"So you're telling me you only remember a kiss, that's it? Not when we first met or anything? Do you remember Kyla?" I questioned, watching him lean against the other side of he couch.

"I just remember her face and name and something about a party. I remembered Xavier and someone named Emily but I don't remember if we were friends. I mean- I know me and Xavier were friends but I just- I don't know Thea." He mumbled out, taking in a heavy breath. Damien rubbed his chin before looking at me.

"I want some answers now," He asked, making me nervously look at him. I had a feeling it was going to be about himself and I'm not even sure I can answer that.

"How much did I know you?" He asked making me painfully look away. God it was like talking to a new person.

"Well um, we went on vacation together, you came over every day to hang out with my mom and you liked cookies and cream ice cream but only if we raced there," I took in a shaker deep breath. It felt like I was talking about someone who died and it painfully hurt to say every word but I wasn't done.

"You stopped me from getting hit, you might have been a alcoholic and you got in that wreck because I wouldn't pick up my phone and forgive you." I whispered the last part making him more intrigued.

"Why was I wanting you to forgive me?" I heard him ask making me sigh heavily before turning to him.

"We were a- you know- a thing and I saw you kissing another girl. You also asked me why someone like you would love someone like me." I mumbled, watching out the backyard window with a frown.

He opened his mouth to talk but I shook my head. "I don't understand, you acted like you knew me at the hospital." I said quietly, changing the subject away from the party.

"I-i thought I did. It was weird, I felt like I knew you, but the more I thought about it the more I couldn't remember. I didn't even remember your last name." He whispered making me stand up with a heavy sigh.

"Okay, well. If you want to sit with us at lunch that's fine. Maybe it'll help jog your memory." I mumbled my body turning to leave. I've been here for almost two hours and Xavier would kill me.

"Wait Thea," He begged making me shake my head as I stood in the frame of the hallway.

"I really can't do this when you keep saying my name like that." I whispered, my eyes glancing at him before walking toward the door.

"I just want to know more." He called making me turn to look at him.

"Know what Damien? Your favorite color is red, you only like gory movies, you smoke cigarettes, you usually wear black white or gray and nothing in between. You hated me the first day we met and the second time we met I got you in a fist fight, you were my first kiss and you took me to the fucking beach because I've never been before! Is that what you want to know? Is that enough answers?" I didn't mean to get mad. I didn't, I just- non of this felt right.

Nothing about this felt the same. He wasn't the same and I needed time to realize that. I mean his hair was neat he was wearing a three quarter zip up sweater that I've never seen before.

"If you want to sit with us at lunch tomorrow I will try and be as much help as I can but right now I can't." I whispered, looking at the ground. From the corner of my eye I watched him nod his head, trying to fit puzzle pieces in tight spaces.

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It was the day after I had talked to Damien at his house and I felt dumb. I felt bad and mad and all types of emotions.

I haven't talked to Xavier since I got home and he didn't seem to want to talk to me either. I was fine with it, I just needed time to cool off.

Leaving Damien's house was weird, it was awkward. I ended up just walking out and shutting the door.

But now I was in Xavier's car on my way to school and we both haven't spoken a word. I definitely was not going to apologize to him. I had nothing to apologize for, while he did.

Luckily I managed to bust out of the car while it parked just in time for Ashley to get out, my eyes watching her curiously. I wonder if she knew too.

Quickly I grabbed her hand and forced her to walk with me. "Xavier is hiding stuff from me." I whispered watching her glance back at his car before looking in front of her again.

"What did he do?" She whispered giving me time to explain my night last night. I mean she was genuinely shocked.

"That's funny you say that because Damien came to Xavier's after you left and he looked at me like we never met." Ashley told me making me genuinely sigh only because we were both as confused.

"God I thought we were done with secrets after Emily left." She whined making me nod my head while we rounded near my locker.

I went on with the day like nothing happened. Everyone still watched Damien and I in class but we never talked anymore.

When the bell rang for lunch I was genuinely nervous. I doubt he would take up my offer but who knows. I mean he just seems so new.

I didn't even know what to think really but I sat down at my regular table and waited for Alex and Ashley to sit down.

"Okay so I'm confused." Alex mumbled sliding into his spot across from me as I glanced up.

"Thea you have to eat." Ashley hissed throwing a sandwich to my side of the table as she sat beside Alex. I just nodded agree to both statements.

Yeah I knew I needed to eat but I didn't feel like it At the moment.

Everyone started in deep conversation when Xavier sat down but I tuned it out, my eyes watching the window.

I wonder is Cameron would've have liked it here or what crowd he would fit into. Who knows, maybe he would've just stuck with me.

I doubt it though, he never liked my idea of "friends" but, but this was different. This school, the people were different. Not everyone was a asshole, I mean most but a lot of people were genuinely good here.

I did like it here more than Montana it just felt more like ho-

"Can I sit?"

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