality they have no idea.

They can't relate.

All they do is judge with pessimism and hate.

I listen staring into their eyes and say to myself, "well this is great".

More advice that I'll never grasp and cannot take.

It usually goes something like this:

"You got this, it'll be a piece of cake."

Judging by their tone of voice and body posture that the answer was faked.

It really sucks not being able to receive it.

Sometimes I barely listen,

It goes through one ear and out the other.

Knowing that the advice bestowed upon me will just fade away and melt like butter.

I have a hard time trusting others.

For now I'll just let all my problems hide.

Although the miserable pain and cries for help will never subside.

7/8/19

1:09 AM