Jasper is at work, Bennett is at preschool which means three things.

1. tv to myself

2. Pizza delivery

3. time with my baby girl

All that is true considering Stellar and I are both sitting on the couch her lying down not really paying attention to my favourite show and I am eating cheese pizza. I offered her some but she just stared at me blinking. If she could talk I bet she would say nothing.

I picked up another piece of pizza when Stella Ruth loved her food causing the pizza to slap onto my face.

She giggled and I mutter something before going to wipe off the cheese from my face.

" I" She screamed and I stopped in my tracks, I turned around to see Stella Ruth standing behind me trying to keep herself up.

" What did you, same sweetie?" I asked

" no" she replied and my eyes widened did she just say two words.

I quickly washed my face off then turned towards her. She had grabbed onto my legs to keep herself from falling. I picked her up

"Sweetie can you say that again? for mommy," I asked and she blinked at me 

"NO, I NO NO I NO" she screamed at the top of her lungs, 

" what's wrong Stellar?" I asked her and she shrugged dramatically. I smiled kissing her forehead, she giggled and we sat back down on the couch. her head against my chest, now she was paying attention to the tv. Laughing when the fake background laughing laughed.

"I no" She whispered and I played with her hair, she doesn't have much may be enough to make two pigtails. I combed my fingers through her little hairs, she doesn't seem to mind too interested in the movie figures on the tv. 

She pointed at the tv " I" she said and I looked up, the main character was eating chicken noodle soup. 

" you want that for dinner?" I asked and she blinked up at me she made an unrecognizable noise and pointed at the noodle soup then stuck out her tongue which was adorable. " ok we can have that for dinner actually I should start dinner now" 

I picked her up and balanced her on my hip, setting her down in her cot safe distance from the kitchen. She stood up watching me as I got the ingredients out to make her suggestion of chicken noodle soup. it is easy to make so I don't mind.

After I finished making the hot soup I took out crackers and set the table, the front door opened just as I finished and Jasper and Bennett came in. 

"mmm smells lovely," Jasper said 

" go wash your hands," I said to them both and Bennett rushed off to wash his hands Jasper following lazily behind.

.......

After we got the kids to sleep I was too tired to watch tv so I just sat in bed reading a book. Jasper walked into the room. His black PJ pants hanging around his waist, his chest was wet with droplets of water falling from his hair.

" 'ey love," He said getting into bed, sitting on top of the sheets. " So I was thinking about kindergarten for Bennetts kindergarten options"

I hummed in acknowledgment 

" I was thinking we should do an Iq test so we know his options," Jasper said turning on his phone, I was no longer reading.

" what" I whispered " NO NO WE ARE NOT LEAVING HIM " it came out as a yell as I jumped up out of bed.

" I neve..." 

" He is just a child I'm not going to just let a test tell us if our son should be more WHAT independent I love him and I'm not leaving him" I screamed a put my arms around my head and shut my eyes. Trying to ignore the stupid memories...before my stepbrothers.

Suddenly there were arms around me pulling me into their chest, I opened my eyes. " I would never leave him it was just suggested to me on Pinterest, I'm so sorry I can't believe I forgot" He whispered into my hair his chin resting on the top of my head. 

" I overreacted I know you would never I jus..." I started but he cut me off

" Hey no, what your parents did to you was horrible they should have never left you alone, ok, but your an amazing woman and those experiences have made you strong I love you," He said pulling me to sit down on the bed. 

" I love you too" I whispered and he smiled against my head.

"NO" a scream came down the hall and I laughed, Jasper kissed my forehead.

" I'll go see why she is up," Jasper said standing up.