I got ready as fast as I could and left the house. I texted Britt earlier and she invited me over for lunch whilst I will be waiting for Brody to wake up.

Good start to a 'study week', the finals were close and things were happening again.. This is more important than any exam though.

As I got to Britt's house, she invited me in. I greeted her mother and she offered me a seat at the table. It looked amazing, there was everything you could possibly eat. I started eating and after I ate a lot of food, I sat next to Britt in the living room.

"He was drunk again wasn't he?" Britt asked when I sat besides her.

"Yup." I answered. It wasn't my story to tell, I'll let Brody explain the rest.

2 hours later Brody finally came down. It was 1pm already, he had enough sleep.. That's for sure. And it wasn't even that late yesterday. He was drunk at 10pm.. Explain that.

I helped his mom clean everything up and talked with Britt about the exams.

Brody didn't see me at first. Their stairs begin a few steps further from the front door. So when you come downstairs, you have to turn left to enter the kitchen and dinning area.

It's when he looked back after he sat down that he saw me.

"Safia?!" He said surprised.

"Oh by the way Safia is here, she wanted to talk about the finals next week." His mom said.

She is so going to hate me after she found out what really was going on.

"Yeah thanks for the clarification mom, I hadn't recognized her." Brody said.

Oh my God Safia was here, but why? I didn't remembered much about yesterday, except.. Safia brought me home, that's the only thing I could remember. I had a massive headache.

I promised myself not to drink anymore, that promise didn't last long. Even though I drank, I felt guilty. Guilty maybe because I've read something about drinking in Islam or maybe this is a usual thing.

You know like when someone drank the night before and promise not to drink ever again, but that same evening it happens all over again. It probably was that.

Okay Brody, look like you're not interested, because that was what I was doing for the last few weeks.

"What do you want Safia?" I asked.

"Hey! What's wrong with you?!" My mom asked after she heard me acting all rude.

"What?"

I'm really not up to this, it's like.. I dunno, maybe 10am, I'm shirtless and there are already people shouting and asking me questions. Can't I wake up first for God's sake?

"It's fine miss, Brody, can I talk to you in your room?" Safia asked politely, followed by Britt whispering "oeeeh".

Very mature Britt.

Mom threw a towel at Britt and widened her eyes towards me, indicating that I should do what Safia was saying.

"Fine." I said as I stood up.

Once we arrived in my room, I laid down on my bed not bothering to look at Safia.

I need to keep this act up.

"Okay sit up douche." She said pulling my arm which made me indeed sit up.

What's up with her?

"Safia I told you that I don't wa.." I couldn't even finish my sentence or I felt my cheek burn.

Safia just smacked me in the face pretty hard.

"Why the hell was that for?" I shouted rubbing the sore spot.

"Now you're going to shut up and listen!" She shouted/whispered back. Like she was shouting, but was still whispering so my mom or Britt wouldn't hear her. Yeah weird I know.

Okay, I'm really interested what she has to say now.

She threw a shirt that she found on the ground in my face commanding me to put it on.

"Okay chef" I said. After that she dead stared me for talking, "oh yeah sorry, forgot that I'm not allowed to talk" I said putting my shirt on.

She was annoyed, but hey, annoying people is one of my specialities.

"I'm waiting?" This time I was getting annoyed. She was just standing there, what it seemed like trying to find the right words.

What the hell was she about to say.

And then, hallelluja, she finally spoke.

"I know everything! How could you lie to me hu?! Everything you said killed me and all you did it for was just so you could me push away again? I hate the lies you tell over and over again and I hate it that I care so much." She fell on her knees and was crying. I was shocked and the tears started the build up in the corner of my eyes.

She knew?

How?

I sat down on the ground in front of her and lifted her face up, "How?" I asked.

"I read every message you sent to Malik." She replied.

She knew, she knew that I had cancer and wasn't battling it.

"I hate you to the bone." She said taking her face in her hands.

I stood up and needed to cool myself down. I was angry, hurt and most of all I was facing reality.

Now that Safia knew, everybody will know and I will be known as 'the guy that had cancer and didn't fight it'.

I threw a few books across the room, which made Safia stand up.

"No!" She said, "You're not allowed to be angry! That's my job!"

She grabbed my hands and threw them over her shoulders. She hugged me tightly whilst I heard her still crying.

"I can't lose you." She sobbed.

"Please fight it.. do it for me."

I pulled myself out of her hug and didn't even look at her.

"I made my decision 2 weeks ago, I'm not planning on changing it any time soon." I responded.

I knew that as soon as I looked at her, I would have a reason to fight.

But somehow, I didn't.

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~Edited by R3Hijabi ~